Cherylita

Girl you are right! It is normal to have these thoughts. Heck I have gone back for forth for about 5yrs gradually getting bigger and bigger (I'm at 361). You said the ball isn't in your court...I don't know anything about you but unless you have someone taking care of you, the ball is always in your court. You control you girl. When I first went in to discuss this they told me I would have to cut out sodas. I said all I drink is diet, they said cut that out too. Girl I have given up sugars in sweets but realized I am still getting sugars because dangit I haven't quit the Mac N Cheez! lol! But I have cut out sodas. I haven't had a soda in a month! I drink diet lipton tea- green and white (peach papaya is yummy-when it's warm though it kinda tastes like wine lol) But just from reading what you wrote you are in control girl! you have it all inside of you to do this! Self doubts are just anxiety talking. what if this or what if that..girl in a few months you'll be saying what if I would have never done it???? You will be fine girl! Good luck!!

Signing in from Bastrop, Tx! Well I have debated back and forth on getting any WLS for a while and finally decided the only thing I have to lose is weight! I had gone for the initial consultation in May and made a couple of appointments but then canceled them all...or so I thought. I have been praying on this decision and I kept thinking what if..what if I die..but I went to my PCP and saw her Nurse Practitioner who actually sees patients that have had WLS. She told me right now I am ok but in a year or two it probably wouldn't be so good. She said now is the time for me to do something to save myself! She gave me some great info and said that other than my weight I am pretty healthy (I hope that doesn't hinder my chances of insurance coverage). I don't have diabetes, high BP, anything! I have always baffled Drs because they can't figure out why I am this weight! I always tell them..I am this size so I can hide from the world and say I can't do things because of my size. Well I am tired of that way of life. Notice I didn't say living because that isn't what I am doing! I want to be active and more than anything I want to go running and ride a bike! I called True Results and rescheduled everything and am on my way. Now I hope that I can get the Drs notes from the last few years (I wouldnt go to Drs because I knew they would have to weight me). Now I wish I had more documentation. Heck I didn't get 361lbs overnight for sure!! Anyway, I look forward to meeting yall and finding some great support and friends!! Cherylita