MichellePDX

I'm due for my surgery on the 21st of this month and I'm really starting to get second thoughts about this. Everyone around me is so excited for me, telling me how much better my life will be and I can't get that excited. I'm super nervous, worried and just feeling an intense need to back out. I'm having a hard time focusing on anything but the negatives I'm seeing in my future. The super restricted diet, having to take so many Vitamins, the cost (paying out of pocket for the whole thing), the way I'll look after (excess skin), even a bit of worry that I won't be me anymore. I've been overweight my entire life so, in my mind, that's who I am. I also have a bad habit of running away from 'hard' choices and taking the easy path. Has anyone else felt like this? How did you handle it?

I'm due for my surgery on the 21st of this month and I'm really starting to get second thoughts about this. Everyone around me is so excited for me, telling me how much better my life will be and I can't get that excited. I'm super nervous, worried and just feeling an intense need to back out. I'm having a hard time focusing on anything but the negatives I'm seeing in my future. The super restricted diet, having to take so many Vitamins, the cost (paying out of pocket for the whole thing), the way I'll look after (excess skin), even a bit of worry that I won't be me anymore. I've been overweight my entire life so, in my mind, that's who I am. I also have a bad habit of running away from 'hard' choices and taking the easy path. Has anyone else felt like this? How did you handle it?

I'm due for my surgery on the 21st of this month and I'm really starting to get second thoughts about this. Everyone around me is so excited for me, telling me how much better my life will be and I can't get that excited. I'm super nervous, worried and just feeling an intense need to back out. I'm having a hard time focusing on anything but the negatives I'm seeing in my future. The super restricted diet, having to take so many Vitamins, the cost (paying out of pocket for the whole thing), the way I'll look after (excess skin), even a bit of worry that I won't be me anymore. I've been overweight my entire life so, in my mind, that's who I am. I also have a bad habit of running away from 'hard' choices and taking the easy path. Has anyone else felt like this? How did you handle it?