Hi muffin. X I just had my surgery 3 days ago & yes I got all the to the hospital on my surgery day & almost walked out! I have gone back and forth for almost 2 years with us this right decision for me. I had 1 final talk with God and he explained to me that he needs me at my healthiest for the assignments that he has for me in future! It's ok to have doubts and fears. Do a pros/cons list, analyze, pray on then let us what you decided. I hope my testimony helps you 🥰