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Hit a man wear it hurts, THE WALLET! LOL A great book I found written by Dr. Garth Davis is called The Experts Guide to Weightloss Surgery. He talks about how bypassers loose a huge chunk of their weight in the begining but banders don't get that tidal wave of weight loss until months out when they find the sweet spot in their fill level. Until we find that sweet spot we are training ourselves to keep the weight off by learning to eat right and exercise. Bypassers don't learn this lesson till later. Don't sweat it. Every pound you lose is earned no matter how fast they come. Had a good day today. Went to the beach this morning. Had lunch then did my 5k training. The my brother came over and we went to the pool and had dinner. Nice relaxing family day. I had a little trouble getting through the 5k training today. I just felt like I reached the end of my energy earlier than usual. Ended up walking my last 2 sprints. I think skipping Breakfast and the time out in the heat suck the energy from me. I am gonna repeat my running plan on saturday instead of moving to the next step. I did have a healthy lunch and dinner. Just larger portion sizes. I may call my doc and move up my next fill appointment. My weight is going back down. A pound a week. I know I can do better. I have done better. Peas, Thanks for the advice about the resume'. When It comes time I may need some advice on how to do it. I have been a stay at home mom for 6 years with odd jobs. Alot has changed since I last worked steady. I don't know how to explain the gaps or if I should put every single job on there. I don't have contact info for the times I was a nanny.

Peas, I am going through some of the same feelings. My son is starting kindergarten. It is such a strange feeling to be proud of him and missing him at the same time. Slowly he is learning to do more and more for himslef but one thing I learned is that once he learns one thing there comes 10 more things he needs to learn. He may be able to ride the bus but you will have new homework time to teach him all kinds of things. My son is dressing himself now but I am teaching him to play catch and hit a ball. It's is hard to let go but we do it so we can embrace something new. My stepmother was in love with the story you posted while my sister was a baby. I could never get my son to sit and listen to it. It is such a sweet story though.

Got most my books today. Ordered 2 from Amazon and still need money for the last 3. I may be in class before I can get them but it is the best I can do. Also gonna go to the Career Center on campus and get help with doing a resume'. I will be graduating December '11. So I want to get it together over the next few months and maybe start to get my name out there. That is what the career counselor suggested. I have my work history typed up but it is a bit of a mess. I have stayed home for 6 years but worked odd jobs here and there. Jobs that I could still be with Jacob while doing them. I have some volunteer positions too. I don't know how all this goes onto a resume'. I bought some supplies from a Nursing grad today and he offered to send me study guides. I thought that was so nice. Gave him my email address. My brother is coming over again tommorrow. I am gonna spend the day with my family tomorrow before I start to really dive into these books. I don't know if I told you guys but my 17 year old sister was pregnant. I found out yesterday that she lost the baby. So sad. Confusing. Relieved. Hard to explain all the feelings. During orientation they scheduled some things for us to do the first day of school instead of the test. We will be the only class not to take an exam on day 1. The other classes are a little jealous. I am just hoping they don't surprise us with one.

Thanks Apples One day, So sorry to hear about the stress but your really just exchanging one for another. In the end you have a great opportunity to find a job you really love. Yesterday was a long boring orientation into the nursing program. In the end I ended up with a good schedule. I only need a sitter for 2 hours a week. My Dad and his girlfriend are gonna take care of it and I told them I will be paying them. So much info to keep track of yesterday. I hope I haven't forgotten something. Had 10 emails today from the nursing tutor to help keep me on track. They also explained how busy we would be because this is an accelerated program. It is 2 years of education done in 16 months. We got a small loan for my books. I will be able to get them tommorrow. I am trying to get them second hand and then when I do get my scholarship money I plan to buy the electronic version of them. My MIL gave me an more up-to-date printer today. So I will be able to print out more quickly. My son had a great day yesterday. My Dad's girlfreind babysat and they had a great time. My Dad actually came home from work at lunch to eat with him and then ended up leaving work early to play with him. I will be so happy to see them two have a relationship. I told my Dad we would be having a birthday party at the beach and he offered to have it at his house and to cook smoked chicken. I love my Dad's smoked meat. So that is planned. I will probably get sides from walmart. I know I should cook some but I am going to be soo busy with school. Tommorrow is another busy day for me. I will be getting my books and starting my reading and some online tutoring sessions. Also did some more 5k training today. I read this quote yesterday. "If we did everything we actually could do we would astound ourselves." Thats how I feel about the 5k. each day I complete I just stand in the shower thinking "I just ran". Gotta tighten up my eatting habits. Kurby, Doc wanted me to start excercising 15 min a day from day one. The pool will be great as long as your incisions are healed. I had to wait 6 weeks to get in the pool though. The best thing for the pain is to move. Your muscles movement will kinda "milk" the gas out. Keep talking to us though. As long as I am posting with these ladies regularly I do well.

