Just G

I am almost 15 years out of bypass. I started at 275 and I loss down to a 168. I have gained 70 pounds. It took years but it creeped back up. I was proud of my size when I was at my smallest but I felt like crap and I was sick. Between anemia (a result of the bypass) and poor MENTAL health, I found that I was better at a BMI that said I was overweight. I never liked my body as I was never "perfect". I think it was because I was not happy in my day to day life. That meant I couldn't be happy with me. I divorced and spiraled for a while. I fell into the bat eating habits and didn't want to exercise. I think the mental should have taken precedence over the physical and I probably could have maintained it. I am at a place where I like ME and I can focus on my weight without it being about finding OTHERS acceptance. I only want to lose 50. But, I am focusing on strength training. Some days I struggle but over all I feel great. I am starting the walking/1300 calorie counting. Strength training and therapy are also part of that. I know how to lose weight and I will again. But, more importantly, I know how to process my emotions and I pray I don't turn to food.