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I don't have much support here either. So I think I am just gonna keep it private for awhile. Not everyone is understanding but there is a ton of support on this site.:rolleyes2:

Sorry you had a prob with another member. Glad I have been avoiding those post. Congrats on your body changes.

Sorry you had such a bad virus. Is gastroentritis common with a band? Or just coincidence? Hope your cold clears up soon too and that the 10 pounds is permanent.

I love to hear how well people are doing on the band. I can't wait for the day I reach under 200 lbs. Atleast now I can see the day coming. I have a five year old son and can't wait to be able to take him places and not be embarassed of my weight.

I read those post when I was first doing research on the band. I almost decided not to do it but then I met my surgeon and feel alot more confident in my decision to do it.I am careful to stay away from the negative blogs. My experience with the band will be my very own. No one else will have the same exact experience I will have so I take the info with a grain of salt. I have have read so much positive stuff about the band, it far out weighs the negative. Don't let things get you down.

Linda, It is great to hear how wonderful you are doing. I would probly have been a baby for a few days. Glad it is all fixed up for you and hope your recovery is smooth.

They have my lap work now so every thing is still going as planned.

Welcome spence. I too am looking to sign those food divorce papers. It has become consuming for me and I don't want to be thinking about food all the time.Good luck to you.

Well I had a post all typed out and it got lost after I clicked submit. I will try this again. Had a great time at dinner and the nutcracker last night. I didn't feel any anxiety with this couple. They were really talkative which helped. Half way through the nutcraker my son anounced that he could "see their underpant" lol. The two little boys behaved really well for it being a ballet. I started getting pedicures about a year ago. I love them. The leg massages are great. Although I haven't had one lately because I am saving for my surgery. Here in Florida It is always sandal weather so I get them year round. My surgeons office called yesterday and said they never received my bloodwork. I gotta call around today and figuer out what happened to it or if I need to redo it. I have an appt on wed with the surgeon and he wanted to go over it so I may have to post pone. Which is ok. I have 3 major test this week and really don't need distractions. It just seems like it is taking forever for my surgery date to come. I can hardly wait.

Meredith, Physics, Wow. I am amazed. Goodluck on all the end of semester finals and stuff. I have always wanted to visit new york. I hope you have a blast. Laura, your little one singing the beatles is going to be so adorable. My son was just in a program last night at church. My husband and I giggled the whole time. There were some really precious moments. Enjoy them and takes lots of pics. Tonite I am taking my son to see the nutcracker. It has kinda become a tradition for us since before he was even born. He loves to watch the tree "grow" and the mice and soldiers fight. We invited his friend and their parents to go with us so it will be an intresteing evening with two 5 year olds. My son always causes us to leave at intermission cause he just can't sit still through the whole thing. I am a little nervous about hanging out with his friends parents. I have social anxiety but I am trying to fight it because I need face to face friends. My son's friend is also going to stay the night. My in laws are excited more about this sleepover than they were the last. Partly because they are good friends with this family and know that they are strong christians. They get concernced when I have friends who aren't. I just think it is adorable that my little boy has his first best friend. Thank you all for supporting my decision to take mood stabilizers. It means alot to me that I can be honest about it and receive such positive feedback. I am tired of living feeling guilty because the 2 churchs I have attended in the past years have decided it is not something they want to endorse but would rather speak against. I have stopped going to either of those churches which is the main source of tension between me and my MIL. That is why all the other crazy stuff happens.

Congrats. I am glad the surgery went so well for you. My surgery is scheduled for 1/4/10. It is comforting to hear you are healing nicely. Welcome to LBT.

It is bewildering to think the day will come when I won't be the biggest girl in the room. Congrats on your surgery. Glad it went so smooth.

