Hi VmpSlayr!
First and foremost, just LOVE your name!
I am new here as well, just joined today,and I completely understand where you are coming from. When I made the final decision to book in for the operation and rang my family to let them know that it was full-steam ahead, I broke down in tears for similar reasons as you.
As I move closer to my banding date, I am becoming less emotional about that side of it. I initially wanted to keep it a secret but I've made the decision to be an open book. I don't wear a sign around my neck, but I don't hide it either. My close friends and family know, my boss knows and some close work colleagues. When I am off work for 2 weeks for surgery, most people will know why and I am okay with that. I figure the more people that know, the more determined I will be to make this work because of the number of people that will be disappointed if I don't.
It will also be nice not to have to 'make excuses' as to why I'm only eating small portions, or not having cake, etc... I can simply say "sorry, I can't because of the band" and they will already KNOW what I am on about.
Best wishes to you!
MissK x x