mandie175lbs

Hope you are doing well Jamie!

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I have been going through a lot and I haven't been exercising because of the severe constipation. My stomach was swollen and my back and sides were hurting. I would go to work and come home and sleep all day. I only lost 1 pound during this ordeal! I am ready to get back on track and try to reach my goal of 175 by Christmas (my birthday) I haven't had a fill yet, but my next appointment is Oct. 2, 2010 and I am scare out of my mind to get that needle stuck through my stomach. Is it going to hurt? Please say it won't!

If taking pain meds are not going to help, then why bother taking drugs.... I am really getting depressed because I seriously thought that I would have discontinued taking these pills by now! I think I will call the doctor tomorrow! Buyer's remorse for sure! I guess I will try taking two tylenol and try to sleep until tomorrow.... I don't even want to wake up anymore today.... this is so sad.... I'm done for today:(

You Guys,

I just don't know anymore! These under the breast bone pains are really making me think very negative about this whole thing! I went without drinking for an entire hour to see if it was the liquids and it wasn't! Is it gas bubbles? I walk for an hour EVERY morning, so why would I still have gas/forced air trying to escape! Damn! I'm just so tired of all the crazy body pains/pressure! I can't remember reading problems like this! I know I didn't just look over all this stuff.... I swear, I didn't read that I would have all these painful gas, belching etc. etc. I don't even know if it's real pain or not! There is just so much going on with my body right now that I don't even know when to take pain meds and when to just suffer.

Hey Guys, yesterday was a challenging day. They had my appointments all mixed up.... I'm just not going to even try to make any sense of the mix-up! Anyway, when I went in yesterday, I weighed 252lbs! lol! I hope I weighed enough for my insurance to approve on. To my surprise, and for the first time in my life, my blood pressure was a little elevated!!!! lol! This was like an extra bonous! So I am thinking, with the acid reflux(lol!) depression(lol!) extreme weight gain(lol! lol!) I just hope my insurance company will pay. Oh! my visit today consisted of blood work. Today I will talk to the psyc and nutr. Tommorow, I am scheduled for an upper G I(?) can someone fill me in on this? What are they going to do to me? Is it going to hurt?

Had another fill this past Friday! I was still a little tight from the last fill! Now I'm really tight! Am I missing something with this site? I am unable to respond to any of my messages. I thought I was going to like this new site, but it's really getting on my nerves now.

Thanks for your beautiful words of encouragement. I will be on clear liquids tomorrow. I just hope and pray that I can get through that without vomiting. When I'm hungry, I get sick to the point of vomiting and I hate to vomit. Since I was a little girl and every time I've vomited in my life, for some reason I urinate on myself. lol! I know this is too much information, but it's crazy that I can't control this! lol! Anyway, I know you can't wait to have your surgery. My feet, back and side started to kill me from the extra weight! lol! How tall are you? Are you the person in the black or pink? Take care and I will certainly be praying for you and all of us here who are trying to make that change in our lives. We can do this! Keep in touch and I will do the same.

The nurse from the WLC returned my call on yesterday to discuss my labs and she said that my results were fine. My iron was on point so now I guess the ball falls is in my insurance company's court. I sure hope this doesn't turn into a long drawn out process. My nerves are getting the best of me. I pray that I don't change my mind again:(

Hi and thanks for the comment. You look great in the above photo. How have you been since the surgery? I'm 5'9 too and I too want to be around 175lbs. What are you studying? I am so impressed with you going to school. Once I get this weight thing under control, I am going back to school too. Good luck to to with your weight loss and your studies! Keep in touch.

1.Maybe I shouldn't be posting just yet because I am really struggling with having something positive to say right now! You Guys, OH! MY! GOODNESS! I am in soooo much pain! I have to say that this is one surgery that I wouldn't push on anyone unless it was a do or die situation!. My shoulder, side, stomach, chest .... everything is in this crazy, sort of dull, nagging pain!

2.My stomach is so swollen (I look like I am pregnant and the left side close to the belly button is sore to the touch!) I am constantly popping pain pills and I hate that! Last complaint guys, but surely not the least complaint, I think my cycle is on! Either it is my cycle or I'm having internal bleeding! My cycle don't usually come on until around the 6th or 7th of each month! I am seriously shocked that it is early! Guys, I am no surgery virgin! I've had several surgeries recently! AND I must say that this one takes the cake! From beginning to end, I've done everything that I'm suppose to do , so I hope this is just a phase! lol! I can't imagine several weeks of this. My surgery was this pass Thursday August 25th, I hope that by next Thursday September 4th, I'll be walking around enjoying the freedom of my weight decreasing.