I just got back from anatomy class and I am pretty sure I just aced the first half of my final. I am so excited. This is my first semester since I dropped out 10 years ago. I never expected I would do so well. I honestly thought I would get B's and C's but so far all A's. Some of them barely A's. I am also setting the curve in my human growth and development class. Hopefully this is just getting th ball rolling for my new life. I will have a new career and a made over body, a new wardrobe, a whole new attitude. I really am looking forward to the future. I am also making new friends. Which is hard because I have some social anxiety. I am scared to death to talk to new people but these classes are pulling me outo of my comfort zone and forcing me to get to know people. Hopefully I will find a friend somewhere. A best friend that doesn't care about my faults, that I can talk to about personal stuff and that I can share clothes with. Have I hit my midlife crisis at age 28? I am not happy where I was at but I sure am climbing out of that ditch. Is my husband gonna like the new me? I really am not sure. It already scares him that I have made a few homosexual friends. I think he is a little upset with my new assertivness too. I usually am very passive but lately have been putting my foot down. expecially about getting the Lapband. I had hoped once I graduated school he could return but he seems happy in his job right now so I don't want to push him out of it. I am doing this for all of us. Going to school so we can be more finacially stable and losing the weight has so many benifits. One thing I am hoping for is and improved labido. Even more energy. Once I am earning the money I want to be able to spend the money with my family. Visiting places, flying, rollercoasters, waterparks all of which are so hard now. Even maintaining a house, yard work and stuff. It all seems possible now and I hope my husband will see that I am considering him when I considered the band. I don't want to leave this world early and leave him alone with my son.

I just got back from anatomy class and I am pretty sure I just aced the first half of my final. I am so excited. This is my first semester since I dropped out 10 years ago. I never expected I would do so well. I honestly thought I would get B's and C's but so far all A's. Some of them barely A's. I am also setting the curve in my human growth and development class. Hopefully this is just getting th ball rolling for my new life. I will have a new career and a made over body, a new wardrobe, a whole new attitude. I really am looking forward to the future. I am also making new friends. Which is hard because I have some social anxiety. I am scared to death to talk to new people but these classes are pulling me outo of my comfort zone and forcing me to get to know people. Hopefully I will find a friend somewhere. A best friend that doesn't care about my faults, that I can talk to about personal stuff and that I can share clothes with. Have I hit my midlife crisis at age 28? I am not happy where I was at but I sure am climbing out of that ditch. Is my husband gonna like the new me? I really am not sure. It already scares him that I have made a few homosexual friends. I think he is a little upset with my new assertivness too. I usually am very passive but lately have been putting my foot down. expecially about getting the Lapband. I had hoped once I graduated school he could return but he seems happy in his job right now so I don't want to push him out of it. I am doing this for all of us. Going to school so we can be more finacially stable and losing the weight has so many benifits. One thing I am hoping for is and improved labido. Even more energy. Once I am earning the money I want to be able to spend the money with my family. Visiting places, flying, rollercoasters, waterparks all of which are so hard now. Even maintaining a house, yard work and stuff. It all seems possible now and I hope my husband will see that I am considering him when I considered the band. I don't want to leave this world early and leave him alone with my son.

Julie, Be careful today going out. Is it snowy? Deb thanks for the encouragment. The past few years have been really crazy for me as I try to live with this new opstical in life. Thankfully I have been overcoming it lately. I am pretty sure I just aced the first half of my final in anatomy. Now I need to study for the second half and my Human growth and development final. They are both next wed. Gotta work some stuff out with my grant too. Make sure everything is lined up for next semester. That way I can spend the holidays reading Eclipse and practicing for my literacy exam. This is my first semester back to school in 10 years. I never imagined I would do so well. It was hard work but it is paying off. Expecially once I was diagnosed. The meds we tried originally were almost crippling. I couldn't drive or care for my son because they made me sleep so much. Slowly i am gaining my life back and it is becoming more than I ever expected. The lap band will just be another chapter of overcoming for me.

Congrats on cleaning the house I struggle with it too. I can't wait to feel like my old self again.

I will go easily through the turnstyle. I will not wonder if someone is watching me eat at a restraunt.

They are mood stablizers. We kept trying new ones and with every new one I tried I gained more weight. I gain 70 pounds in 7 months. I was at 190 2 years ago. Now they have fiqured out which ones work and I gotta fiquer out how to get the weight back off. My endo says with the meds and my insulin resistance the weight is not likely to come off without the lap band. I had sugar problems since I was nine but wasn't obese till about age 23, now I am morbidly. When I look in the mirror I don't even recognize myself. They said I would have gained alot more if I hadn't worked out at curves. I don't really talk about my sickness much because people freak and close me out. Expecially my friends from church. That is why I come to forums. It is easier to talk.

