SabrinaGoddess

Today I scheduled my mental evaluation and my nutritionist appointments. Yes, we are moving along quiet nice.  December 9th will be here before you know it.

I have informed my inner circle of family about the surgery and I will be keeping it in my CORE!

👀All of a sudden it hit me yesterday that this is GONNA happen! You know when you plan for something so hard you focus on it happening and all the little details, but yesterday it truly hit me that this is just right around the corner.

I was looking on Amazon for some great cookbooks and I also found some pretty cool bariatric plates. Man things have come a long way since I was banded in 2009 and unbanded in 2012!

I AM SO EXCITED!

I have been so excited over these past few days....I KNOW what it feels like to hit the goal and live a happy and healthy life. I had that with my lapband...then it all dissolved when my band eroded. My life went back into the dept of depression hell! Yes, I tried eating less, yes I tried exercise. blah blah blah...I KNOW you all understand where I am coming from!

So here is a shortlist of things I am looking forward to after my surgery!

• Tying my shoes without a struggle
• Wrapping a towel around me and have it fit!
• Shopping in regular-sized stores
• New photoshoot
• Flying and being able to feel comfy in my seatbelt
• Working Out and not feeling like I can't breathe
• Having a thin face and neck
• Compliments given without this phrasing....You are cute for a big girl!

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Now that I have my date I have several things that need to be done.

Since I am self-pay I do not have to deal with the hoops most people go through with insurance. I feel very blessed about that and I understand the struggle many have to go through.

So today I am looking up flights, contacting my nutritionist for the required meeting and also the mental evaluation person. I am so excited I just can't contain myself.

I am blogging every single day and it feels good to just let it all out!

www.SabrinaGoddess.com

December 9th, 2019 is my SURGERY date!

All is right with the world!

One thing I was NOT prepared for when I had my LapBand and lost all my weight was how others reacted to my changes. I was so focused on me and getting healthy that I did not see the others around me seething with toxic thoughts and words. Took me completely by surprise how you know people for years then all of a sudden their true character showed up.

This time around I am prepared but I am totally documenting this journey from the very beginning in my blog! It's been therapeutic to write it all out. 

Anyone else have issues with friendships dissolving after WLS?

Created a new blog to journal ALL of my thoughts and progresses
www.SabrinaGoddess.com

Banded in 2009; Unbanded 2012
Lived life 2012-2019 struggling with weight gain and massive depression
The decision to have Gastric Sleeve made Oct. 17th, 2019
Contacted my doc for the initial consultation (Oct 30th)
Self Pay

Here we go....finally getting back to ME

This week has been emotional! I did finally get on the scale. I am freaking 270lbs and I threw a tandrum just like a 2 year old in Target. For years I did not touch that scale! I did not want to put myself through that torture. I think after this surgery I won't be weighing except for one or two months. I think we can focus on that scale a little too damn hard.

My sis gets on it freaking twice a day. I do not want to chain myself to that evil witch.

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www.SabrinaGoddess.com

Banded in 2009; Unbanded 2012
Lived life 2012-2019 struggling with weight again and massive depression
The decision to have Gastric Sleeve made Oct. 17th, 2019
Contacted my doc for inital consultation (Oct 30th)
Self Pay

Here we go....finally getting back to ME

Created a new blog to journal ALL of my thoughts and progresses
www.SabrinaGoddess.com