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She is ok (@chayarg, hope its okay I said this), but I'll defer to her to provide details...

Yesterday Thursday, Feb 20 Maintenance : 5'2" / 1.33 yrs PO Sleeve / 114.3 lbs ---------------------------------------- Grocery shopping still not done! ---------------------------------------- 10:00am - black coffee w/ stevia 1:30pm - Soup (1 cup dashi broth, carrots, 1/2 package shiratake noodles, 4 shrimp balls) + 3 oz pan fried brussel sprouts in bacon fat + 4 oz roast chicken + 2 tbsp tzatziki 3:00pm - 1 scoop protein powder + 2 cups unsweetened almond milk + 2 tsp instant decaf coffee crystals 5:30pm - black coffee w/ stevia + 1/2 cup lemon sorbet + 1/2 fl oz pumpkin seeds 10:30pm to 1:00am approx 1/2 bottle of red wine 2 gin & sodas 1oz brie cheese 1oz cheddar cheese 2 crackers 1 tsp fig jam 6 grapes --------------------------------------- Totals: 1447 cals - 76g Protein - 49g NET carbs - 45g fat

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I've started a small collection, LOL. Only downside is peeing in public washrooms....

Mr. scored us tickets to a show tonite, so I get to get dressed up again! I'm wearing like 4-inch heeled booties to try to hide the fact that I didn't get this jumpsuit hemmed yet (even though I bought it months ago...) You can't tell so much that its a tad too long when I'm walking (or sitting with legs crossed), so I gotta make sure I'm only doing one of these things, lol.

Okay, so your picture reminded me that I invited BFF and her kids to come over tonite to help polish of some ice cream I've been impulse buying the past several weeks. Just went to the freezer to see if we have enough for everyone. Um, I guess the answer is a resounding YES. (man, I did not know we had accumulated this much...i totally forgot about the Haagen Dazs, it was in the back)

...ahhhh....ice cream (and cookies) is my Kryptonite.

You're purty 😍

Did you snore before? I sounded like a bulldozer (so says Mr.) pre-wls, and if I rolled only my back while sleeping, it would make it worse and I'd even wake myself up sometimes. Now that I don't snore anymore (in the beginning Mr. told me he would check if I was still breathing in the middle of the night, I was so quiet), I find back sleeping no prob. ...oh and also, laying on my side hurts my knees or my hips, so I don't do that for very long.

