Frustr8

So how is this Hydration Challenge doing? November is almost over, how have YOU DONE?

My thought today: Je suis Merite´. It reminds me I do have merit, no matter what others or even the whole 🌏 think. I am a truly wonderful, special important person and I make life beautiful just by being ME!

Have anyone made their own protein shake with skim milk, protein powder and sugar free pudding? Seems that Just Might quiet my cravings for different tastes. Gotten so sick of endless vanilla. And yes Alex B as soon as my bank account restocks, so I can afford shipping costs, I will get more Bariatric Pal shakes, the Orange Creamsicle is so very good, I'm sure there are others equally good, as long as I stay away from the Cheesecake flavor. Just can't stand it,is any way, shape or form. Might as well have,what tastes good being,on prolonged liquids for SO VERY LoNG!

But today and tomorrow are new days and you'll do okay with that and THANKSGIVING 2018 will become a Happy Memory.

And weight in earlier postings. 272 last Monday,BMI just over 40, I think 40.3 or 40,4, if I only felt better I would do a happy dance, but usually too doggone dizzy, blood sugar,i seem to run out of with these low calorie intakes.

And Green Tealael, you asked BMI

Well I guess my relatives, what remains of them, early this decade they were dropping like flies after a RAID spraying, are of 2 opinions. Either I am not losing weight, just a lying rumor that I started to get attention, or I have cancer and won't tell them about it. Well, if I had cancer, which I don't but if I did it would be,my business, not theirs. And I think 64 pounds since Summer is pretty cool. whether You do or Not. And I have a dimple in my left cheek I don't remember back when I was a thinner teenager. And my color is off? Honey we are in Ohio, not much sunlight and cold outside. You maybe were expecting a California or Florida tan?

It is so sad , "Notmyname" an October sleever and i,an early September bypass were trying tilapia the same day. Something seriously flawed here folks. I pray .N.M.N had great success, me I THINK I held it down for some body benefit, but of course last evening I was back upchucking, well it's more like burp, blurpt and urp, more like a cat with a hairball. And last night, Tomkitten is so used to hearing it, he never woke up. Might have been nice to have someone to wipe my sweaty brow, or sympathize a little. Yeah I wanted my surgery, still bottom line don't regret it. But like Judy Benjamin in Pvt Benjamin , this is NOT THE ARMY I joined! I believe I signed up for the rapid weight loss, possibility of dumping with carbs, improve your health, extend your years model, surely,not the model I got this time! I got the Bang, Clang, Thump Thump Puke Puke variety. And I guess there are no returns, I do see Dr Noria, my surgeon's Junior Partner every 2 weeks for an endoscopy, but I haven't set eyes on Dr Needleman since mid September. He could be off on a fishing trip for all I know. Does he know( or care) about my problem?

Thank you, this seems such a long time like this. Once I feared open surgical repair, now I think I would. welcome it! " Doctors , I am broken, PLEASE fix me today!"

Well I was a nicer person today, made and put in a baby ( 1 2/3 pound) meatloaf for Tomkitten . He's holding out hope I will eat one small slice with him. Couldn't find any regular tomato sauce so dumped on tomato low- calorie soup, figured basically close enough. A criss-cross of bacon on top, even if I can't eat any it will make the house smell nice. And if no meat, I can scoop some tomato soup off the sides and feel like I'm still in the loop. Was going to make scalloped potatoes but that was more my thing to eat than his. He would take a baked potato or some mashed . Don't have much desire for white potatoes, maybe sweet potatoes or winter squash? And as long as there is a green salad, there is joy in his ❤.

Get mental picture of. you in wedding dress, hubby behnd a wall, "Oh look folks , there's PammySue and her blocked -head husband."

Oh Goody, I am old but since weight losing it is looking GOOD, IDK why this is, but I shall accept it for all it is worth!

Dayum now I know what animal I am--- a Lady Sloth! Now to lose 1/3rd of my body weight every 💩, at current rates that would be 90 pounds, not too shabby! RIGHT?

Well 207 I can see, 2013,i cannot. But all teasing aside, you are shaping into one righteous handsome dude!

My gastroenterologist wanted to put an Obera balloon in , didn't want the slowed rate of loss, my ortho said no, your joints can't wait, PCP told me I was too close to diabetes (daddy's side) heat disease and kidney disease( mostly mama's) popping out. I believe he called me a "walking time bomb". So since,i,have GERD, a 1st cousin who died of esophageal cancer, no sleeve, an RNY instead. Now I don't disrespect sleeves, some of my,neatest friends on here are sleevers, it just WASN'T going to work for me. But great good wishes for you and hubby both. Someday we will see Before and After pictures, Yes?

