WishMeSmaller

The vacation was great and lovely and I stayed very active while still getting to sample foods I hadn't yet tried since surgery.  After getting back, I decided to stay off of social media for a little while, which also included these forums.  I had a lot of work in the office to catch up on and needed to focus on that.  Of course, the past week or so I have been struggling a lot mentally and emotionally.  I've desperately wanted comfort food and have done well not giving into that temptation.  This week doesn't feel like it'll go much better, but October always seems to be the worst month for me. 

Had an anxiety dream last night involving a substantial weight gain in the past week.  Absolutely no basis in reality since I've stayed on plan.  I think it stems from Saturday when I ate some extra calories due to a 2 hour hike earlier in the day that burned 900 calories.  The extra calories brought my total intake up for 1025, as opposed to 700-800.  And my extra calories were from curry egg salad, so it was a protein packed choice.  And yet, my brain some how decided that would lead me to gain 10 pounds in one week and threw that are me while I slept.  Brains can be jerks.

Surgery (sleeve) was Monday, 7/6 and today I finally feel a little more human! I've battled headaches, nausea, soreness of course, and I can't sleep more than 2 hours at a time! I am still sore, especially up in my ribs! I'm also very tired and my energy is extremely low. I have a business I work from home but I don't even want to think about it right now! I'm so grateful to have this behind me and finally feel like I am actually on the road to recovery! I'm still on clear liquids until next week. Hopefully then my energy will pick up a bit!!