YeahOkay31

I feel like I only come here to complain.  And so for my first status update, I will try to remain consistent and...complain! I almost busted out in tears this morning as I caught my reflection in a window walking to work.  I hate my body.  It is horrible.  I don't know how to reconcile the new me, I knew that there would be loose skin, I knew seeing myself lighter after two kids was going to yield a different shape, but I guess you really don't know until you see it.  I hate always complaining and not reveling in the good, but I feel so defeated.  I am so sick of looking gross and unwomanly.  Add to this that I am still on BP medication, and the Gerd is awful, this all feels like a big freaking mistake.  

Staying in the hospital stinks. Was there for some unidentified intestinal issue. I was miserable.  Couldn't eat or drinks.  Was on fluids and 2 broad spectrum antibiotics. Had to speak with the infectious disease doctor twice while I was there. When I was released from the hospital we still had no answers and I was up 7 lbs due to all the fluids. Within a couple of days I was back to my starting weight. Whew! I took the whole week off of work. I was wiped out. Still feel that way today but can't afford any more time off right now. I missed the forums, but everything was an effort so I didn't open my laptop once last week! I see my doctors on Thursday so we shall see when I can work out again. I want to tell everyone how fast you can become dehydrated post-surgery. Drink, drink, drink!