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Erin18

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  1. Erin18

    So I've been thinking =/

    Would I be jumping the gun if I said that maybe I should just get the surgery?
  2. Random. Just curious, people! How old are you? What surgery did you have? Male or female? How much weight did you lose? How fast did you lose your weight? If you are female and didn't have cosmeticr surgery, are you comfortable enough to go to the beach in a bikini? How much loose skin do you have?
  3. Erin18

    So I've been thinking =/

    -forgot to add that I don't eat Breakfast and sometimes I won't eat until dinner, but then I'll eat and snack until I go to bed. But I've always did this, skip breakfast and lunch, eat dinner a snack and one more snack. Or two. Then go to bed. I used to never snack all through the night when everyone was to bed. I do now. But when I had the band I didn't eat as much especially before I met one.of.my friends. And I didn't snack as much and I tried eatting breakfast and lunch even if it was just a yogurt or a cheese stick or Soup. I never had as much fast food before the band or with the band as I do now. Its just that my friend is super skinny and hes always hungry, so I take him, we used to go every time we hung out. We barely hang out now so we don't go as much. Another MAJOR thing is soda, soda, soda!!. Omg I drink a lot of soda now that I don't have the band!!. I avoided soda when I had the band unless it was like fountain or Mt. Dew which I only had like 2 to 3 times a month! Everything skyrocketed since the removal.
  4. Erin18

    So I've been thinking =/

    2muchfun: I was trying, I was starting to actually get the hang of it before it had slipped. It could have been from all the puking I did in 2012, it was like constant, whenever we did go out to eat, none of my friends besides one or two knew about my surgery and I didn't want the others to know, so I didn't take my time eatting and caused myself t get food stuck. But in 2012, I met a friend and I have never had fast food as much as I did that year and last year. The fast food like you said and plus the puking should have been the reason for my slippage. The surgeon somehow caused the abscess, I believe. When I first got the band, I was doing what I was supposed to do. take 30 minutes to eat, chew very well, drink only Water or diet tea, gatorade, took my Calcium and Multivitamins. I walked a lot, I would go for walks with friends and family. Then I got way off track and couldn't get back on the tracks. Now that my band is gone, I've fell into the deep end. Depression kicked in more and very stressed. I'm a stressful eater and I eat when I am down. I also tend to go for the junk. I turn to food even if I do talk to someone. I do have a therapist for my depression. Started going to Therapy in July 2012. We do talk about my weight, I bring it up because it is one of the reasons that caused my depression in the first place. I don't know. I want to try these supplements called 5-HTP, BCAAs, and Spiralina and Probiotics (but can just get it from yogurt or fresh milk from a cow). I wish my mindset was easier to get with it. I wish I could stop wishing and start doing. No one ever said it was easy....I know. I just don't know why I am or my mind is SO stubborn. Yeah I know WLS isn't a quick fix or whatnot. I do know it isn't a magical "cure". You have to do your part and if you do your part, the "tool" will do it's part. I have wakeup calls all the time: won't beable to have kids won't fit into a beautiful wedding dress will never beable to wear a bikini or nice clothes clothes are getting tighter I can die Going to keep gaining ETC. Why isn't this scaring me? It's almost like my mind wants to stay fat and un-healthy. Almost like my mind doesn't want to do the work and wants everything to do it for me. That's not the case though because I do want to work out, I do want to eat healthier, I do want to achieve my goals etc. I feel lazy because I feel like a part of me is missing. I used to like doing all of these fun things and getting out there. I've been taking B-complex Vitamins and its a metabolism support Vitamin and supposed to give energy? I don't know, I don't really feel any different. I feel like maybe I am anemic, but the doctor took blood work and it said I wasn't. I'm thinking I don't know, that I am lacking some kind of nutrient? If I got the Plication surgery, I would definitely have myself watch what I eat and makesure I follow the rules.
  5. Erin18

    So I've been thinking =/

    Oh I searched it right after I posted that lol so its basically the sleeve without having half of your stomach removed I just weighed myself today just to see where I'm at and I'm at the highest weight I've ever been....244!!! I told my mom about plication and she just sighed. She was like "you're not even trying, I feel like you're just going to go straight to surgery" I was and am trying. I was writing what I was eating and tracking down the calories. Making sure I kept it under 1500 or 1200. Trying to wallk. But I wasn't even losing and I didn't feel a difference in my clothes. I did this for like a month... so annoying. I kind of feel like I'm being held back. Keeps saying we're going to eat heathier and write down what we eat and exercise....that was back in january and still haven't. None of my family wants me to get surgery again, but I'm so sick of being over weight and just keep gaining with no support anyway. And they said they've been suppoting me since the begining, they were but not tough enough. Sorry ranting a bit
  6. Erin18

    Anyone around 23?

