Sheribear68

At a Christmas cocktail party. NEVER would I think that I would be happy posing for pics. Maintenance is fun!

Okay, so I haven’t posted in days, but holidays and vacation. Anyway, we are at the art museum and here is my OOTD

Happy Thanksgiving! My OOTD: it must be versatile for work today and then for hanging out with family later.

Lol, I remember last month tentatively sipping on a mimosa before a morning football game and wondering how bad it was gonna hurt.

Okay so today I weighed in again (wasn’t planning on it, but I had some good quality bathroom time (yeah, maybe TMI, but I had been seriously battling some constipation for weeks). I’m down to 146.4, which is unbelievable considering I was in the lower 150’s for about 3 weeks. I think it’s actually going to be possible for me to see 139, which is a complete mind F**K, TBH. That being said, I understand that some rebound is to be expected so right now I’ll say anywhere in my modified GW range of 150-155.

True story

Yeah, I had an epiphany of sorts myself today. I realized that I truly don’t want to try to eat over 800 calories daily ATM. I’m quite comfortable with my routine and it seems counter intuitive to try to eat more intentionally at this phase. If I get “ too skinny” then I guess I get thinner until it stops. Lol, there’s always year 3....... I’ll get back to a “normal” weight then. 🤣🤣🤣🤣

Okay so literally 90% of my wardrobe is from clothes mentor (the higher-end consignment store) or through eBay. What I’ve been doing is going to places where I never thought I’d be able to buy clothes (black and white, Ann Taylor, Talbots, Chico’s, etc...) and try on their clothes to get an idea of the sizing, then start searching to see if anybody has it for sale. I love the clothes mentor philosophy: they simply will not accept anything that is >2 years old and shows any wear and tear.

What’s funny is that as I continue to go, I’m still slowly losing. I truly thought I was “done” when I blew through all of my weight loss goals, and now I realize that my body is going to continue to do this thing for a bit longer. I’m now 148 and therefore will try to defend 145-150 as my window to stay in. What’s funny is just 2 weeks ago, I had adjusted my window to 150-155. Seeing as I’m not even 10 months post-op, I can see a scenario where I start trying to defend 140-145. It’s strange to think that I’m almost feeling as if I need to justify my lower numbers. Some of it I’m sure is that I’ve been MO for 20+ years, but there’s also a bit in there that is in shock at the changes and is somewhat in denial that this is really my body that has gotten this small. Another part might stem from being afraid to wish for or ask for “too much”. Why I shouldn’t be deserving of a nice BMI as much as the next person will probably take several therapy sessions, lol

Lol, I don’t consider that a cheat. You made a really smart choice based off of your situation. Yeah, pizza smell is tough to beat. Last week someone dropped off scripts through the drive through and they had just picked up pizza. I wasn’t hungry at all, but that smell..... omg I wanted some pizza

Hmmm. Well that’s interesting bc I literally physically *cannot eat >800-900 calories daily if I’m eating food I want/need to eat. I mean, yeah I could hold 900 calories of chocolate cake, or mashed potatoes, or candy (although probs not in one sitting), but if we are talking about typical things that I eat now, I have nowhere near the capacity to hold over 800 unless I drink a few glasses of wine. Heck even 2-3oz bourbon has at most 150 cals. This makes me think that even though I consider myself more or less in maintenance, I’m basing that off of my BMI and goals that I had set. Wow, my mind is blown thinking about this.....

I am so going to get one of those sports scans soon. I had one from the dr office that tells me my bone density is in the 90% for my age so I have that, but I truly don’t know my muscle to fat ratio

Agree to all of the above comments. I’m not totally “there” yet, but I definitely enjoy the freedom associated with not being hungry all the time.

Okay, so this may sound like a ridiculous thing to stress about after reading some of these cheats, but this weekend I grabbed some lifesavers out of our candy bucket at work this weekend. The first one was because I had just gulped down some pepperoni and pepper jack cheese cubes and I had to go give a family flu shots and I didn’t want to knock them over with my bad breath, but the first one led to a second, and then a third. It happened so fast and shocked me at how easy it was to suck all of that useless sugar down in less than an hour. The craving for more was with me for a few hours and it legit worried me. I bought some sugar-free breath mints and now have some of those in my cubby.

As an OU fan...... I can completely feel your pain, lol! Looking FABULOUS though in your team colors.