I was told crystal lite was great. I chose to drink propel. My doc said that was good. Just stick to sugar free. Watch the juice too. I drink the diet from ocean spray. Not the light. The diet has less carbs. My doc preferrs the low carb. You doc should have given you a list of foods. I was allowed sugar free popsicles also. No fudgesicles though. How are you feeling? Excited? or Depressed? I was a little of both post op. I didn't see any change after I woke up. LOL. But this really is a journey to change your life. That is the exciting part. I can be who I want to be including healthy. I have learned to like exercise. I have been able to actually RUN. I was so excited the first day I did it I almost cried. I remember twice when my son was young he got into danger and I couldn't get to him because I couldn't run. I was so scared. Now I race him around the tball field. When I checked the mail the other day, I saw a package from my school. Looked like my acceptance letter. I ran from the mailbox to my apartment so I could open it with my hubby. Sure enough it was my acceptance letter. I don't just look better I feel better. I didn't realize how bad I really did feel until I started feeling better. I am so excited for you. For all of us to have the second chance.

You are looking great! Your DGD is beautiful too. So sorry to hear about merry. It is so sad to see our little ones get sick. It is great that she is not showing any symptoms. She is happy. I couldn't feel my port right away either. I had no idea where it was. I get chest pains sometimes if I eat too much. In the begining it doesn't take but just a tad to fill the pouch. The full feeling is different now for me than it was before surgery. I would keep eating because I didn't feel the same fullness cue as before and I would be in pain and PB. You should let your doc know and get his opinion. I have been making youtube videos from preop to now. If you liked to look over them and see how I progressed you can just click on the link at the bottom of my post. Just checking in for the day. I went and had my hair cut this morning. She cut it before washing it. Never had that done before but it looks great so no complaints. I have orientation tomorrow for nursing school. I will meet the directors, teachers and fellow students. I will also be getting my schedule. Nervous and excited all at once. I have exercised 3 times this week and am about to go again. I am gonna do the c25k training again. I'll make sure I do a good warm up so I don't injure myself again.

Sorry to hear that Eva. I had a rough time at walmart today too. The cashier that helped me was almost in tears and when I got to her register I realized why. A 8-9 year old boy was having a temper tantrum. I belive he had a mental illness. His mother had him pinned to the floor and he was fighting her. All the while she was also trying to call someone on her phone to help her. It was heart breaking. I did manage to get a stethoscope today and am having my name engraved on it. I got a good deal. It is generic but I tried the name brand and generic and found I could hear better with the generic. Also got the watch I need. I measured myself for those uniforms and ordered what they recommended. Thanks for the advice to wash them before I alter them. I am really short and these uniforms are really long. Expecially the tops. Makes me look dumpy. But I am proud to wear them. Had a long day today so I am gonna sign off. Good nite all.

