Frustr8

And if you think about it, the sleever does have a long staple line that could pop open. Better,safe than to,just,trust in YOUR luck🍀

This is frightening, I am hearing this often now.

3 Weeks, that seems reasonable,to give yourself time to heal, it is like a Brand new BABY,but it is internal.,You have just gone through,so much physically, think how your body,must feel, it was hard on it also.

Yipes I already,have,problems that way, DO you mean my,urethral opening is going to get floppy. This is something to think about#

This is something I want to follow, having had pancreatitis in May,2015m Now,i wonder if that,will,predispose me to such a thing also?

Guess what, they sell Cherry Nasty,at Wal-Mart, and I have a Bottle Myself. Your co--'flincher Frustr8

I lost 15 pounds on my liver-shrinking diet August 1st until,my surgery September 5th. if that doesn't seem like much, I have at,72 the,natural BMR, of a. sick🐌 on Anti deppresants, I normally lose weight painfully slow. So if I could do it at my age, I reckon most everybody can. If you only lose 12, don't get discouraged, if you lose 25 Good For You. We all are our own journey person, but guess what? The victories are,all yours too. My unexpected one, I no,longer get stuck in my PCP office chairs. it is embarrassing when someone has to help you up or pop you free. And you learn to celebrate those little things until they mount up into a BIG one.

No Tears , entertain no Fears , you are embarking,on A Great Life Journey. And all,those things you are worried about are small potatoes in the grand scheme of things. I thought I couldn't live without coffee, now when I am released to go,back,to,it, I'm not sure I will. When my body changed my mind did too. I didn't think I would ever,be saying this , but I am going to take care of my new stomach, I am not feeding it that crap I once did. I am going to treat Precious Pouch like the beyond all,worth 🎁gift,she is.All I ask is a. life chance to do so!

Well good for you, no turning back , it is SO WORTH IT, be proud to save you the,seat next to me on the VICTORY BENCH!💪Stay Strong!

Congratulations and Best Wishes , you will be a Beautiful Bride, and let me be the first to suggest it but WE WANT PUCTURES!

My favorite thing so far and I am,on pureed meats. and the rest,of stage 3. Musselmans unsweetened applesauce, far superior to Motts, which has a bitter aftertaste. I would not,have,thought, but 3 saltines, each,with a teaspoon of p-butter counts as a meal. Who,would have thunk?

most of the stuff I learned hereworked for,my benefit. My A#1 the 10foot charging cord I bought at Staples, kept my phones, and yes I took more than 1 the second was marshmallow, the third Nought both with better camera resolution. But my Verizon has unlimited minutes.😛

OMG MATT Z- I have,heard of DUNLAP DISEASE, where your gut done laps over your waistline or junk, I do have an diagnosis for your current problem. 🎤Drum Roll Please. DEW DROP IN- first admitted case. but I'm sure we haven't heard of them ALL.

Muffet not Murder, that,would be,a whole different Nursery Book.

Hi @MMME your surgery day will be my 3 week post, it has been bumpy at times but I would never go back. Sitting and eating my baby bowl of cottage cheese, when I was a baby Frust8 I wondered what those curds and whey Little Miss Murder,was eating was? Ta Da, cottage cheese, so I am channeling my,inner NurseryBook Character today. Ah but it is protein and I have grown fond,of it. Never full strength, 1% does me just fine. But welcome and sunny days from ME in Central Ohio. Any worries, any fears , any sorrows, share them with US we,like to help,if we,may. 😛

Hey I meant @ Mitzimom, this phone is giving me fits, Dont,think we have anyone named Motion on here. Sorry.👈🌝👉

