My highest weight is 412 and that has been in the last 6 months. I have been absolutely miserable in my own body for more years than I can remember. I am 5ft 2.5in. I have been working at losing weight on and off for over 20 years and just feel like I am a failure all the time. I have said many times that I would never have weight loss surgery because I have always been terrified of it. But I am taking control of my life and I am making the necessary changes and preparing for the surgeon to say yes I can have surgery or no but I am going to do whatever it takes to loss weight and make all the necessary lifestyle changes.