Denied by HAP
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This started out as a very good day. I got my letter from HAP today regarding my surgery. I really expected to be approved but my letter stated that I was denied because other weight loss methods may be better for me... I think this was perhaps due to me confirming I was a stress eater at my psych consult. Has anyone else had this problem? Please tell me there was a happy ending?:frown:
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On Dr Phil today they took a women (some actual beauty queen) and dressed her up to appear to be 300 lbs. She looked pretty natural and of course everywhere she went she got stares. She did not like "fat" people and thought that they were "lazy and arrogant for impeding on other peoples space." It made me think of myself and how she and others might see me. I honestly don't notice people staring at me due to my wt. Is it because I am confident in myself and take the world by the horns? No, I still worry about seating when I go out to the movies or a restaurant. I am not comfortable or confident with my appearance. I wondered how others felt? Do you really feel people staring and judging you?
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To De-Lean
By Delean,
How many times have I promised to succeed in wt loss? To many to count. I am exited about the possibility of getting banded as a tool for wt loss but I do know that it is just a tool. What do I need to do to address the reasons I am over wt?
I feel that I am waiting for my life to start again. I am now at a wt that keeps me from doing the things I love. I have 3 horses. Horses! What fat bitch needs to have horses! lol. I want to ride again and getting rid of my horses seems like I would be accepting my current wt and health. And so I hold on to them and hope...
I did not mean for this first entry to be so flippin' depressing! I am sorry. It feels good to get it out there though. I look forward to posting an after pix of my skinny ass on a horse! De-Lean:thumbup:
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