@ motion,how did things go? Trust things are starting to smooth out for you, hadn't seen anything from,you post surgery And an update from Precious Pouch vs Frustr8, we have had a few minor skirmishes. Like "The King and I" Getting to know you! Getting to know all about you! Precious was very peeved when upon the order of Joann my Aftercare Nurse/ Coordinator at OsU, I Had to take a Dose of MOM. You see i,had not had a BM since September 3rd and it was September12. I had to speak firmly with her. First i,called her a female dog, unkind but how I felt. Then I reminded her, as a pouch, I owned her, she merely,only THOUGHT she owned me. Now WE are going to,keep THAT lovely Cherry MOM down in Frustr8 where,it is going to do,good . And she was muttering " I want to,make you hurt, I want you to barf,this up" But the Day before Dr Needleman and Rachel, the dietician both assured me Precious Pouch could even handle Stage 3 diet. So quit,your Bellyaching! You see,i was faithfully,taking a Dose or Miralax every day and the fecal total was Sluggish Sleeping Colon 11 days- Frustr8 0, I hadn't worried, no distress, I was on Protein shake, protein water, calorie free flavored liquids, my multi-vitamins, I figured the urge would return when it was ready. And I was shooting in my Lovenox, not offending my pouch greatly, getting her to accept 1/4 c,of of things gingerly, teensy-spoon-tips at a time. Wednesday I was about ready to mix up a bowl of mashed potatoes and feel sorry for myself. I'm confessing, these things it because they are prideful things, as I look back that wasn't me thinking as well as reacting See I had a quiet,painfree, start to this post- surgery career. Wasn't really taking my Tylenol, why,should,I,? I wasn't hurting thought,i was on top of things . Then Sunday I had when,i call,the"Purple Rain" incident. I was,lying down watching,baseball,and my belly. Silly-sounding,nut my beli,glikes fresh air. Noticed a purple mottling in my left subcostal area, not near any incisions. If we are counting,I,HAVE 6. Okay,everybody might have bruising, swelling,,even a little redness, these are surgical,wounds after all. This seemed different, and I watched it March across. my Tummy in close formation, rather like Napoleon and his troops. Weirdly,around each incision was a circle of white. What do I do? Call Dr Needleman ? Would he want his Sunday afternoon disturbed by a dingy broad with a Technicolor belly? Sound I drag myself out to the local BandAid Station, my community hospital , staffed by the Keystone Kops, sometimes I think they diagnose by Dartboard. Besides if I had much trust in them I wouldn't have gone 48 miles to Columbus for my RnY. So I took inventory Swelling Yes slight but not much Pain Negligible Appearance Now that ones weird, but it stopped about 7/8 of the way across. Wasn't going any farther. If it were really serious, like something twisted, I would be in violent pain, puking without ceasing like i did with panceatitis, a condition I would only wish on my worst enemy. I gently prodded my side, didn't feel any more than usual distenion. Figured Tomkitten could call the local Emergency Squad if I passed out. So I spent an okay night and into Monday,looking like I had been impregnated by an alien and was Now carrying his child. When Joann my Aftercare Nurse Coordinator for OSU called on Monday I brought up the "Purple Veil", she admitted this was a new one to her, told me she would talk this over with the resident on duty and get back with me on Tuesday morning. 15 minutes later she called back and said Dr Needleman would like to see me at 1 PM Tuesday, could imake it to Columbus then? Might be difficult, but one does not ignore a summons from the Great Oz. When I saw him that day he agreed , said is was indeed odd, but he had a theory. With all the magic maneuvering of bariatric surgery a little skin blood vessel,go traumatized, it was just lying there until I got a sufficent level of Lovenox in my body and it either popped open or the microbial started oozing, the blood had no where,it to go except between my fat layer and skin. Okay I guess that makes some sense after all. Just watch for new waves across the belly otherwise I will be okay. He is gratified how well I am healing and proceeds to start yanking off steri-strips with great fervor. What do you know? He didn't just trace a design on my skin with his scalpel, after all. At the base of each,is 1 or 2. little black sutures. And as he pulled off each the air hit them they started throbbing, yes the pain I should have had from the beginning, I laid still but the groin-attacking knee started twitching. If he had put in 12 stitches, he might gave regained the upper vocal range he lost at puberty. And it really is a hard thing to control. it is not a superficial pain for,me, and the worst is Big Red, an incision with a mind of his own. I guess on Bypassers the right side big incision,is the one where. the big important business goes. Certainly seems to be wider and deeper. I know for sleevers it's the left,one where they pull your stomach remnant out. And I have not been totally,painfree since, had to resort to Norco a couple times, me, who hadn't needed,any pain relief prior. To paraphrase Ricky Ricardo of I LOVE LUCY, Bradley, you got some 'splaing to do! Oh he also upgraded me to Stage 3 diet, that I am grateful for, much more dietary variety, but the incision pain? I wish Calvin come take it away! So Wednesday things were hurting, I was hurting, crying in the,midst,of fresh new threatening bills I can't pay, pie in the sky assurances that my insurance case was settled in my favor and we are waiting on the pay-off, a payoff the opposing party, as a self- insured enity feels no real urge to complete, the Demand for Settlement was activated late Spring, we have gone through summer, are going into Autumn, and still they sit on their coperate treasure chests and snicker. I have bills I can only pay minimum if at all, a landlord who either thinks Social Security pays phenomenally well( it doesnt) or I have my settlement and just want to share, utilities threatening shut-off, insurances threatening termination, if my life insurance does, I can't ever afford any more, my son will have nothing to bury me with. So I have shut-off, termination, eviction, I feel bayseous, in pain, too dizzy to walk it off, no wonder I was having a PLOM moment, thank you @ MrsGamgee for the term. Stands for Poor Little Old Me, and I was really feeling it. So Joann talked me off the cliff, Or in my case, away,from the bowl of warm soothing slider carbs. We chatted and finally decided a portion of,my sorrow was being full of something that already,should have left. So today,when she calls I can report results, not relief because I was not feeling colonic distress. First BM was weird, not black, thought,it,might be, after all a little gastric bleeding? Nope kudos to Bradley J Needleman here, no trauma, merely dark brown and would not flush free. Multiple flushing and Tomkitten had to finally scrub it loose. Since then what Biddy as from New Zealand calls "Fart with follow- thru" not so formed but perhaps passable,in all facets. Am I sorry I had it done? Heck no! Don't appreciate the bumpy ride but would not go back where I was, now down 54 pounds from my highest weight haven't broke the 300 pound barrier, maybe this week, but this will still be the making of a Brand New Frustr8 and I celebrate that highly! And my younger Buds who are whimpering with your hormones zigzagging and undesirable body happenings. Well good ole Frustr8 has one of her own, I have, on top of my grief. and woes, developed the Cold Sore from Hades on my upper Right lip. I look like someone tried to burn me with. a lit cigarette , I almost never get a cold sore!

