Yvette1026

Only you know what is really right for you. I would suggest you get the band as it will be a tool to help you with your hunger, not feel so hungry and make you feel full faster when you are eating. From the sounds of it, these are all things you need help with. If you're having anxiety that causes you to eat, you would do well with a tool that helps you stop. Yes most of this is a mental battle, but in the meantime, you'll have some backup while you win that mental fight. Reschedule and go back in.

wow...Sorry to hear about that, but glad you got it worked out! But focusing on your behavior/habit. How did you feel after you went through the drive thru? Did you reach over and want to eat, and then it hit you "I can't eat that"....or was it just the stress relief of knowing the food was there?

Not embarrassed, not covered up, just me. Loving me. I know skinny women who don't love themselves the way I love me. I don't think that's something that size on a rack can teach you. Has to come from within.

I think what's different about me and most people here is I love myself, maybe a lil' too much. I don't aspire to be thin, I don't want to be skinny. I love my curves, my shape, me. I'm an hourglass, maybe the big ben of hourglasses but an hourglass nonetheless. Part genes part hard work, regardless of how much I weigh I still have a "shape" and it's not just round. When I lost weight before I kept the same shape, just a smaller version of it. I'm in faith that the same thing will happen now. I like me, I like my big butt, musclar and powerful legs, I like my arms, my face (minus the double chin lol) and my breasts. YES there's room for improvement, that's why I'm doing this. But I just don't look in the mirror and think "ugh" like some of the people I've talked to on here do. We're all beautiful in our own way and pardon the pun but weigh, as well. 300, 200 or 150 I'm still fly. I'm still beautiful, I'm still me. And because of that I think this journey will be easy for me. Self love is what it takes. Yes I could sit and point out my double chin, my backfat, how the tops of my thighs aren't so solid any more, but hey I can still wear a skirt or bathing suit an nobody really notices.. I could point out how I have a stomach, that thankfully is soft so people don't mistake me for being pregnant I could point out how my upper arm is a lil' loose as I age, I like to think its from all of the beauty waving I did lol...j/k But point all of that out wouldn't do me any good, besides it doesn't define me. I have always been and will probably always be a plus sized woman. Yes yes, I know we all want to be skinny, yeah not me. I'm just not part of that crowd. People keep making comments to me about "You're so pretty, imagine what you'll look like after" - Fa' real? I mean really?? was that supposed to be a compliment? I look pretty freakin' good now, and I'm not sure the world is ready for a skinny Yvette LMAO.. Ok maybe that's just funny between me and my BFF.. lmao.. but I digress.. I'm just saying.. if we love ourselves it makes the journey easier.. If you're not constantly jumping on the scale, getting caught up with who from your surgery month is losing more than you or whatever the situation is, you're bound to succeed and do it with ease. Excuse the outfit, this was takin' before a "trailer park party" but as I was going through old pics I figured I'd stop and show the world what 5'5 315lbs looks like on me...

Pre-band but losing and my underwear are entirely too big. Part of me wants to go buy new ones, but then part of me is like wait, we get banded on Friday, let's see what happens after that. lol This may be an overshare but I think it's a good problem to have. In other news, other items of clothing and now loose and too big, my one time favorite fitted t-shirt is fitted no more.. YAY! Well I think, on the upside I get to go shopping. On the double upside, my mother goes through periods of buying everything I buy clothing wise, soooo I can just go into her closet since she's smaller than me and keep my cute outfits LOL.. well for a few sizes anyways, until I get to a size 18, then I'll HAVE to go buy stuff. In a 22 now, so it won't be long... but either way it's still some cushion. YAY a good problem to have. I'm constantly hungry...but that's because my metabolism is working again, YAY! Another good problem to have.. I'm sure I'll think of more, I'm hungry time for a shake..

Something REALLY isn't right here... really...really really isn't right. Unless you have a servere liver problem/medical condition none of this make any sense. I would get a second opinion and/or make sure you're fully understanding his instructions. From your pic you don't look very big, even with a BMI of 50+ pre-op diet is only 3 weeks.