Thanks for the encouragement on the childcare issue. I have just seen some bad things. I have seen good too so I should tryi to focus on that. I use to be a nanny myself. I was totally in love with the children. There must be people out there who do a great job. I called the ymca and they don't have a program that will work. I did answer a few ads today. We shall see. I understand some of what your daugter is going through. I have been in there myself. It takes alot of want to from a person. If she admitted herself that is a great sign that she has it. I hope she will take the time to focus on herself and what it takes to get better. A lot of drama in those places but you can learn alot. Congrats on being hit on. What a NSV. LOL My uniforms arrived today and they are slightly big. I measured before I ordered them but I can take them in a bit. I will probably be doing that alot.

I am so excited. My uniforms are scheduled for delivery today. I will post pics when I can. Who doesn't love getting a package. The deal with the books is if you buy them new, you can access them online too. They have the entire book online and last semester I found that so helpful when studying. Plus talking with a student already in she said it really helps speed up writing out care plans. She copies and paste right from the book into her care plan. I want that but if I don't have the money I may have to just do without and buy used. We don't use credit cards. we use cash for almost everything. We are considering getting a small loan though. We can pay it off as soon as I get my financial aid. Just something we are considering. At some point today I gotta run my son to my MIL. It's and hour drive. She is gonna let him stay the night since we have the dinner tonite. My SIL just moved back in with them yesterday. It is kinda crazy over there right now. I just didn't know anyone else on such short notice. Sometimes people without kids don't think about things like this. I gotta make some friends close to here. We are very nervous about the babysitter thing. I do intend to pay my family for babysitting. You are right that it can cause drama though. We are really protective of him. He has only had 2 babysitters. My MIL and my Dads girlfriend. He has never even stayed with my stepmother or mother. We hear so many horror stories about babysitters. I am gonna ask my Dad's girlfriend first. If that doesn't workout I will look into hiring a professional. I wonder if the ymca would do a pick up at the school? I'll call and find out about that.

Thanks for the Apples update. Had a great dinner with my brother. He gets along so well with my husband. My husband and I have been invited to another business dinner. This time I an not gonna sweat it. Haven't pbed in awhile so I will just chew good and be fine. More nervous about the company and meeting new people but I will be fine. Nothing crippling. I actually just touched up my hair color today. Had like a whole day of beauty at home. Didn't realize we would be going out. I just know I am gonna be meeting alot of new people at school so I want to put up a good first impression. Next monday I will be meeting everyone in charge of the program and all my classmates. After that I'll get my books and start working my tail off. It's coming so fast.

A beach party sounds great. My son loves the beach. I will ask my family if they are willing to do that. Thanks Cheri. No plans today. Still waiting for one last thing for my finacial aid. I took care of it. Just waiting for someone to input it into the computer. I had to take a little class online about financial aid and loans. Just waiting for the goverment to notify my school that I did it. Found out yesterday that I will only have 480 dollars credit toward books and I will need to cover the other 300 up front. Then I will be rembursed in sept. Just another wrench in our plans.

Thanks guys, I really just want to invite 4 people to his party but even that is too much for our apt. The four people are just family. If we do have it at the museum I will invite some school friends. I don't have time to plan something big. Just pizza and cake. He will be entertained with his gifts and us adults can spend time together. My brother is coming over again tommorrow. I am so excited he wants to hang out with us. He is 10 years younger than me so I feel old but he is so excited to be around my family. He still lives with my mother and stepfather and they are awful. Maybe he just needs a place to get away sometimes.

Good morning, Got up kinda early this morning. My son crawled in bed with me but couldn't really sleep. Trying to get some plans etched out for his birthday next month. We wanted to have a couple people over but our apt is too small. I considered the club house. After talking to the manager I realized it is too expensive. I am thinking maybe I could do it at my dads house. I don't get to see or talk to my Dad much though. He is always busy. Not sure about asking. Also considered the museum. We are members so we get a discount. Gotta call about that today. I am trying to convince my husband to plan this since I will have so much on my plate. He hasn't put much thought into it though. Also trying to find a sitter. I will need someone to get Jake to and from school a couple times a week. The extended day program doesn't have the hours I need. I will be calling my Dads girlfriend today to see if she is intrested. If not I will have to hire a stranger. That is alot of work. Makes me nervous too. Also plan to get some excercise on my wii today and eat what my doc recommends. This morning I was fixing my son cereal for breakfast and out of habit almost grabbed a handful. Things tend to sneak in that way. Those are my plans for today. Hope yall's day goes well.

