Munchies, Fast Food...Still losing control.......

OK, so since I wont probably be banded til October 2009, I decided yesterday that I would really try with my eating all of this garbage and fast food. :wink:

SO this morning, I check my blood sugar and it was kinda high, which for me is actually normal. But, I decided that instead of a breakfast sandwich from BK, that I would buy some heart healthy and lower sugar oatmeal... which I actually like. SO I did and I ate a cup and I was content...:wub:

Later on in the day I went to a friend's house and had a little to drink and began to have the munchies and on the way home I was really craving.... :drool:SO I decided that, I would get a a salad from BK...yeah right!

I ordered probably the most fattening fried chicken sandwich w/fries and just as I was about to pull from the window..greedy me ordered one of their oreo cookie sundae shakes. :blushing:And boy, did this lady pour those crushed oreo cookies on .... SO I did it...before I blinked I was done with it all and felt like crap...

I remember my stomach hurting on the way home and thinking to myself...."when are :thumbdown:you going to just stop?" I feel so low..

I wanted to throw it all up..because I felt so greasy and heavy, but I just couldnt bring myself to that point...so I did what I usually do when I binge...I went to sleep...I had a 4 hour coma and now Im woke...I hate myself for what I do today.... This cigarette is making me feel even more gross:sad:

Thursday Im going to see the doc, and I hope this new doc....wants to help me...

I have have been on a two week binge - so I completely understand. I think I'm getting nervous because I'm meeting my new surgeon next week and will get my date. I've been beating myself up, but I try to remind myself this is why I'm getting help. Keep your chin up. :wink:

Thanks Linda, I really needed to hear that I am not the only one to go through this.