Taking the protein in is what helps you burn and lose, to you you say it's extra calories, but those are the GOOD calories you need. If you want to avoid "extra calories" avoid the m&m's etc... they have no nutrional value and are literally just taking up space in your pouch and on your body. Comparing yourself to others isn't the best idea, you're doing great at 63lbs in 7 months, that's just under 10lbs a month, which is GREAT. No need to feel defeated, be encouraged. Even if you gain or go up and down, you're still doing great and you have the tool to be able to do what it is you need to do to achieve your goal.

Yay for you! You can do it! I look forward to reading about your journey!

You are 1/2 way there... and it'll be here before you know it. But please don't wait to live your life, your life is happening now. You are BEAUTIFUL, and regardless if you want to wear the size or not, get something to make you feel good. You should feel good, you're making great changes for yourself and right now you're in a holding pattern until it goes through, but live every day to the fullest. Don't rob yourself of your own joy.

Ok so I've been MIA for a minute, I needed some time to think about everything that I'm going through, is this what's really right for me. Two of the people I respect most in the world have voiced their opinions on my surgery. My mother has voiced the same and so forth. They all say the same thing "Do what you want to do, but you can do it on your own, so you don't really need to do this." I went from 430+ down to 287. The plus is because I couldn't weigh myself for a long time before that. So I lost that weight and have kept the bulk of it off. I got into a long distance relationship for 2 yrs and he was jealous of me going to the gym, hearing the guys make comments, saying, hi, flirting, etc...So I spent 2 yrs of my life on the phone, laying around.. and packed weight back on reaching back up to 330lbs. I started to diet and got fed up with the up and down losing the same 30-35lbs, especially when I can gain and lose 15lbs in just a weeks time. So I decided to make yet another appointment to go see about the lapband. I've been researching this for 5 yrs...on and off, back and forth. Listening to everyone else's opinions and thoughts on it, wait til you have kids, you can do it on your own, etc... Thing is, I'm tired of waiting. I've been a size 14 or bigger since I was 8 yrs old. Yes 8 as in eight, not a typo. And yes I know people look at me and they think "Oh you're not that big." fact is I am, the numbers don't lie. I'm mostly muscle and I'm solid, which is why most people guess me anywhere around 200-250lbs if they guess my weight. And I'm wide front to back, not side to side. At my pre-op visits people always comment on how they thought I was post-op and would say things like "wow I would like to have your shape/figure when I'm done." - Umm k that's great and I appreciate the compliment. However, I'm PRE-OP. So all of that being said, I had to take few days to get my mind right, and not be here and caught up in all of it. My Pastor voiced his concern and doesn't think I should do it. His wife (also my Pastor) said the same. My Mother, my friends, etc... So now I feel like I'm being forced to lie, well not lie, just not tell anyone. Which I wasn't really doing anyways. I think I told 5 or 6 people total and 4 out of those 5 or 6 have said something negative about it and tried persuade me not to do it. So I sat and thought, ok do I really want to do this? Less than a week from surgery, do I really want to walk away from this? I couldn't really bring it here until my mind was made up. I know there are so many people here who are waiting, trying to get approved, etc..and here I am approved, scheduled and thinking about walking away. My mind is made up, I'll be doing it on Friday. No more, no less and more importantly nobody's business. I'll have church on Thursday and see my Pastor, Friday is Surgery and then I'll see his wife on Sunday. I'll have friday and saturday to recoup and nobody will know the difference. I'll see my mom Friday after surgery. She knows I'm doing it, even though she thinks I should wait she's supporting whatever it is I think I need to do. But everybody else doesn't need to know. I'm sure some of you are like well just miss church or whatever...but I can't. I'm the church administrator and assistant to my Pastors so I have to be there. Be available to pick them up from the airport, check them into the hotel, etc..whatever needs to be done. I'm pretty sure I can pull it off without anyone noticing, the only issue I may have is luggage, I can't lift anything over 15lbs for the next 3-4 weeks. I think I'll be ok for this week, as the only trip before the end of the year is this Sunday and she'll be coming from San Diego with just a carry on...for an hour or two... By the time I see them after the new year, I'll be healed up for the most part. In the stress of this I ended up cheating on my pre-op diet 2 days in a row ok well more like 1.5.. sunday morning I had a bagel AND a cheese danish with a yoplait and some fruit. Then yesterday I had supreme croissant from jack in the box with the intent of just eating the egg and meat out of the center.. yeah no, ate it all oh and tacos.. I wanted to have those greasy best thing you ever at at 2am after you've been out drinking all night tacos. But oddly enough they don't taste as good when you're sober and it's it's 12 in the afternoon lol. Then I had the weirdest craving for chicken salad, which isn't too bad, but the box of wheat thins I ate the chicken salad on, umm yeah that was kinda bad. So anyways - that's that.. That's where I've been. But my mind is made up, I'm on track.. basically 2 more days, 3 more sleeps and it's here. WOW. Father I thank you for the opportunity of new life, best life. I thank you for rapid recovery and healing. I thank you for a solid mind and unwaivering spirit. I thank you for all you've done for me in the past and all that you will do for me in the future. You are Alpha and Omega and I give you all the Glory. Amen.

