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yeah... lol, but my skin retracts AAGGHHH what am I to do !! lol its not so much that I think I would cheat on my wife cause I have a great marriage, I just have a really screwed up childhood and clearly have issues that led to me being fat all my life, freaking out everytime I lost weight and not wanting attention, its one thing on-line, I can be more open, its reality where I freak out i.e. when I am face to face with someone, when I can see them looking at me... does any of this make any sence ? I just know this is the thing that always sabotages my weight loss... frustrating...

wow one incesion ! I would love that, good luck to all of us...

yeah I am almost five months into my six month "diet" period or whateve they call it I have blue croos blue shield, I guess its the same? I go next week - Thusrday to the lapband doc and find out if I am thru all the hoops.

wow, congrats!! I am waiting for my date, hope mine is as quick as yours ! GOOD LUCK !

yeah I dont have time that is for sure, lol, thanks for the encouragment, I guess I wont know till I get there, huh.... I will let you know how it goes ! Thanks !

""Here I am, 100 lbs lighter, 100 lbs later. I am sitting here with all kinds of emotions and I am not even sure I understand them all. The obvious new thing in my life is people’s comments and reactions. I have never been a shy person. I am very social and out spoken. Drawing attention to myself had never been an issue, but I find the issue that is getting attention is uncomfortable."" this is one of my biggest concerns, I have always been the class clown, the funny fat kid, "good friend" all of the familar support roles heavy people play but ( not yet banded, soon though ) from past attempts at weight loss, I know I will drop it fast, I ve always been told Im good looking for "my size" so that has always been a safe zone for me, keeping girls in high school and now women that I meet and work with at a distance, I am married and have a great marriage but my dad was always a looker and a cheater so this is a huge fear for me that I will freak out and follow in his footsteps if all of a sudden I start getting too much attention, I hope I am not coming off as a conceaded jerk, Im not, but I think this has always been my weight loss undoing but now I have diabetes and sleep apnea so I have to loose weight or risk my health or even die, soo I guess fear it or not Im heading down this road, has anyone else had to deal with this or am I just mental :Dancing_biggrin: thanks for the support... SPEED

WOW... thats profound... puts it all in perspective. " dont dig your grave with a knife and fork"

SW Florida, Fort Myers Beach area, I am impatiently waiting for my band, should happen around the first of the year ! cant wait to start telling my weight loss stories !

:biggrin: geez, I hope not, that is one of my main goals is to be able to psend a day riding all the thrill rides I have been too fat to ride in the last few years !! Good luck to you ! Im about two months pre-band... cant wait !

does the port bother you when you are doing crunches etc ? I havent got my band yet...?