andicat628

ok you are cracking me up! That is good stuff. lol. I loved all of your writing but the part about the excess time is the part that worries me. Do you honestly not feel like eating all the time. Im so scared that I will crave just the act of eating so much that I will go insane. I also have been thinking of what I will do to pass the time. I also write music and sing. Maybe I will be more inspired when I feel better about myself, I don't know.

I havent lost my weight yet and I wasnt all that fat in HS. But I had another stigma, I was poor in a rich school. What I can tell you is that at 33 years old I have learned a lot about myself and about people. Like you I was angry for so long bc when I started to live a more normal life in a comfy "middle class" people treated me differently too. Like now that I wasnt poor I was ok to befriend. But the thing is, you need to love yourself and not define yourself on what others think of you. Life takes so many turns and changes in so many ways. You have so much to look forward to. You're going to be thin and healthy and you are going to college. You are setting yourself up for so many rewards in life. These people from High School will be so far away from your mind. You are going to meet so many new friends who dont remember the "you" from HS, they will know you from now and see you as who you are now. SO dont let those old ugly classmates ruin your future by robbing you of your humor and inner peace that will allow you to be someone people want to know. They arent worth it. High School is over. Enjoy the new you, dont be jaded. Be proud of your accomplishments and let your new life fulfill you and make you whole. You are going to love life, I promise!

I absolutely LOVE this poem. OMG you said everything I always want to say. Good stuff chic, good stuff!