And similar,but,not exactly and special Surgiversity one. So often people drop off the screen, I would like to reward the ones who stay and become mentors. Sure I can read and study until I am blue in the face, but someone who has done it, lived it, made it to goal now That,is a treasure. I. get excited, I get encouraged when I read Suzie Caluxie who started at the same,weight,as I made her goal. And call me silly, but I like seeing what she looks then! I can tell people i want to weigh175, probably,to,the point every one,says yeah Frustr8,we all know you want to be 175, but,show me a picture of someone 5ft8in and that weight and i,promise I'll stop my,yammering for 15 minutes to an hour. Just give,my something to hang my "Hope Hat" on.

Nope his doctor won't sign off, refuses to refer to neuroscience at Riverside Methodist or Ohio State University where there comprehensive assesment facilities. if they adjudge him no seizure risk and he would pass his Ohio licensing test, which I'm sure he could do , he has driven gators and tractors on private lands . Yippee Skipee says the state of Ohio, we can dump another client off Medicaid, and He becomes responsible,for his medication bills which. total $1525 minimum monthly, that is if he doesn't require antibiotics or anything else . Show me an entry level,position paying around $2000 a month and I might consider coming out of retirement myself! I have 2 artificial knees, getting older than dirt,daily, but I can yodel,and do all kinds of funny things .😛