I have been doing strength training on a weight machine. And I do a little Richard Simmons Like 15-20 min. I tried curves. I went for 6 months straight Atleast 3 times a week but usually 5. The medications I am taking still made me gain though I was working out like crazy and so disappointed I quit. I guess if I did something like walking it wouldn't be as tiring and I could do a full 30 min. I just can't keep up with simmons for 30 min.

Indigo, Thanks for them menu, Your one pot oneder sounds good. I will give it a try. My Doc was really insistant that I dont count calories and fat. The nutritionist told me Look at 2 things on the label, serving size and carbs. I am a little bewildered by the whole thing. Concerned about my cholesterol too. The daily log I keep says I am getting 1200-1300 cals a day and 3/4 of that is fat. (ON a good day) The next day I am so hungry I make bad decisions. To be honest I don't know how to lose weight. Everything I have done has failed. Everything I have learned about calories and the food pyramid hasn't worked. I totally gave up on losing weight. Surrendered to being fat. Then I meet this doc who say he can guide me through it. Now I am questioning if I should trust him. If I don't lose weight I will have to find another Doc but that would mean traveling. I know he is right about one thing. I am addicted to carbs. The weather here is awesome. It has been a little rainy but today it was 72. I didn't even need a jacket. My Son did awesome at his rehersal tonite.

Are you drinking while your eatting? If your not feeling full I would move my appt up and get in sooner. Have him take all the fluid out to see how much is in there. This can see if there is a leak. Then he can just fill you back up again. You date for your next fill is already outta date you may need to edit it.

Linda, Hope your surgery goes well today. Good luck. Morning Ladies, Weighed myself this morning I it looks like I am down 5 pounds. Last time I went to the doc I thought I had lost but their scale didn't read the same as mine. Someone ate all the eggs I bought. So I skipped breakfast this morning. Only to find myself cutting up a piece of carrot cake. I seriously can't say no. I ate some of it but then realized it was way to sweet. Maybe because I haven't had sweets in so long? My son has rehaersal for his christmas play tonite and we won't be home for dinner. Which means we will be eatting on the run. Do yall still eat out and what do you usually order. My doc request I go low carb. It is already a battle ground in my head over what I will eat tonite. Do I have the strength to stay away from Mcd's fries? Is it really gonna bother me to eat one "bad meal" in a month. I don't wanna gain back the 5 I have lost. I am just so tempted right now. My MIl asked me to cook mexican casserole last night which is full of carbs. So I did but I tried to thaw out shrimp for myself. It didn't thaw in time for dinner and it doesn't taste good thawed in the micro. So I pick all the meat and cheese out of this casserole. I know I still got some carbs though. It is my fault though for not thawing the shrimp earlier. Anyway I guess yall can tell I am still fighting with food. Sometimes I win but it is those times I don't that get me down.

Maggie that is great thinking. It has crossed my mind too. I wanna try all sorts of differnt styles. Not baggy clothes but tailored. No more scrounging around to find Cheap clothes. I bought cheap stuff because I didn't know when I would stop gaining and haveing to buy new clothes again. I want to be able to find that "perfect" pair of jeans. I want to be able to wear the tops that biker ladies wear when I am riding our motorcycle. Shorts, I haven't worn them in probly 6,7 years. Shoes that fit right. My feet measure size six but I have to wear an eight because they are so fat. Congrats to hollie and Jfc.

Welcome Jenn, I have been here about a week now and have founf great support here. I hope you do too.

Apples I def appreciate your input. Thanks for caring enough to be frank. I guess we are just in a fog of hurt right now because of somethings she has done recently and we aren't seeing clearly. She is very judgmental of me. Really of all the girls in her life. I just feel like she will say I have screwed up again. Did I really screw up by getting fat? I don't think I did. I just didn't know any different and my meds made me crazy hungry. Who wants to talk about their weight issues with someone anyway? I don't want to answer the personal questions she is gonna ask. Like how much are we spending on this and why I can't just diet. Diets don't work. I had given up hope of ever losing weight until my doc told me I should look into getting a lap band. Plus I am afraid maybe she will talk my husband out of it then we will be fighting about it again. I am a really passive person and I don't know how to deal with her pushiness. Hopefully things will change in the next few weeks before my surgery. But you are right if we tell her and she freaks, we haven't lost anything but have given her a chance to redeem herself.