TracyinKS

I'm putting this up because its true for me right now..

I'm headfirst into a funk. Not really a band funk, but a life funk..... and the fact that I got a slight unfill a little over a month ago.. I am able to eat more in quantity and more types of bad food......... NOW I swore that if this happened I would RUN not Walk to get a refill........ however I have not done so yet, because I actually think I am at my sweet spot, I just have to get my head on straight and work my plan.

So the stats...... I had seen a low of 174 a mere 2 lbs away from 100 lbs lost.....

I am wearing a TON of size 10, jeans and pants...........

Since my unfill (.4cc's) I have not had heartburn or daily pb's....

I am able to eat 2 hard shell tacos and be full (this is why I believe I'm at my sweet spot) pre band... 8 taco's would NOT of been a problem.

So...... last week when I weighed I was 184, up 10 since my prior low...... and before you ask..

NO I'm not DOING ANYTHING right!

No water

Graizing

Not focusing on protein

Eating slider foods

Indulging in more "drinks" than I had prior

Exercise (YEAH RIGHT!!!!!)

so, just by changing ANY ONE of the above things would help, but right now I'm just NOT motivated to do it.....

My size 12's are still comfy and loose, but I feel like I'm gaining and that depresses me. Got some marital stress too...... he is actually JEALOUS of the shrinking violets and he hates my band. Got some other marital stress too but that is not band related.... anyway..... some days I just don't even feel like posting. and this is bad.. as it has been the friends that I made on THIS site that has kept me going and motivated and acting as a motivator.... I'm losing the will for it... maybe its the dreaded 2 year post band I don't give a flip funk that I'm entering..... but I need to snap the hell out of it!

My band is still the best thing I've done for myself..... but it is up to me not to ruin it!

Subject: One year and 85 lbs later

The time has come for me to post my long awaited 1st year bandversary entry.

What has my band meant to me? I have asked myself this question many times over the last 12 months.

I’ve come up with a laundry list of ramblings.

Preband – it represented HOPE, Anxiety, and the What if’s of life after WLS

Early Post Band – the what the heck did I do? And WHERE THE HELL IS MY RESTRICTION?

1st Fill anticipation – I AM HUNGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Where the hell is my restriction????

2nd Fill anticipation – I am hungry but not AS MUCH or as often

3rd Fill anticipation – Restriction lasts for about 3 weeks

4th Fill anticipation – OK lets clamp this puppy down!!!!!!!

5th Fill anticipation – HOLY CRAP .3 cc’s was too much fill! I am only able to smell foods and sip soup

1’st UNFILL – removal of the .3cc’s was the difference between soup and FOOD……. And is where I’m maintaining at since January 2008.

Also…. Getting an unfill and eating real food is what started the scale moving again.

Things that have amazed me:

I have POWER over my hunger.

I have actually FORGOTTEN to eat.

I CAN eat without drinking

I CAN be full on very little food.

Things that I have realized about myself: Restriction Wise

I swell (get tighter) when I’m on my period or when I’m stressed

I am tighter in the mornings and more open in the evenings.

Foods that worked last week, might not work so well this week.

I can raise my hands and do a little shimmy to pop up a stuck item of food

Things that I have realized about myself: Non band

I am a stress and emotional eater.

I crave sweets around my cycle

I am pretty happy and comfy in a size 12

It scares me to HOPE for a size 8 or 10 (because it is unknown to me)

If I COULD eat pizza…….. I WOULD, so keeping a decent amount of fill is what is needed for ME not to be able to.

Dairy Queen has become my go to place for stress eating (and this is NOT a good thing)

Things that I had to overcome once banded:

Realizing that you don’t HAVE to eat multiple plates of food at a buffet in order to “get your money’s worth”

Realizing that people REALLY aren’t LOOKING at how much or how little you eat!

Realizing that you CAN keep your band a secret if you want!

Realizing that fast food joints don’t really offer much choice,

Its cheaper to order an appetizer or alacarte, or split a meal with my 4 year old.

Being banded is NOT rocket science, and for me it has worked well because I knew going in that FOR ME and MY GOALS

I needed to be in diet mode, and truth be told the scale moves when I am IN MOTIVATED DIET MODE. It stalls when I

Go to dairy queen for a small blizzard… but I don’t gain

I chose the band for its adjustability and the hopes that I will for once in my life MAINTAIN a loss!

Would I do it again? In a heartbeat

Will I be rebanded if needed in the future? In HALF a heartbeat!

My band has really given me the power over my appetite and that is priceless.

Journey with me as I enter YEAR TWO of my Banding Experience

I looked at my first entry and it was from 12/27/2006............ wow so much has changed since then.

Namely....... my weight! shakeit shakeit shakeit

I have a real blog that I post to weekly that is tied to my signature line.......

I got insurance approval in January but couldn't get scheduled until April 26,2007 due to the hospital my insurance required...... so I went on a farewell to food tour and gained weight..

finally April 1, 2007 I faced the scale at 272...

today I'm a slim 191 and wearing size 12 jeans and size Large shirts........ FREAKING AWESOME!

I have already posted my bands life story all over this board.. so just look for my posts, check out my blog or my.. myspace..... I'm an open book.

I LOVE MY BAND!:biggrin:

Hi Ya folks... I have no idea who besides me will ever read this,but I have to put my thoughts down on something.....

I decided to get the band after I found out it was covered on my insurance.... well not entirely true....... I had been thinking, debating, pondering, calculating the cost for over a year now.

I have two very close friends who had the RNY.. one going on 4 years post op, and one going on 2 years post op... BOTH Have done wonderful, both have lost over 100 lbs. ONE of them has regained 25% of her weight back,but is still happy with her decision........ BOTH say that it is THE best thing they ever did for themselves...... that said.. IT is not for me.......

I chose the band for many reasons....... A simple week of PTO off from work and no one.... will even know... No one but my Sig Other, My mom and now as of today my sis!

I have already been emailing my insurance company, the program coordinator at my surgeons office, and today... I just found out that

I have my first consult with the doc on 1/08/2007.....

I am HOPING/Praying that I might possibly have my band by the end of January or beginning of February......... a PIPE DREAM.. maybe... but maybee not.

Today I weigh: 263 give or take a few christmas pounds... this is my top weight except when I delivered my son.

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