I couldn't agree with you ladies more. My mind is made up, I'm ready to go. 2 days.. actually less than that, by this time Friday I will be home and banded. WOW Loseit - I know, it's not easy, even having the band isn't easy. People say it's cheating or a copout but it's so much more than that, we have to work just as hard, if not harder, on diets I always had one "free day" a week. There's no option for the all you can eat day here lol. Laura - I was looking at your profile earlier and was inspired. Thank you for your advice and kind words! I really took the time to examine this and myself and I KNOW this is the right decision for me. My issue is not overeating, it's bad eating habits and volume eating at one time. Justifying it by saying, "well I didn't eat all day." - things that even when I'm "dieting" I don't control or change. I usually just eat and then workout a lil' more to burn it off. I know because of my build and past experience that I can eat whatever I want and lose as long as I'm working out. But when the workout stops, the eating doesn't change.. and that's what I need this tool for. Decision is made. No more will there be me eating nothing all day, then inhaling 2 mcdoubles, french fries and a large sweet tea, like it's a regular sized meal that anybody would eat. In speaking with those close to me, most people were like I can't finish a double cheeseburger.. Let alone 2...yeah I don't have that issue.. hence the NEED for the band. So everyone else's opinions aren't valid in this case. I know what I want and need to do.

I was just about to come ask how you were doing.. Glad things are going well, you should be ok, you did everything mushy. Let us know what the Doc says.. and funny, I saw Precious yesterday, it was good movie but over hyped in my opinion. Maybe because I had my own eff'd up childhood and know that as heartbreaking and sad as it is, it happens. I just had a huge debate about it with my friends last night too lol. I think it would have been a GREAT movie if it would have shown how she overcame all of that. That to me would have been inspiring and awesome, because that's the real story. Instead they leave it open to draw your own conclusions. Oh well just my humble opinion lol. Hope you're having a great day!

This is a great list.. add in the gas-x strips and I think you've got it all.. I need to go back and get some popsicles before friday.

you're completely right and you need to do what's for you. She'll get over it, or if it makes her feel better just be like you know I've reconsidered and leave it at that. You didn't say WHAT you've reconsidered in this case it would be letting her use you calendar in the future lol

Congratulations...almost at the same starting point. I go in on friday, hope I do as well as you!

I would introduce whey protein shakes before you go to bed to slow the catabolic state and then have one again when you wake up. Remember you want to take in as much protein as you want to weigh. So if you want to weigh 200lbs, take in 200grams of protein daily to keep your muscles fed building, instead of losing them. (200lbs is just an example.) Anything your body doesn't use it will eliminate the old fashion way, so don't worry about over doing it. Eat your proteins, introduce protein shakes again right before bed and right when you wake and that should help out alot.