Okay so I’ve heard that the “brands” that make it to the outlet stores aren’t the same as the same brands available for the higher price. There apparently is a reason for them to be there for a cheaper price and the stuff in outlets are the irregular fit kind of stuff so your complaints are completely valid and there’s some hard evidence to it. I’m grateful for this experience in that I’ve discovered a love for high-quality consignment. I’ve never felt like spending any more than necessary to clothe myself appropriately and now I’m discovering new favorite styles and brands (even if I’m still very conservative in my style at the end of the day) Yeah, many of the things I’m getting are 1-2 seasons “outdated” but what I do find now is high quality and really much better fitting clothing. Lol, at least better fitting in context: once my body stops changing every 2-3 weeks the clothes will be even MORE fabulous for my body 🤣🤣🤣

Awesome! Okay, so I got to my “goal” of 2 pounds worth of fluctuation. I’ve finally decided that for now I want to defend 145-150 and I weighed in at 148.0 this morning. Hit the goal exactly 1 week before I needed to. Bring on vacay in 7 days.....

Day 25: I’m most grateful that my city is all about resilience and the ability to shine through in our darkest moments. I’ll just let the pics speak for themselves. I love going to the memorial site sometimes just to see the survivor tree. It gives me hope that anything can be endured and overcome.

Right? Totally love the whole look and yeah, those booty pads don’t show in the other dress

Lol! See I was just looking back over the pics and thinking how much my hips stick out by a mile and wishing I had legs that were about 3 inches longer than they were bc they look so short and stubby to me. Lol, I moved the mirror from the attic room to my bedroom bc the electrical outlet stopped working and I needed better light to do my hair. Long story, but my master bath has about the worst lighting on the planet and one.....ONE single outlet that’s nowhere convenient to a mirror so I’ve always used that room right off of it for my hair stuff. Whelp, the outlet is fried (and I have no idea why) so I’m temporary moving home base to the bedroom (which I dislike doing because I don’t like having “stuff” junking up my oasis. Oh well, hopefully hubs can fix it soon and I’ll come to grips with my body all at the same time

Need help deciding. Should I wear tucked or untucked?

... I have this almost irresistible urge to talk to them about my WLS. At first, this was happening with some family and friends. One month after I had WLS, one of my good friends who is super-MO,had a heart attack (at the age of 45) and spent over 2 months in the hospital, had multiple surgeries and now has to wear an LVAT and will either die early or need a transplant. I desperately wanted to talk to her and our other MO friends who I would meet at the hospital, but obviously it wasn’t the appropriate moment. Since then as I edge ever-closer to GW, I find myself being drawn to MO and super-MO people and I want to scream at the top of my lungs that there is a way out of that living hell. It’s also complicated by the fact that I’m a healthcare professional so I see these guys day in and day out. I’ve had SUCH a positive experience and my life and well-being have done a complete 180 that I feel almost as if I have a personal responsibility to let anyone and everyone know about WLS.

Lol. Just goes to show the difference in personality types. I’m such a boring rule-follower that it honestly never occurred to me that it tasting the food before buying was any kind of option. *wonders is she can walk into the liquor store with the same philosophy*

So my favorite TG memory is from ‘09 when I was on chemo. I had had some really rough weeks behind me and my hair had just fallen out the month before. I was feeling crappy and wasn’t in the mood for a holiday. My sister hosted, and she has yorkies . One of them—Beau— such a darling. He looooooves going out for walks and gets so excited about them. After trying to eat a few bites of dinner, a wave of nausea hit me and I knew I needed OUTSIDE the house right then and there. The weather was gorgeous— sunny and mild temps— so I grabbed Beau and his collar and we took off walking. It was so peaceful just to walk with a dog and take in the scenery while I tried to forget (if even for a few moments) that I was on chemo. Fast forward 10 years. My sister texted me just last weekend to inform me that Beau is no longer with us. He was 14 and lived a grand old life full of walks and playing and cuddling, but when he could no longer get up to eat or drink, she has to make a tough choice. Next week will be our first family TG without Beau, but I’m so thankful that I got to share that moment with him.

B: Honestly answering this would require a few sessions with my therapist and would take up too much space. I’m a perfectionist and therefore I’m always stressing about something. I’m my own worst critic and feel sometimes as if I could’ve always done “something more”. I short, I’ve always seen the molehills as mountains and losing >100 pounds hasn’t fundamentally changed my personality, though I have many days where I fervently wish it could.