    When I first got it, back on July 31st 09, I lost 47 pounds in less than a month, bc I was always nauseous and couldn't eat or drink. I gained a bit when I felt better, then in 2011 gained a little more then in 2012 became depressed and lost 10-15 pounds. Kept that off for a year, then when I had to have emergency surgey I lost another 10. But I gained all my weight back and its depressing. I wanted to give iit a try at losing it on my own, I gave it a year. I started re thinking about it in october and that's why I came back here. I don't know what to do. I just keep gaining. I'm such a failure at this. Kyle K- did your friend develop acide reflux with the sleeve? I did withe the band and I didn't have it before gettingvit and I dont have it now that its gone. If I get surgery again I'm worried that I'll have acid reflux for the rest of my life. Someone on here told me you'll get acid reflux. That's kind of holding me back along with a few other things.
  7. Erin18

    So I've been thinking =/

    That's what I'm doing now is doing my research...then ask my doctor for his opinion. Get more information at his office. I had reflux when I had the band, only if it was too tight.... so *sigh* I don't know what to do...
  8. Erin18

    My weight is stressing me out!

    Sorry for the mispellings, this android tablet lags...
  9. Erin18

    Family can be difficult

    Sadly, my family is the same way. They don't want me to get WLS again. They keep on telling me"you don't need it" "try losing it on your own" "you can lose it on your own you just have to set your mind to it and want it" or when I say "nothing is working for me, I keep gaining weight, I'm scared of gaining more" then I'm told "you're not trying hard enough" "you're not trying hard enough" "you're not trying hard enough" "you're not trying hard enough" I wouldn't have gotten WLS in the first place if I knew I can do it on my own...
  10. Erin18

    Hey!

    Wow, so I didn't know that this site made other improvements besides their name! I like this better, now I can go read forums about other procedures. I originally had the LapBand. Had to have it removed due to infection. Gained all of what I lost (47 pounds). Trying to lose it on my own and it's such a struggle. If I don't lose at least 20 pounds by the end of may, I think my decision would be to get the gastric sleeve, a handful of people one here suggested it. I'd be so scared of them taking half of my stomach out, having it stapled and then losing the weight too fast and ending up with lose skin :/ don't want lose skin and don't want plastic surgery. Jumping ahead of myself here... Anyways, now I can get more info, yay!
  11. Erin18

    Hey!

    Thanks!(:
  12. Erin18

    Hey!

    Either way all surgery is scary, I feel like my family doesn't really want to support my decision if I end up getting the surgery. They say they've supported me all along but I told them It doesn't feel like it. But idk ill look more into this and try my best
  13. Erin18

    So I've been thinking =/

    I struggle with food..
  14. Erin18

    So I've been thinking =/

    If anything, I'm leaning more towards the sleeve, before it was the roux en y. The sleeve doesn't sound or look as scary as the other one and I have no idea why. All surgeries are scary. But I feel like surgery is best for me, I feel like I try and try, I am a yo yo dieter, I never feel full, I constantly think about food. I had posted something.on facebook one of my aunts had commented on it, it was about me thinking about getting weightloss surgery again and she tells me "Erin, you're just bored, you don't need surgery, go out get a job to occupy yourself..." coming from a person who got a Boob job? And barely eats and from what I heard if she eats too much, shell go three days without eating? Mmmk. But yeah I might get it done after I get to talk to my doctor and get more info about them all and as I stated before I'm not telling anybody besides the three family members I have listed and you guys as well.
  15. Erin18

    So I've been thinking =/

    Haven't talked to my bariatric doctor since may/June last year when I got a tube taken out. I wasn't interested in surgery back then, I told myself I wasn't going to get surgery ever again. Then when I started seeing the pounds piling back up it started to change my decision. I was going to give it a year from May/June for a just in case type of thing. Every month since then I started to think about it. Someone I know had Roux EN Y and lost 160 pounds since July. Anyways. I watched videos on the Sleeve, I saw that they staple your stomach? I also worry about all the loose skin. I have 120-125 pounds to lose and the only thing is lose skin and I know its supposed to be the last of our problems. I don't want to lose it too too fast, but to know that ill be full quicker and eat less would be a great feeling, I miss that feeling. I'm still going to give it until April, but I don't see what it'd hurt to go talk to my doctor about surgery options. I think the last time I saw him he told me "if you ever decide to get weightloss surgery again, don't be afraid to give us a call" I should give them a call and make an appointment with my doctor and ill bring a list of questions on bypass, roux en y, and the sleeve. I talked to the girl I mentioned about her roux en y and I told her about people telling.me I shouldn't get surgery that I can do it on my own if I put my.mind and heart to it blah blah blah and she told me that I'm doing it for myself nobody else. Okay you guys, if I get surgery again, only you guys, my mom, dad and one of my brothers will know. I need you guys for the support as well as those three
  16. Erin18

