TracyinKS

Hello all!

04/26/2012 will be my FIFTH bandversary. Yes, 5 years. I used to live on this site and for me it was vital to my success and accountability. I was tight with my group of "Violets" who were all 2007 bandsters..... I am still friends with most of them on Facebook and such, but the need to come here and post is long gone.

If you click on my profile you can see where I started and where I'm at today..........as I uploaded more pics to my progress album. I did awesome my first year and lost 98 lbs, and then I just quit watching what I ate and quite weighing every day....... I gained about 30 lbs, but then I just settled. I would get on the scale about once every 6 months and the scale would read the same 204-208. Failure? Hell NO! I was (and am) normal sized and comfortable in my size 12-14's. In 2012 I am refocusing on re-losing those same 30 lbs, because I loved the feeling of size 10 levis! and my narrow face, plus I ready.

I love my band. I haven't had a fill (or unfill) in well over two years and have no plans for one in the future. I still eat too fast, but I will never again be able to eat 6 tacos or a large thin crust pizza! I can however eat two tacos and be completely stuffed!!!!

I believe in eating Low Carb.. it has always helped me lose weight banded and pre-band. I am currently adhering to a LC lifestyle and I will come back and post a pic when I get back down to those size 10's in 2012!

I was the first in my family to get banded........

My Brother in law got banded in Mexico 4 years ago

My Mom by Dr, K 3 years ago

My StepDad by Dr. K 1 year ago

All of us have lost weight.

My band has been a great tool and the ONLY way I've been able to maintain any ONE size in my entire life!

Good Luck on YOUR band journey!

Tracy Banded 04/26/2007

272/174/today206/goal for 2012... 172

and it is totally do-able!

Good morning! I have to go for my mammogram this morning...... I'm still under 210.

Robby and I have a combined head doctor apt on the 15th, this doc thinks he may be bipolar...... it is a constant struggle at school everyday..... which is stressing me out big time.... but other than that... life is so much better...... have a great day!

GOOD EVE V's!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm getting ready to head to bed!

I managed to do pretty good today.... haven't had my head in the game for a year or more....... but HERE WE ARE!!!!!!!

Good Monday Morning! My fill is working, I'm eating a lot less....... trying to keep my head in it as well........ Yippee, today was 208.8......... on the Quest back to ONEderland....

It really stinks that I can't post during the day! OH well...... have a good one!

Good Evening!!!!

Well I had my fill today.. and I can sure tell........ Soup was going down slow.... and right now I'm drinking a Protein Drink. I hope this helps get me back on track.. its time!

This site is blocked at work...... so I wanted to pop on this am.. and say HEY!!!!

Have a great day!

LOL!!!!!!!! Judy, I actually wore my WWJD Bracelet today to work!!!!!!

It really has been year(s) now........... whodathunkit

OKEYDOKEY......... pm coming at you!

Well hello there!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just posted on Facebook that I'm getting a fill next Wednesday, I'm fed up with the weight gain, my round face.

So lets seeeeeeeeeeeeee Life.........

Life is good.

Robby is still Robby...... however his ped.. said his ODD is FAR outweighing his ADHD so I'm on a waiting list for KU to call.. to get him into their program......

You all know that Charles and I are done........ been done for a while.......... so ok.. who out there saw it coming? LOL

My V'sssssssssss been there for me since before.....

Robby needs counseling....... he has lost the only dad and brothers he's ever known, although he is happy.... he misses them....... misses the chaous......not me.

All I feel is relief and peace when it comes to that part.

I recently put myself on the online thang........ mainly for grins...... and some funny stories have happened.....

OH and you might remember that I no longer work for nuns..... and I have to tell you...... IT IS WONDERFUL!

To be free of Charles and the judgemental NUN(s)

I am now the Business Office Manager at a small skilled nursing facility, and it is sooooooooooo nice to have the red carpet rolled out for me and to have everyone say how fast I'm learning it all........... FREE......

Robby and I have also moved out of the old depressing house with tons of bills............. ( I filed bankrupsty, and was able to start fresh) in yet another way.............

We now live in a very nice apartment (4plex) in a small town and the best thing is I have no trouble making ends meet...

so I guess now its time for me to get back on track with this gained weight............ time to take on the next step again.

My violets have never left my heart........

SO HEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY:w00t:

HELLO......... at my sisters using the computer.

thank you Jane and Tracy for the TXT's......

I've had my 4th garage sale today and I am finally done!!!!

This is the latest.

Charles and I are split

I am filing personal bankruptsy

Robby and I have moved into a 3b 2 b 1garage apartment(4plex) that overlooks the pool it is awesome... but weird.

I lost my job and therebye all internet access.....

Charles is putting me and Robby on the insurance but I have to pay the difference (while we are married)

I just got my UI determination and it is $401 per week... cross fingers that I dont' have to fight for it.

I am actually doing fine.. and although this is the WORST time to lose a job, I am actually feeling free from guilt.... guilt bestowed by nuns for 1. having robby out of wedlock 2. divorced 3. non catholic 4. being single again

and as an ego booster I get daily calls from former coworkers telling me how miserable it is with me being gone.

I'm pondering a fill befor my insurance ends, but I don't really want one......

I know you all have seen my attitude decline and Michelle I know you've been worried...... I truly think I will be on my way back up now... Relief is all I feel with the DH thing.......... RELIEF

I love my Violets~

HELLO!!!!!!

