Hollie519

Thanks for the encouragement. I lost !00 pounds in my first year and now I need to get back on the wagon. I've have to be completely open for too long. I just e-mailed my doctor for a fill :] Makes me nervous though because I haven't had one in forever.

I need to get back on track. I've been completely deflated for like 4 months. I've gained like a million pounds. No only 40 pounds until my goal weight and I would be happy with losing 20. I think I need help getting back on track. PLEASE GRACE ME WITH YOUR WORDS OF WISDOM!

I need to get back on track. I've been completely deflated for like 4 months. I've gained like a million pounds. No only 40 pounds until my goal weight and I would be happy with losing 20. I think I need help getting back on track. PLEASE GRACE ME WITH YOUR WORDS OF WISDOM!

I just read over some of my blogs and posts. I don't even remember what its like to feel like that anymore. Today I feel good. I actually just broke up with this recent boyfriend and I feel good about having some me time. He was just drunk and said some stupid things to me. But I'm just not going to settle or put up with it. Why? Hell no am I going to be my mom. No way! Alcoholism is a serious issue. When you don't know when to stop drinking every time you drink, you shouldn't even waste your time. Since he isn't smart enough to not waste time, I'm not going to waste mine. I'm a freshman in college. Your high if you think I can't move on. :]

I just read over some of my blogs and posts. I don't even remember what its like to feel like that anymore. Today I feel good. I actually just broke up with this recent boyfriend and I feel good about having some me time. He was just drunk and said some stupid things to me. But I'm just not going to settle or put up with it. Why? Hell no am I going to be my mom. No way! Alcoholism is a serious issue. When you don't know when to stop drinking every time you drink, you shouldn't even waste your time. Since he isn't smart enough to not waste time, I'm not going to waste mine. I'm a freshman in college. Your high if you think I can't move on. :]

thanks guys. I really needed to get back in touch with this side of my life.

wow thats amazing. I don't know if its because I'm young but I had surgery on a wednesday and went back on Sunday. working full time running around like a chicken with my head cut off.

Ok so I took a little vacation. I broke up with my boyfriend in like September. YEAH ME! I moved back in with my parent and quit my job. Holy crap was I just looking for a drastic change or what? Lol I partied for a few month and now I'm back. So I need to get back on track. I gained like 10 pounds in this process. I'm back to work, back to school and have a new (WAY BETTER) boyfriend. Life has finally started to feel good. I feel good about myself and everything else around me. My mom and I were having a discussion the other day about guilt. When I eat bad food, I feel guilty. I have always grown up rather religously and I was thinking, God doesn't punish people for eating junk food. Just because you are fat, doesn't mean that you are going to go to hell. It honestly helped me come to terms with the fact that my body doesn't have to be perfect and I don't have to feel bad because I don't look like a freakin porn star. So I'm going to get my ass up and put my running shoes on. Just being back on this site is an inspiration to me. Thanks all

Oh my gosh! so freakin cute! You look like my little kitten :]

I stopped giving a shit what people thought about what i do along time ago. lol so if it makes your feel better rant away

Thank You! I appreciate it. Honestly, i could care less if people don't like what i am doing. i take care of myself and my body. Whatever I am doing is working. I picked a lady bug costume by the way. a really hot one. :]

Ok so my opinion is my opinion. I'm letting go of this because when I had the lap band, I also vowed to change my state of mind. People's opinions are people's opinions. I actually said in the interview that I would go to TJ. People get kiddknapped and raped and all kinds of crap there. I frequently spend time in Mexico. Farther down and even there it isn't safe. Don't get so deffensive. You are 46, you should know better. If you know you are so right, than it should be easier for you to brush it off. The same way when people ask me why didn't I just stop eating, I don't get mad. I just know its their igorance speaking. No need to get upset.