Hello All,
I've finally taken the first few steps of meeting with the surgeon and nutritionist, etc., but am really frightened about scheduling the tests I need and REALLY SERIOUSLY considering this surgery because:
1) I have had gastro problems for many years. Mainly, lower GI problems, such as IBS, mucous colitis and have been on meds (Lomotil & Levsin) for years just to control this enough for me to work and get out of the house. At this point, I am probably addicted to these meds; without them, I'm a mess, with constant gastro pain and diarrhea. My fear is having the LB might make things worse?? My current eating habits are undoubtedly making things worse - post LB surgery - will I feel better and can I finally get off of these meds?? I also burp a lot; it seems like a must after eating or it hurts inside. This will probably increase with LB - right?
2) Now this is the "biggie": Am I psychologically healthy enough to live with LB and make the life changes I know I must make? Long story short - I have an adult daughter (22 yrs) who suffers with Tourette Syndrome and Bi-polar disorder. It would be an understatement to say life has been very difficult over the years trying my best and spending a LOT of time and energy helping her to be stable and safe. I know I will have to put myself first and do what is necessary to be successful, but I have lived with so much stress and fear (her decision making is often very bad, with scary & often dangerous results) that there is no doubt my food addiction and gastro problems are a direct reflection on how I emotionally handle the almost daily crisis that arise in my daughter's life. I am currently in therapy to get some help with my "enmeshment" with my daughter, but am worried that I will fail post surgery because of the extreme level of stress in my life.
Any help or advice on either of these subjects would be so greatly appreciated. Thanks for being here to vent and discuss important issues. I want so much to be healthier, but this terrible FEAR is standing in the way of me moving forward toward a realistic surgery date.