Ah, its been two months to the day since my plastics trifecta, and I have to tell you the past month or so has been a little rough. On Wound Healing: My healing progress took several steps backwards primarily due to my over-eagerness to get back into my exercise routine. I pushed myself a little too soon, a little too much and ended up opening up a few incisions. TWICE. Add to this that my body for the past few weeks has decided to expell my sutures instead of absorbing them, resulting in more broken skin and open wounds. At it's worst, I had 9 concurrent open wounds that were painful, oozing and stinky. On Exercise: Not including the two ill-advised attempts of full-on running and strength training, along with the equally ill-advised crunches I was doing in bed, I have had almost zero exercise. Now, I do go out for 1+ hour walks every few days, but I don't really count this as "true" exercise as I don't get that exercise "high" afterwards. I consider walking more of mental health remedy, I guess. On the Blahs: Due to my slow healing and recurring wounds + the lack of exercise + the fact that I have been basically holed up at home for 2 months + the crappy T.O. winter weather + my self-imposed week-long lack of sleep to watch every marquee Australian Open match, and difficulty sleeping even after it was done + my noticeably increased carb (read: sugar) intake + my obsession with the swelling in my lower abdomen, was feeling pretty sh*tty for a while. I was in full-on pity party mode and was being a total B to the fam, and picking totally unnecessary fights with them (Sorry Fam! They deserve trophies for putting up with me). I went through a week or so of drinking my blahs away, which I put a stop to once I realized what I was doing. I even shared an ENTIRE pack of cigarettes with BFF one night cuz I was just so annoyed and looking back, probably wanted to give an EFF YOU to the universe. Of all the things, I am most regretful of this. Mostly because I admitted it to Mr. & the Kid and while they didn't admonish me, I could see that they were disappointed. Jeez. On Possibly Turning a Corner: Last week, I did a much needed reality check (of which I need to thank @sillykitty for for prompting, along with the break in the winter weather that day, and the first good night's sleep I had in a while the night before). I upped my protein (thanks @FluffyChix for the reminder), and made sure to get more sleep (thanks me!, LOL). As of this morning, I am down to only 4 open wounds. The ooze factor of these have decreased ALOT, and they no longer stink. YAY! Though I'm going to temper my expectations because I have healed and UN-healed TWICE before and it was a definite hit to the mood. Current PS/body results: Swell hell continues in my lower abdomen & upper thighs. Some days are better than others. The one thing I have noticed is that if I wear my abdominal binder too high, the swelling in these areas get worse. I have been trying to make sure that the binder sits low enough, which results in lots of tugging throughout the day. I may have to invest in a full body one. My arm compression garment is no longer compressing me, despite being tailored by my mom earlier, but I wear it anyway as it helps keep my silicone tape from coming off. That and I have developed a weird security-fondness for it. I stopped wearing my sports bra (or any bra at all, for that matter) weeks ago because of the wounds on my under-boob and side boob. The arm compression garment is doing a little lifting in that area instead. Some Comparison Numbers: Pre-PS Weight: 115 lbs 2m-Po Weight: 117.1 lbs Pre-PS Bust - Waist - Hips measurements: 32.5" - 25.5" - 33" 2m-Po Bust - Waist - Hips measurements: 33.5" - 25.0" - 34" Pre-PS Left UpperArm Circumference: 10.5" 2m-Po Left UpperArm Circumference: 10.0" Pre-PS Right Thigh Circumference: 17.0" 2m-Po Right Thigh Circumference: 19.0" * I didn't think to measure my lower abdomen before, but I did this morning, so I can start keeping track: 2m-Po Lower Abdomen (measuring widest part): 33.0" Next Steps: I have my 2 month post op appointment with my surgeon tomorrow. He had given me homework to stretch/massage my arms at my 6 week appt, as he felt I should a fuller range of motion that I did at the time. He wanted to see me be able to raise my arms completely straight up with no resistance. Well....I CAN do it, BUT i can feel the areas between the armpit and upper tricep stretching to its limit. It doesn't hurt, but I can definitely feel the pull. I'm not sure if this is where he wanted me to be at, and I guess we'll see what he says tomorrow. I promised myself I would not go back to my normal level of exercise until ALL my wounds have closed. This may be overkill, but I really DO NOT want a repeat of last month. Hopefully this will be in the next couple weeks. I am going back to "work" in a couple weeks as well, so this should help with the boredom. Pictures: My surgeon will be taking pics of me at my appointment tomorrow, will see if I will post those, or take some myself...will decide later. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Edited to add update from 2 month follow up appt with Doc: --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Soooo....went to my 2 month follow up yesterday and Doc scheduled me for some steroid shots next month...I guess he is not happy with my my scar healing (I was fine with it, but I guess he knows better ) He also asked me again to not wear my tape as much as I have been. I wear them basically 23 hours a day and he wants me to halve that, if not more (he asked me to do this last time, but I didn't listen...but since he asked AGAIN, I guess I should pay attention). I have been tape-less since about 6pm yesterday, and it feels odd. Almost as if the incisions are getting sore again? Only on my arms though...my boobs and tum feel the same. *shrugs* I do notice this morning that a lot of dried skin was flaking off the (healed) incision lines...not sure what the impact of this is *shrugs again*. I slathered some bio oil on them (he did tell me to moisturize). Wound update: I was down to 3 open wounds yesterday! BUT...this morning a new one opened on my left underboob due to another suture expelling, so my number stays at 4. Le sigh. Btw, Doc says that part of the reason why I'm expelling so many sutures is because I am "so skinny". Something about no where for the sutures to be absorbed into. On another note: Speaking of being "so skinny", when I asked Doc about what we can do about my saggy butt, he said that I am not a good candidate for a BBL in my current state, unless I want to gain at least 10 lbs OF FAT. Um, no thanks. He also does not support nor perform implants, which left his option recommendations to: Traditional butt lift Some machine treatment (I forget the name), which is basically a device that simulates 100's of mini squats per session (think Dr. Ho's) Actual Squats I'm gonna go with the Actual Squats 