3.On the flip side of things.... maybe it isn't as bad as I'm making it out to be! lol! Maybe it was the one incision technique that made it that much more painful. I am enjoying the fact that I'm drinking 2oz of fluids every 15 minutes and I have not gotten hungry. I am also enjoying the fact that I'm not craving anything. My town is having a carnival today and my mother stopped by to see if I wanted to have a few hot dogs! (remember guys, I didn't tell her about the surgery!) I just told her that I didn't want any because I had a huge breakfast! lol! My grandmother stopped by to offer me some grapes (my entire family loves grapes- she had a CASE of them!) my daughter took several bags, but I told her that I was dieting and I wasn't at the grape eating stage yet.

4.And because MY grandmother can tell if something is wrong, I also lied by saying that I was having back pain and that I wasn't feeling well today! lol! (I didn't tell my grandmother either about the surgery!) But now I have back pains for real:(

Oh well friends, I really don't have much more to report. I guess I will be alright and I apologize if I scared anyone in the beginning, but this is truly how I am feeling.... I guess, I'm just having mixed feelings about the whole thing. Tomorrow is another day so hopefully I'll have something more positive to report. Until next time.... Please take care of your selves and if any of you are experiencing the same problems that I am and know some quick remedies, please let me know. Oh! Before I go, what are y'all drinking on the liquid diet. I'm just doing water and vanilla/chocolate boost. Please send me some suggestions! Thanks Guys! Keep in touch

I am so happy to hear that you are doing well. I have been stalking the internet to see if you had posted an update on your status. Take care an keep us posted.

Sorry Guys, this is a long one! lol! Start reading from the bottom up. I know that the time is listed, but I numbered them for people like me who see little notations/guides like that after the fact! lol!

I went to the Dr. today and got my first fill. I'm back o soft foods for the next two days. I hadn't lost any more weight, but I haven't gained any either. She only put 1cc in it. She said that my band was flushed with saline so I already had about 3cc in the band (I didn't know this!) She emptied the band and measured it to be abut 3cc and she added an additional 1cc. So as I understand it, I have 4cc in my band. I wished she had gone ahead and filled the thing up, but I guess she knows what she's doing. Oh well, I tired from a cold and I guess I will take it down for the day. Take care guys!

Well Guys,

I am officially on the "clear liquid diet!" I'm not in a panic yet, but I know

that I will be turning in very early 2night! My stomach is going to start

growling, I'm going to feel nausea and then I'm going to start vomiting. I can

pretty much see all of this happening to me over the next few hours. lol!

Tomorrow is surgery day and I am on the edge of my seat! I can hardly wait! My

fiance' and my sister will be there. I haven't told my mother because I tried

talking to her about it last year and she wasn't supportive at all. Sooo, I

decided to leave her out of the loop.

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My daughter, sister and fiance' are the only people that knows about this! I

don't plan on telling ANYONE! I don't like it when I am the topic of people

conversation.I feel that if they are not going through this, and if they are not

one of my love ones or a close friend of mine, then they would be talking just

for gossip sake! I wouldn't want them to even waste their time gossiping about

me.... I'm just not worth the conversation! lol!

Take care and keep the posting coming because for a lot of us, this is our main

source of support.

Where do I put this so that it will show under my messages?

Hello,

My fiance' is overly excited about my surgery. He is going to have it also, but his insurance is requiring him to do the 6 months of supervised dieting before he can advance forward. If it wasn't for him, I wouldn't have gotten this far with having the surgery. He said that he wants to see me happy and he knows that I am an angry fat person! LOL! I hope being at a normal weight will also help with my bad attitude!LOL!

Ok Guys,

I have the ticker thing set, but I don't know where to place it in my profile! Can someone please help a sister out! lol!

Can you see my ticker?

My fiance is trying to feed me stuff that he knows I'm not suppose

to eat. He even took me to CHILI'S! He knows that I don't do Chili's anymore!

But, I'm going to pull it together because I know that this band will kill me

(literally) if I don't abide by these rules, so I have to stop over eating and

listen to this band before I turn this situation into a negative. It really don't take much to make you feel miserable! This

past week has been horrible and I am ashamed of myself because I know better!

I have a 43 pound goal by Christmas and I seriously can't believe

that I am sabotaging this thing! Good Luck to you all and I'm going to pull it

together.

I was told to eat what I wanted, but watch the

calories and not to eat more than a cup of food at a setting and to exercise....

ok, well I guess I wasn't confused! lol! I don't know what I am doing anymore! I

was upset because one person told me one thing and then another person told me

something else. It was almost like it was a wasted doctor's visit. I was so

pissed when I left the office! I over ate driving home and paid for it dearly!

BOY-DID-I-PAY-FOR-IT!!!!! I was very, very uncomfortable from 1pm until 1am the

next day! You would think that I would have straightened up and done the right

thing....RIGHT? Well, NO! I feel like I'm back to my old habits and I don't like

this feeling!

Ok Guys,

I never thought that I would be one of these people that got on here crying

about how I've messed up with this band! But here I am feeling stupid and all

sorry for myself. I am that person! I have started eating off my diet and to

make matters worst, I'm not exercising! I was so confused when I left the

doctor's office the other day!