HOLY CRAP I've been busy!

I wanted everyone to know that We are doing GREAT!

Robby and I are moving to a different town, still commutable to work, much better schools and community... will be wierd because it is a 4 plex not a house. (I've never lived in an apartment before)

My kick ass garage sale netted me enough to pay the deposit, the pet deposit, and prorated rent for august.. so I can start moving stuff to my garage anytime.

It is super weird to look at my lawn tools and think that I won't need them or my lawn mower...... I have a friend who vouched for me with the landlord and is how I was able to sneak right in...... Right now I will be in a top unit, but I'm first on the list for any bottom unit that comes up.

I'm going through all the lawyers checklist to file the big "B" did my credit counseling session today.

Anyway...... here is a pic of my new digs, and Robby testing out the pool!

I have to tell you all how extremely AT PEACE and EXCITED I am to start this new chapter in our lives!

I do love my new shorter do.......

My sister has come over the last two nights to prime and paint........ working on my super girly bedroom....

Yesterday, DH called and stated that it would be better if he just walked away from both of us... (I'm still processing it)

Mainly what I feel is PEACE and relief to no longer live in a war zone.

I'm eating cheezits with my coffee...... :thumbup:

Hello..........

I chopped the hair again.....

Thanks everyone......... I'm seriously considering getting my hair cut like Terry's.

What what what.. I missed pammy is getting botoxed?

Relief.. I feel nothing but relief to no longer live in a war zone. I do feel a twinge of guilt because Robby misses him.

Basically I told Charles that Cody would never live under my roof again and they both moved out. Saturday his sis, bil, niece came over with 3 trucks and they loaded twice. My mom was there for my moral support, but when the inlaws realized that I was not crazy, and trying to help...... well they realized that there was really no middle to be put in. I said my goodbyes to his family with hugs and I love you's. Robby was not there, my sister had taken him for the day.

After they left my mom was deep cleaning the living room and found a note that Cody had shoved down in the couch..... meant for me to find much later when I would be doing my own deep cleaning.......

It said.. "Dear Tracy, I HATE YOU, you ruined my life, I hope you rot in a sack in a basement along with that miserable shit you call a son...... Now that my dad is gone you will never get on your feet and I hope homeless. From, your former Step Son Cody

p.s. I hate you."

NICE huh? LOL

Anyway...... his former room is now our office and Robby and I spackled and painted it yesterday... we are going to set up two desks and two computers in there...

I'm going to paint my bedroom Palest Lavendar..... totally girly! My sis has a plan for redoining my dining room and living room...... so I'm going to let her.

Truth be told.... it is so peaceful at my house now... it once again feels like my home.

I encourage Robby to call Charles daily, but I really don't know if it is appreciated or not.

OK... first.......

I read all the twilight books and even the unpublished "edwards story" on her website...... I am getting ready to re read breaking dawn... and yes the books are much better than the movie......

in other news..... I've had a busy day.

Robby and I went to the dentist for cleanings.

I had an apt with a counselor........ we made two more. She said it sounds like I'm done.

I cleaned Cody's (packed Cody's room) the boy is not coming back to my home where Robby is in jeapordy of his imature beatings........

Charles and Cody are getting an apartment and I hope to hell they grow up. I will miss his sister and her husband because I truly love them....... but I've also loved inlaws before and it boils down to blood. so I've said my peace.......... anyway........ I'm going to work tomorrow and I've been non stop cleaning.....

Love to all........... thank you for the support

Hey guys... I have to have a talk with Robby today... before he see's the house. Charles, his sister and all his family and friends are on facebook...... so that is why I'm not going to post there for a while. He made me promise not to make any major decisions for 30 days (filing) and I agreed. Everyone but my dad is behind my decision

Hello.. don't freak out, but shit hit the fan over my lunch break and Charles is packing he and Cody up and heading for his sisters......... yeah..... life is going to suck for a while..... hang in there with me ok

I am sooooo sleepy!

JUDY: that is so sad!

We had a really really really sucky family weekend....

I just made an appoint to see a shrink....

I need to vent to someone who doesn't know or love me.. because.. in addtion to working.... I've been perusing the self help legal sites and my states statutes on an uncontested divorce.

In my county it will cost me $166.00 to file.......

yeah...... me thinks I need a shrink.

I'm getting ready to pb some grilled chicken............ thats what I get for trying to be good!.......... gotta go

good morning........ :cursing:

213 today... I managed to be good all day and night UNTIL I had two handfulls of pb chex mix..... but I count that as a good day.

I've been doing laundry this am and running a scan on my puter. Make it a good one!

oh and our AC is off too.. so nice!

Good afternoon......... I am trying trying trying to make it a good day.... right now I'm starving and thats not a good thing.

I hurt my foot playing softball....... short version... I stepped funny off the base and popped the tendon.. didn't tear or rupture it THANK GOODNESS, but I had to elevate my foot and get it to go back in the groove...

I've already progressed to just having my leg/ankle wrapped...... the boot had to go!

Good morning!

I managed to eat Legal all day yesterday!!! YEAH ME

I made a flatbread pizza out of the stuff I found... and OMG it was so good!!!!!!

Cry analyzer! GIRL YOU HAVE ALL THE COOL GADGETS!~

I have so far stayed on plan............ gotta get through the hard evening time now.