    So I've been thinking =/

    I looked up videos on both and the Sleeve doesn't sound as scary as Roux EN Y, so maybe I will look a lot more Into the Sleeve since it seems highly recommended (:
  17. Erin18

    So I've been thinking =/

    I will definitely have to do some research. After I posted this, I told my mom what I was thinking and she told me "If you did, maybe you should get Gastric Bypass since the band wasn't really doing much for you besides causing you pain. You also won't have to worry about getting fills." Would any one suggest Roux EN Y? I will do research on both the Roux EN Y and the Sleeve. I'm seriously scared to get surgery again, what if I die this time? Anyways, also after posting this new topic, My mom suggested to me that I should give it 3 months and try to lose 20 pounds, if I don't then she said I should look into it. So far, I gained like 2-5 pounds since I posted this, so I'm weighing what I weighed when I originally got the LapBand. It's so frustrating you guys!!
  18. Erin18

    Re-thinking about WLS

    Thanks you guys, yeah I totally don't think I want to get anything cut or removed, I watched a Roux En Y procedure video and oh my god, no way, plus it makes you lose weight too fast (most cases) and leaves you with excess skin. I really don't knowww! Ugh I don't want to go through all the pain I had to go through again. I'd definitely give the band another try if I decide. This is such a super hard decision. My weight is making me so upset that I barely even want to eat. I really want to try losing weight on my own, no more needles, no more hairloss(takes forever to come back after surgery, mine is finally coming back) no more throwing up/PB's, no more weird throat noises when laying down, no more scars. The infection was from getting my revision surgery, I developed an abscess next to the band, that is also another thing I don't want to have the possibility of experiencing again. I mainly don't want surgery, but I feel I might have to :/ I know deep down I can do it on my own, but either way it's just so hard and the hardest part is getting the will power, dedication, motivation.
  19. Hey people, I'm back.... As some know, I already had lapband surgery in 09 and it had to be removed this year in April due to an infection. I knew for a fact IDID NOT WANT to have surgery again, but as soon as my weight started creeping back up to almost where I started in the first place and trying to lose it on my own again with no success, weightloss surgery is coming back to my mind. It depresses me that my weight is going back up and that I'm rethinking surgery again, but my weight going back up is my own fault. So, I'm going to give trying to lose 40-60, 30, or whatever on my own by June and I will call up my surgeon. Last I saw him was in may/ June and he said I was still a good candidate for weight loss surgery. Question: what other weight loss surgeries are there? The Sleeve, LapBand, Roux NY/bypass, Realize Band is there anything else? I'd probably choose the band again but either way I'd be so scared that things would happen the way they did and I was also thinking about the Roux NY but I don't want anything cut and moved around *SIGH* *SMH* *FML* -erin
  20. I'm 3 weeks post op, my posts probably don't matter anymore. I've been through hell and back these past three weeks. I had the band revised, then developed an infection and two days later was back on the operating table having the band removed and a drain tube and feeding tube. I could have died which is so freaky! Those are both out now and I'm feeling better. I'm going to miss seeing my dr. I might meet up with the nutritionist and i want to keep in touch with my surgeon. He said that if later down the road I find that I can't lose weight on my own that I'm still a good candidate for other weightloss surgery. But going through all of what I have been through, I really want to do it on my own. I have a question though, it's about my heart rate. I can see it in my neck all the time, is it because I'm still only 3 weeks out and because of the trauma I've been through? My dr said it was down, but it's scary that I can see it. It's ok when I'm sleeping, but the moment I get up it starts up again and stays like that until I go to bed, I know I should've asked my dr about it, but I forgot. If its still like this on the 30th I will ask my primary care dr because I see her that day for a 6 month check up.
  21. As some you know, my Lapband slipped. On Friday April 19 was my revision surgery. I go home thinking I'll just better over. Stayed home for a night checking my temp every so often. I had a fever just about every time I checked.I go to my hospital on Sunday morning, they found an infection so I left my hospital via ambulance and when I get to the hospital where I had my surgery, took a cat scan and it showed up on that so I went into surgery ): I had a serious infection and absess? It was so bad one of the best things for him to do was to take my band out. So I have been here since Sunday. My fever is slowly going down, my heart rate is still a little high, took the fully tube out (the one for your bladder, and got the tube that was Hooked up to my stomach.got plugged today. I am getting closer and closer to getting out of here, this just sucks ):
  22. Thinking that I could have died scared me so bad, did I mention that my heart rate was up in the 140s/150s when I got here on Sunday and a 104 fever? My heart rate now is in the 90s and my temp is 97.7 I believe , I might be able to go go home tomorrow, I hope I don't get an infection like this again and live a full happy life with out a troublesome band ruining everything. My mom thinks for the infection to be as bad as they said it was then it must have been there for awhile?

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