The test on day one has something to do with calculating dosage. Atleast thats the rumor. I will be having a test every Monday. Atleast it gives me the weekend to study. So sorry about the PBing in a porta potty. I can't stand to pb in public toliets cause the smell. Can't imagine the ports potty. Cheri, I saw inception too. We loved it. We walked out thinking WOW. I will definately watch it again. Went to the beach today. Got a little tan. No burn. My son was learning to use a boogie board. It is a small surf board that you lay on your belly and ride the waves. He was just so cute. Kept saying "that was so awesome". Then my husband tried but was too big for the one we bought. He kept getting a mouthful of water. We are trying to enjoy some family time before my son and I start school.

Thanks Peascorps, I have been shopping ebay. Waiting till hubby gets paid though. I have to pay up front and wait till sept to be reimbursed. Even for all my uniforms and stuff. It is costing a butt load. Good luck on going back to work. I have also been shopping for a new laptop. I found one that fits my habits at best buy. A 2nd semester nursing student recommended an itouch too. She has her careplans on it and can get her notes and grades on it. I am considering it. I like to have my notes on paper in class though. So I can add to them things the teacher may bring up. Not sure if it will be worth it. Did I mention I have an exam the first day? I can't get my books til the 16th but once I do I will be diving in. Mrs. Bubba, I wish I could come out there and help you with the wedding. I could bake with you and decorate. I bet we would have a great time. Remeber to take some time out everyday for just you. You deserve it.

Yes, I would love to see a pic of the purple streaks too. ADN is associate degree in nursing.

Thank you everyone for your insight. You are so right that she is using my insecurities against me. You know those things we may think but never actually say out loud. She will say them. Every once in awhile I will have a thought that this maybe too hard for me but then I remind myself of how much I have already accomplished and fight the negative thought. I guess when she says that stuff I should say the samething to her. I am going for my ADN right now. My cousin told me hospitals prefer BSN so once I graduate I will consider that. They asked me to get a Littman Cardio III. I have been searching the internet for one. Glad to know that they really last and are worth the money. Other than that I will just need a nursing watch. With the seconds and glow in the dark. I should be able to get that with my grant money. I did go to the docs office and ask again about my labwork. Turns out it was sitting in this pile of mail that was just delivered. The lab didn't fax it, they snail mailed it. So I got all my paperwork set and turned in. Now I just wait for the 16th where I will decide on my schedule. They do a lottery. We all draw numbers and the person with number 1 gets first choice and the rest of them will follow. LOL I just found out yesterday that I was awarded and additional grant from the state and was granted a subsidized loan. (the government will pay the intrest until I graduate) I should have plenty of money tho cover the cost and they will give me the remainder sept 30. I guess my husbands layoff last year really paid off. So sorry to hear about the troubles Apples has been having. I hope things turn around for you soon. I know the pink hair was a bit wild but thats what happens when I get off the meds. I did like it just not enough to risk a future job over. My brother who I haven't seen in 7 years came over to visit today. He met my son for the first time. We had a great visit. I hope we can build a great relationship. We didn't know each other real well growing up. I moved from my moms house to my dads house when he was a baby, leaving him behind. He doesn't remember much about our time together but I was responsible for changing, bathing, feeding and dressing him. That was part of the reason I left. I had too much responsability at too young of an age.

