CoCoBandster

OK, so since I wont probably be banded til October 2009, I decided yesterday that I would really try with my eating all of this garbage and fast food. :thumbup: SO this morning, I check my blood sugar and it was kinda high, which for me is actually normal. :glare: But, I decided that instead of a breakfast sandwich from BK, that I would buy some heart healthy and lower sugar oatmeal... which I actually like. SO I did and I ate a cup and I was content...:sad: Later on in the day I went to a friend's house and had a little to drink and began to have the munchies and on the way home I was really craving.... :drool:SO I decided that, I would get a a salad from BK...yeah right! I ordered probably the most fattening fried chicken sandwich w/fries and just as I was about to pull from the window..greedy me ordered one of their oreo cookie sundae shakes. :blushing:And boy, did this lady pour those crushed oreo cookies on .... SO I did it...before I blinked I was done with it all and felt like crap...:mad: I remember my stomach hurting on the way home and thinking to myself...."when are :thumbdown:you going to just stop?" I feel so low.. I wanted to throw it all up..because I felt so greasy and heavy, but I just couldnt bring myself to that point...so I did what I usually do when I binge...I went to sleep...I had a 4 hour coma and now Im woke...I hate myself for what I do today.... This cigarette is making me feel even more gross:sad: Thursday Im going to see the doc, and I hope this new doc....wants to help me...

Thanks Linda, I really needed to hear that I am not the only one to go through this.

OK, so since I wont probably be banded til October 2009, I decided yesterday that I would really try with my eating all of this garbage and fast food. :wink: SO this morning, I check my blood sugar and it was kinda high, which for me is actually normal. But, I decided that instead of a breakfast sandwich from BK, that I would buy some heart healthy and lower sugar oatmeal... which I actually like. SO I did and I ate a cup and I was content...:wub: Later on in the day I went to a friend's house and had a little to drink and began to have the munchies and on the way home I was really craving.... :drool:SO I decided that, I would get a a salad from BK...yeah right! I ordered probably the most fattening fried chicken sandwich w/fries and just as I was about to pull from the window..greedy me ordered one of their oreo cookie sundae shakes. :blushing:And boy, did this lady pour those crushed oreo cookies on .... SO I did it...before I blinked I was done with it all and felt like crap... I remember my stomach hurting on the way home and thinking to myself...."when are :thumbdown:you going to just stop?" I feel so low.. I wanted to throw it all up..because I felt so greasy and heavy, but I just couldnt bring myself to that point...so I did what I usually do when I binge...I went to sleep...I had a 4 hour coma and now Im woke...I hate myself for what I do today.... This cigarette is making me feel even more gross:sad: Thursday Im going to see the doc, and I hope this new doc....wants to help me...

So, I'm finding out today the the doctor's group that I have been with since 2007, hardly ever pushes people's paperwork through, even if you have been working with them on weight, and diabetes management all of this time!:wink: Crrrap!!!!!!!!!! :wub: I ordered all of my records from them and found that I have finished with bc/bs's criteria for psych, nutrition, and seeing and endo, but I have not made this doctor's group's criteria (which is 12 consecutive months), and bc/bs only needed 6 mo. Aye! So I went to a bariatric clinic, whose advocate for wls name is Tina. Just seeing her name as I am typing it gives me *butterflies*, ahhhh Tina! Tina "hinted" at a nother doctor's group who with six months of post op training (something my old doctors group wouldn't even begin with me), would prep me for getting the surgery in 6 mo. if I start now:rolleyes2:. SO I spent all day "crossing over" to the new group and my insurance to them as well. SO I beleive this is a good thing!!!!!!!!!!!!! God Bless Tina.............

So, I'm finding out today the the doctor's group that I have been with since 2007, hardly ever pushes people's paperwork through, even if you have been working with them on weight, and diabetes management all of this time!:biggrin: Crrrap!!!!!!!!!! :thumbup: I ordered all of my records from them and found that I have finished with bc/bs's criteria for psych, nutrition, and seeing and endo, but I have not made this doctor's group's criteria (which is 12 consecutive months), and bc/bs only needed 6 mo. Aye! So I went to a bariatric clinic, whose advocate for wls name is Tina. Just seeing her name as I am typing it gives me *butterflies*, ahhhh Tina!:frown: Tina "hinted" at a nother doctor's group who with six months of post op training (something my old doctors group wouldn't even begin with me), would prep me for getting the surgery in 6 mo. if I start now:rolleyes2:. SO I spent all day "crossing over" to the new group and my insurance to them as well. SO I beleive this is a good thing!!!!!!!!!!!!! God Bless Tina.............:tt2: