To De-Lean

How many times have I promised to succeed in wt loss? To many to count. I am exited about the possibility of getting banded as a tool for wt loss but I do know that it is just a tool. What do I need to do to address the reasons I am over wt?

I feel that I am waiting for my life to start again. I am now at a wt that keeps me from doing the things I love. I have 3 horses. Horses! What fat bitch needs to have horses! lol. I want to ride again and getting rid of my horses seems like I would be accepting my current wt and health. And so I hold on to them and hope...

I did not mean for this first entry to be so flippin' depressing! I am sorry. It feels good to get it out there though. I look forward to posting an after pix of my skinny ass on a horse! De-Lean:thumbup:

I have horses, too. I got thrown on a trail ride a couple of years ago and was totally embarrassed when I had to have help getting back on. I swore I would never ride again until I could get on the horse without help and without standing on a stupid milk crate. Next summer I'm going riding! Hang in there.

Was a bit of a blue day when I wrote that last post. Thank you for writing Arb. I do know what you mean. I will ride again too!

Going for my psychology consult on Monday. About time! It has taken so long just to get this far. Hope it goes well and the process starts moving after that. At least I would like to meet my surgeon soon. Can't wait to get moving!!!!