Chapter 2 continued. At 6 days post I was advanced to Stage 3, thats okay, it gives me much more food options. But still pretty rare to happen so early. Now What I Consider Bad Every since Dr Needleman yanked, jerked, removed, whatever you want to call it, my steri strips , and the air hit I had had pain, the kind I should have had from the beginning, and,it hasn't stopped, Norco does deaden it but at what cost? Dopeiness and constipation risk? My groin attacking knee did twitch a little when he relentlessly was tugging and folding up,tapes. I have a list of foods I can in theory eat, either I do not like them or I don't have the money to afford them Don't tell me to go to good pantries, the ones around here pass out Kraft,or Generic Boxed Mac and cheese not bariatric friendly foods. Meanwhile, Big Red, the largest and I suspect deepest of my right side ones, Bypassers have ours on the right where the Big Guns go,in, sleevers on the left where they pull your stomach remnant out. He and Precious Pouch,are taking turns being crabby. I have not,amused either physically but they are doing the organic equivalent,of muttering. Yesterday I had had it. I was uncomfortable, bills piling up around me, Jerk Mc Gurk somewhere in the wings, I was about ready to,make a bowl of mashed potatoes and start eating,until Precious Pouch either made me barf or she exploded. See,i was not feeling or thinking straight, I just was hurting so bad. Then Joann, the Aftercare Nurse-practioner/ Coordinated called. I had about been ready to call HER, nobody else cared, Tomkitten had closed his ears to me, everyone else who knew would say You asked for this, yeah I asked for my health to be repaired , I asked for a chance to live longer, I asked for something to stop me from drifting toward 400 lb 500 lb and a guest episode on My 600 lb Life and Dr Now, and I don't like him, I like my Dr Needleman! I did not ask for incisions I could hardly stand clothing on! She asked How are your BMs doing ? BM I haven't had one of them since late the 3rd or early the 4th, but I haven't been worried, no actual colon pain and I'm living on Protein Shakes, Protein Waters, no cal waters and my slew of multi vites and minerals. Maybe too soon for solid 💩? No silly you should at,least be having liquid poo if you are taking Miralax each and every day, and I had been. So I am full of something besides sunshine🌝and flowers🌺🍀🌸, 2 Miralax today, a full dose of MoM tonight and I want,notified Thursday if nothing has happened, well I don't want to make a quick trip to Columbus with this condition nor do I want to go to the local BandAid Station staffed by Sargent Peppers Lonely ❤Band. so late last night I took my dose,of Cherry MOM, oh Precious didn't like it at all, I called her a female dog, said I own you, you just think you Own me, you Will keep that down! Finally this AM I had results, not black,merely dark brown ,but water won't flush it down. Just sticks there. Relief , not so I can notice, just feels like the rest is heavy in my colon, but no urge to pass. Now I have to go out and pawn my portable electronics, tablets and DVD to have enough ready cash to pay the almost $50 water bill and buy a few groceries so Tomkitten can eat, I can fall back on 3 or 4 protein shakes daily to get by but he doesn't deserve to be punished. Next week maybe his portable TV so I can at least pay my life insurance, that way SS does not have to pay for a $255 unceremonial cremation. Funny this is not the life I Booked for,! but the sun still shines and thanks to Dr Needleman I'm still alive.😥

And here comes Chapter 2, Oh I had this all written out, ready to,post and the phone dropped this conversation. Well when I had the Alpha Android app for Baiatric Pal if there was danger of dropping it would" save to draft", well a few months ago when I was. having trouble loading and retaining myself on BP, Ken S the Uber E-Guru convinced me to upgrade to the Beta format, his newest E-Baby, well Beta is a 2-edged sword,yes a lot of good benefits but in doing that you lost a lot of nice parts of the original. I can longer spell check and things fall off the cliff into the ether with embarrassing regularity. So what were good and bad points about Tuesday and Wednesday? GOOD saw Dr Needleman a week early because of weird tummy, his probably well-based theory.In all the surgical gyrations a little skin blood vessel got traumatized, either a micro knick or the wall grew weaker, when I started on my 3 week series of Lovenox, he started leaking and there was no where for the blood to go but between my skin and fat layers, NBT , watch for another tide to go across , otherwise everything gonna be okay. Removed all my steri strips, Son of A Gun, he did do more than trace a design on my skin with his scalpel, there is at the base of each and every incision 1 or 2 little black sutures .🌝