Soooo....went to my 2 month follow up yesterday and Doc scheduled me for some steroid shots next month...I guess he is not happy with my my scar healing (I was fine with it, but I guess he knows better ) He also asked me again to not wear my tape as much as I have been. I wear them basically 23 hours a day and he wants me to halve that, if not more (he asked me to do this last time, but I didn't listen...but since he asked AGAIN, I guess I should pay attention). I have been tape-less since about 6pm yesterday, and it feels odd. Almost as if the incisions are getting sore again? Only on my arms though...my boobs and tum feel the same. *shrugs* I do notice this morning that a lot of dried skin was flaking off the (healed) incision lines...not sure what the impact of this is *shrugs again*. I slathered some bio oil on them (he did tell me to moisturize). Wound update: I was down to 3 open wounds yesterday! BUT...this morning a new one opened on my left underboob due to another suture expelling, so my number stays at 4. Le sigh. Btw, Doc says that part of the reason why I'm expelling so many sutures is because I am "so skinny". Something about no where for the sutures to be absorbed into. On another note: Speaking of being "so skinny", when I asked Doc about what we can do about my saggy butt, he said that I am not a good candidate for a BBL in my current state, unless I want to gain at least 10 lbs OF FAT. Um, no thanks. He also does not support nor perform implants, which left his option recommendations to: Traditional Butt Lift Some machine treatment (I forget the name), which is basically a device that simulates 100's of mini squats per session (think Dr. Ho's) Actual Squats I'm gonna go with the Actual Squats

Yeah! I wanna see! I wanna see! LOL.

@Darktowerdream : I have read many of your posts on this forum, and I feel for you. I'm sorry you have to deal with all this crap. You do read like you have calm (if not totally happy) demeanor about your predicaments, and this is a good thing. Going through dark days/months/years is tough, and going through it with a level attitude makes it at least a little better *hugs* I cannot comment much on the medical diagnosis side of things, but I do hope you get some answers with your upcoming appts when they get scheduled. As for the plastics though, even if the Cleveland Clinic doesn't take your insurance, are you able to find another facility that will? Your skin symptoms sound like the exact type of thing that would qualify you for insurance. Can you call your insurance company and get some guidance on this matter?

Unless your starting weight was on the low side, your loss rate sounds pretty normal to me. The expectation to lose massive amounts in a short time causes unnecessary anxiety among many. I personally consider myself to have done pretty well, and I lost 12 lbs the first two weeks. Went on to lose 110 lbs and reach goal in 7 months. If you can, try not to stress out (I know, its hard). Try to focus your energies on something less anxiety producing: exercise, hanging with friends, shopping! lol. Managing your expectations will do wonders for your sanity and make this process much more enjoyable. Good Luck!

Not sure if many had same experience as me, but slept on my back (-ish), propped on like 4-5 pillows for a while. I think maybe almost 2 months. I got so used to it that more often than not, I'm on my back even now, (without all the pillows) at 1+ year post op. I very rarely sleep on my stomach anymore.

Well, just because you CAN take in larger amounts of food, doesn't mean you HAVE TO ❤️ Maybe just portion out your food to the required volume and just eat that? There is no real need to see/test how much you can get in....especially if you aren't hungry. BTW, congrats on the 20lb loss so far!

Absolutely nothing wrong with the top, looks great on you and The Waist ❤️

Wow, 2 years already! 129.4 is a new low, yes?

Yesterday Wednesday, Feb 19 Maintenance : 5'2" / 1.33 yrs PO Sleeve / 115.1 lbs ---------------------------------------- Didn't get a chance to go grocery shopping yesterday... You know how we say sugar begets sugar, and when you eat more, it becomes easier to eat more? It works the other way too. When I eat less, it becomes easier to continue to eat less. Its been like a day and my late night sugar cravings were nowhere to be found last night. However. Sub-1000 cals is NOT a level I want to be at for long, so I reeeeeeally need to go grocery shopping today. ---------------------------------------- 9:00am - black coffee w/ stevia 2:00pm - skinny tea latte 4:30pm - Soup (1 cup dashi broth, carrots, 1/3 cup Chinese broccoli, 1/2 package shiratake noodles, 3 shrimp balls + 2 oz boiled shrimp) 8:30pm - Soup (1 cup dashi broth, carrots, 1/2 cup Chinese broccoli, 1/4 package shiratake noodles, 4 shrimp balls) + 4 oz roast chicken + 2 tbsp tzatziki 10:00pm - 1/2 cup cottage cheese + 1 scoop Isopure Protein powder + 1 tbsp almond butter + 1 fl oz pumpkin seeds + 1 oz blueberries --------------------------------------- Totals: 875 cals - 98g Protein 23g NET carbs - 32g fat

Did you get your gallbladder removed before or after wls?

Well you are short like me so it shouldn't be too bad, LOL. One of the (very) few benefits of being short, I guess. That and the extra leg room we get on airplanes. Do you have access to the personal messenger on here? I sent you a message...prolly better to chat there than create pages and pages on this thread, lol.

Did they check you in (like are you in a bed) or are you in the waiting room? Waiting sucks. But waiting in a waiting room is like the 7th circle of hell.

I can hang with you for a bit and we can chat! I am having an insomniac moment anyways...