Erin18

Thanks you two (: That is right, it is a new day! My insurance does I believe. I have to do that to my brain, how do you tell it that it REALLY doesn't need it? That's what I planned on doing was taking all my papers out because I remember losing 12-15 pounds on my own before surgery, if I could do that then, I can do that now. I have a punching bag outside, I'm totally thinking about doing a workout back there when the rain stops coming, I just need some punching gloves because someone stole ours. I like kick boxing and punching, it's fun and it's a good workout, I can also take all of my stress away while kicking and punching it! I love walking for long walks around town but it's hard to ever find someone who would walk with me everyday, nobody ever wants to or they are "too busy" . That puts me down. I hate having to walk by myself outside, it scares me because I always feel like someone is out to get me. The food, yes, there is junk foods in the house but my mom won't get rid of them shes like "you don't have to eat it", if I don't have to eat it, then no body does. I tell her if it is in the house it makes me want to eat it, its too tempting. If we didn't have it, I'd most definitely be where I want to be right now. She keeps saying she wants to lose weight, then let's start by getting rid of the junk. Is there another type of beverage that is good for you like Water? I'm asking because I need something to switch to, I'll get sick of drinking water and move on to the super sugary stuff. My main problem though, is the food. My biggest problem! There's never any close support groups around here. I'm not in any kind of therapy. I agree it is tough to start And I also agree on that it does feel good after exercising.

Nice! They all sound fun and I know nothing can compare to real workouts and stuff but hey, its a start and they always say do something that is fun and anything that gets your heart rate up is exercise. With the kinect, it makes me sweat and with the Wii (I only have Wii fit) it also makes me sweat. So I'm planning on getting some dance games because I'd like to dance but without all the people watching me, you know?

I feel like i'm always muching on something and it kind of sucks i feel like i can't even stick to something and i'm completely going down hill. I have 6cc's in my band right now and sometimes its hard to eat some things and most of i time i know i'm not chewing well i feel like i'm letting myself down terribly. i haven't lost weight if anything i gained and i've been depressed for over a year

Dave_NW- I am too and yeah. it's been over a year. I only started out good at first cause I was terribly nauseous at the begining of this. I feel I need to talk to my doctor too but I have no way there, my mom doesn't seem like she want to bring me there. I don't think I need more in the band atm cause its working right because sometimes i eat too fast and it comes back up. Ohhhh I definitely know that's the problem (not eating right) and I haven't been motivated to do ANYTHING. That's also my problem, I don't know how to eat healthy or right. I haven't been the same since the begining of last year it's like my whole mind changed and i don't like it at all. That is for sure, I fell in the rut and I can't get out and I feel all alone. reverie- I think is both of those, emotional and out of boredom. Its winter and there is nothing I can think of that I would enjoy around here. Everything costs money...fun costs money. I try to stay away from the kitchen but somehow I find myself in there. I try finding things to do and then I say "nah, I don't want to do that" and watch tv or something. I feel like a loner with noone...I feel lost in the darkness I try talking to friends but it only lasts for a while. I feel depressed cause of the way I am, overweight, single, two friends stopped being my friend and I feel like I have no friends, but I do. The times I go out with them the fun only lasts for a little while. I feel like I'm hiding from the world.

Since I'm getting nowhere, I thought I should start this over from the begining *sigh*. I'm starting out with the pre-op diet which was for a week before surgery, Thinking either 2-3 Protein Shakes a day (I bought whey Protein vanilla), 2-3 yogurts, lots of Water, would love to add fruits and veggies but I don't have any besides bananas. I do understand that this will be boring and probably hard but if I could do it the first time, I can do it this time. It's just a jump start to get me going I'm going on a long walk tomorrow. Wow this sounds depressing much, eh?

I know how you feel, trust me! I really is hard once you get off track. But I'm really sick off this, it's getting to the point that I'm going to stay depressed. It makes me not want to leave the house, it's getting bad, real bad =/ I think I need a littl more support from friends and family, but I'm getting pretty much none =/ which is probably why I'm not getting anywhere, meh

i'm gaining, instead of losing. im hungry most of the time and then again i skip meals not exercising, dont have motivation. i dont know i seem like i cant do anything right. i guess i'm going to have to live my life being fat. can't find the help anywhere and not even on here it seems. i hate myself for letting me get this way. i'll never get to goal and i know it..