And another update was coming and here it is. Yesterday was a bad day, One week past surgery. Not OMG WHAT HAVE I DONE? nope none,of that it was WHY BODY,ARE YOU FAILLING ME AGAIN? I had went unexpectedly for a visit with my Surgeon due to the Strange Purple Rain. Sunday afternoon. I was lying on my bed watching,baseball and my belly. Okay strange but my Tummy likes fresh Air!. I noticed a strange purple mottling on my left subcostal area not THAT close to any incision areas. Hmmn I think, might bear some observing! Before that had startled in my own semi- imaginary guide, okay mostly,my journal of clippings, but I do have a dynamite title "DR,RNY'S GUIDE FOR THE APPREHENSIVE". Okay,i know,a little bruising around the trocar wounds/slashes/incisions is okay but this is like an alien has gotten under my skin and is having a party. And weirdly as it advances across my body I have a white circle around each incision. It feels warm, not hot, but distinctly,warm, it is slightly swollen to my eyes, and every stretch Mark on that side looks glowinly. back-lit.. Now in the once upon a time past I carried 3 different 9 pound babies,each laid in my body at a different angle, individuals even prenatally. At its best my stomach looks like to roadmap to Indianapolis with all the county roads marked. And this is not,one of TumTum's happiest day. Do I call my surgeon, would he want to be disturbed on Sunday for what might be only a visual problem? Do I trot myself,out to our local BandAid Station? The self-same community hospital who offered my cousin with gallbladder colic a Pap Test? I won't tell you her retort today, but if you look you'll probably find it on another thread. Besides if you,trusted them THAT much you would not,gone 48 miles for Bariatric Surgery. No super pain, so play the odds nothing is twisted, besides in 70s the amount of friends still with a license and driving diminishes daily. And meanwhile Evil Landlord Jerk Mc Gurk is sitting in his ivory palace 136 miles from here near the Indiana border, worrying that this widow might have 2 pennies to rub together and hasn't remitted them to him. I have rented from his family in this location for 18 years, 10 and a half from him,personally. Never had a written lease, didn't think I needed one. The Old adage of "If something,aint broke, don't try to fix it" Notified him when my finances took a plunge, ok we will work with it, one,month I was able to secure assistance from a social,service agency help make the balance, told me at that time We will help you once but not again. And I told him that. Next month, he demanded full payment, now if I told you the amount you would say,that's not SO Bad, but it is 46% of my Social Security stipend , if I pay my utilities, my insurances and the water and trash, neither of which,is pays it leaves my son and I $22.75 for food a week plus our transportation around town. Pretty dismal! I do have a Workmans Comp settlement looming in the future, oh I won the case, verified by BWC And the Industrial commision of my state and Demand for Settlement was submitted over 90 days ago. The problem : opposing party is an self-insured entity. They are sitting on their fat treasure chests saying Nah Nah we aren't in the mood to do anything . I was theur,loyal minion for over 11 years, even worked when I should have stayed home sick, in fact when we parted company I had 4 broken ribs and was still trying to work. Their feelings of responsibility towards me Pfft. And I feel certain Jerk Mc Gurk thinks I have my money and just don't want to share. So mean Mona his wife plunked a for Sale sign in my front yard. She has decided she wants to sell whether or not I am here, whether,or not I am recovering from Major Surgery, She Wants 💰 MONEY! Last day of August J.McG calked, said he would forgive me if I would remit him $1900 by cashiers check,yet that day he would condesend to forgive my manifest sins against him and his checkbook. OMG I said, I don't even make that much in Social Security monthly! He,then said maybe as a joke Why don't you just sign it over to ME this month? So the 24th of this month I have to go to my county courthouse for an eviction hearing . Lovely isn't it!

72 RnY surgery 9/05/2018. IT COULD BE DONE- IT WAS DONE- Now a Brighter Future Starts!😛🍀❤😛

Maybe this sounds like pure vainty to guys (and some gals) but I would like a series of glamor shots taken. I have been so disappointed in ME, let others call me names, called myself even worse in the,privacy of homen I would like for One Shining Moment,to have,the Pretty Frustr8, the SweetFrustr8, dare I say it? the,True Hidden Frustr8 thats has been hidden under sorrows and,a thick layer of Fat to glow forward! I don't want my casket view to be the prettiest I have looked in MY ADULT LIFE!

Well,I am a bypass, don't think we gurgle as much, I could be wrong, I am only A week,out and just got,promoted to Stage 3 ( Hurray for Me) . What I got and I think it's equally weird, I was told since I was doing well , I was longer bound to an ounce a time on fluids, first time I tried 2 ounces I got,a swoosh, rather felt like the vacuum sounded when it picked up one of the cats soft play balls. So I guess,my stoma is patent like it should be, but it sure felt FUNNY