Well I wish you weren't in Central Pa and I'm in Central Ohio, your stable would have a house guest. My inner thighs are yearning to sit astride horseflesh. But I will find one closer to me, another goal to acheive!

Will you ever upgrade to the,point you can change and upgradebinfo on a Android or even IOS phone? I am sick of that erroneous date on my profile following me around. First and may we pray, last Bariatric Surgery was September 5 2018 not 2014 or whatever else. In 2014 I was obeses, without hope, sitting in my wide-seated armchair waiting for the Death Angel to come claim me or struggling along at Wally World, trying to convince my supervisors I could work circles around the younger employees. And did they care? Not so you notice!

Happy Pre- Birthday, Happy SURGIBIRTHDAY-to-come, and have a smooth-sailing⛵rest of November. Looking forward to reading the next chapters in the VSG-David Saga, might even make the NY Times Book List!

BAD not the word had.

Good for menopausal symptoms, had if you've had hormone sensitive Breast Cancer.

And I am now down to 272 as of Monday last. Still losing weight like an anorexic sailor, always motion sick! No Stalls Yet!

@ copiers mum listed herself on profile as Columbus. @ crazed Connie who hasn't posted for a while was from Ashtabula, had hers at Cleveland Clinic. Big Viffer lives in DAYTON. so does Lynn, I think it's maybe Lynnv1964, I think she's the one who had an ESG. Haven't heard from @DRoseman in Northwest Ohio for a month of Sundays, her path to surgery was as bumpy as mine. And my Columbus peeps, @Nnoi and @MercMerc, they had their surgeries in July, when I thought mine might be, by now they are probably slendering down and living the GOOD life. Nnoi had hers at Riverside Methodist and MercMerc at Nationwide Children's, quite a backstory there! When you don't hear from people, you got to assume they are okay until You Know Different. Woke up pessimistic, can't afford to go Black Friday shopping, lower tummy pain, took MoM side I wasn't planning to leave the house. Going to start the 2oz of fluid every 15 minutes plan, went to BR this AM, hardly went. They say dehydration does EVIL things to YOU, don't want that! Don't even feel good enough to ride squad out for IV therapy. Its either going to be a PLOM day, short for Poor Little Old Me, or a Hard Candy Christmas. See I do have an insurance settlement coming up, should disperse Christmas or just before, but like the kid who was just told there is no Santa Claus, I have lost my belief system. Tomkitten still believes and trusts my lawyer and his staff, me ---IDK. Well another 2 oz down, threw up again last night before bed, depleted me. Used to bounce up, do my BR duties, start on a protein shake, and things were good. Now everything left is vanilla, most are soy or pea protein, and after 11+ weeks REPULSIVE. And Precious Pouch repeals solids, most purees, there are not a lot of diversity in broths, strained & cream soups. Especially low under 20 calories yet high protein. Dr Noria wanted me to up protein daily to 90 grams, see if that would heal my 5 evil,ulcers. I am Genpro'ing everything I can seduce PP into keeping down. Is it enough? We shall next Wednesday when my 4th Endoscopy , my somewhat beloved EGJ occurs. Time before last ( October 26th) they accidently left me fully conscious, oh my GI track was deadened with the novacaine like gargle but I watched EVERYTHING on the monitor just like Dr Noria did. Last time ( November 9th) I did ask for enough sedation I fell asleep, it had been a bad quick housing move and I needed the zoning out. Only worry-free moments I was assured. But I am safe, warm, not well-fed, but have love of Tomkitten. Maybe I'll make it through until Social Security on December 3rd, wish Late Lamented had left me a pension, but he didn't work that kind of job. Mama didn't raise me to be poor but guess I am. It would just kill her if she weren't already Dead!

So today was Thanksgiving @ bettie.blue, how did things turn out with you?

The couch, I proofread my,postings, then after I start sending this phone changes wordings around. I'd sto0 using it but,its Verizon the only one with many GB. I'd log out and use the computer but I forgot my password to get back in, been so l8ng since I really logged out. Guess in bad mood.

Well Tomkitten fell asleep on 64th couch. I had such plans but I started upchucking somethi,g I could have handled before. This was a prolonged one, I hate the vomiting, really I dom But I also hate the fact that waves of chills come,over me. There I am, all wrapped,up and shaking. Originally I was going to make him a ham loaf,if I still put it in it will take an hour to get,done, a hour of smelling it, now crying because I want some, so very badly. My hungering mind writes checks my,body can't cash. How much longer can I go on like this , upchucking almost every evening? Dr,Noria wants me ingesting 90 grams protein every day. Rough when it doesn't stay down. Am,I vomiting less out than what I took in? Am I somehow still in the positive column? I have been adding protein powder to soups and liquids. Some people fear eating around it; I fear never being able ever eating with it. And this cowgirl is getting the blues. I am souped and brothed out.