Another check in, I am a bit groggy from the meds. I gotta get use to them again. I am waiting for bloodwork results that I need for school. I called over and over and left 3 messages and the lady will not call me back. I am getting a little panicked. If something doesn't come back right I won't have time to redo them. I have to prove I am immune to chicken pox, measles and, hep b. My mother wasn't exactly concerned about getting us to the doc so I am not sure if I had the MMR shot. I know I had chicken pox and the hep b shot. I am going to the docs office tommorrow and sitting there til I get an answer. My son is doing great. His bowel problem is under control as long as we make sure to give him the med. He will be starting kindergarten in 2 weeks. I feel like I am turning him over to the "system". Like I will have less control over what happens to him and what he learns. Today he tried to choke himself by pushing on his throat. He said he learned it from a kid in class. So scary. Hubby is doing great too. He loves his job and is having a company dinner tommorrow. Employees only, I don't have to worry about it. I have my uniforms and stuff for school. All I need now is a stethoscope and my books. The stethoscope they want us to get is about $170. I have spent so much already. My MIL is trying to aquire one from a friend of hers. My MIL still has doubts that I can do this. She ask me all the time if I really belive I can make it through and then hold down a job. I have doubts once in awhile too but then I look at how far I have come. I have accomplished so much and was alot sicker then. I wish my family would help out some. I need someone to help get Jacob to and from school. I would hate to have to hire a stranger expecially when I have so many family members living close. They are just all to busy. During my little hiatus I actually dyed my hair pink. I really liked it but took it out so I could look professional at school. Thank you all for being there for me. All the encouragment and PM's mean alot to me.

Hey gang just checking in, I appreciate everything yall had to say. It is so hard to operate in this fog. I don't want to do anything but I have so much to do. I have been all over town all week getting my shots, blood work, drug test, uniforms and equipment. Also trying to get my son ready for kindergarten. I know I should not stop taking them but I truly do hate them. I really don't know why. It doesn't make sense but there are alot of things that don't make sense when I get lost in it. I just begin making excuses to not take them and slowly give in. Just like in eatting. I will make excuses to have something just this one time then gradually end up totally off track.

Hey Gang, Sorry it has been so long. I have been having such a hard time. My band got too tight and My doc took some fluid out. He was being a total pain about it and took way too much out. I have no restriction. Yesterday I went and his colleage put 2 cc's back in and I still feel no restriction. I quit taking my psych meds and have been off my rocker. My therapist also is moving her practice out of town. I did go back to the psychiatrist and got my meds again. I also found a new psychologist. So hopefully I will be getting my sanity back. I did want to let yall know that I got accepted into the nursing program and plan to start school aug 30. I am hoping my mental health will be back on track by then.

Thank you for the birthday wishes. I haven't had time to catch up reading yet. Sorry. I wish yall a great time in vegas though. I know it will be a blast.

I am still here. Just been reading lately. Not to much going on with me. I am really bored sitting at home all day. I can't take my son to the pool right now because of his bowels issues. I think later today we will go to the park though. I am not making the best choices in food lately. I am just in a funk right now. I am getting nervous about school. I had a hard time last semester and the next one will be twice as difficult with clinicals. I just need to get a grip.

I stalled 3-4 weeks at that weight. I think it was because I was having some emotional things going on and I was drinking alot. I lost another 3 pounds this week but I broke all the rules. I am trying to get back on the bandwagon. Had some emotionally trying things happen over the past week so I gotta use this as a time to practice not emotional eatting. My son has relapsed in his bowel training and I am really struggling trying to handle it with patience. He withholds going to the bathroom because he gets constipated and it hurts to go. Then he gets clogged up even more and little bits begin to leak out. He has been taking lactulose for a year now and was doing great until I went to boston in april. He ran out of medicine while I was gone and noone took care of it until I got back. Now he is worse than before. I am constantly cleaning it up. Whenever we go out he has an accident. I feel like I can't take him anywhere. He pooped in the pool today and they had to close it down for 24 hours. My husband wants me to keep at it another week and if no improvment take him to the doctor again. The doc told me I could increase the lactulose so I am doing that hoping we can get this resolved before school next year. I am just feeling alot of pressure about it.

I have 3 incisions. 2 really tiny ones and the larger one (port) is in my belly button. You can't see it or feel it. I love that my doc did that. I have attached a pic if you wanna see them. They are real faint. I am 5 months post op. I think my doc did a great job and am hoping It won't be obvious when I put on that first bikini.