Frustr8

Only the bestest and neatest people have December Birthdays and I'm glad to meet another. Mine will be on the 26th, 73 on that day and like Peter Pan , I may never "grow up" ,at least not into sour pickle-hood . Had a lady in my childhood ⛪ church , got up to testimony , said" Oh How I love Jesus" with her face all scrunched up. I used to think "Golly why don't you smile? You aren't a very good and pleasant advertisement for the Christian Life!"

And may everything go well for you, you're starting 2019 with a BIG BANG! Hey keep us updated as your recovery goes on!😝

And best wishes to both of you- both opting for better health and a future better life!

One good thing about those vivid dreams, you save a lot of video rentals when your body and mind process these things " in house"! There I am 😭being chased again!👺😡🍪👹🍰😱

waking is very nice, we,all hope to wake up but I think walking might be the advice you were advocating, yes? Walk, sip 🍶liquids, put on a big 😃 smile, because all the presurgery dreading is over, now is time to learn how your new tool is going to work for YOU! And congratulations on achieving this milestone and may your recovery go smooth. Update us as future days come!

Well only thing I can come up with, sometimes when you wear a girdle or maybe binder, doctors think your muscles grow weak from not being used. One doctor yelled years ago my Mama' s abdominal muscles were soft like lasagna noodles because she wore a girdle frequently and didn't let them get exercised and remain strong. I always thought him a bit of a grouch myself.

Was it similar to the one from Amazon Prime? $16.99 sounded like a reasonable👜 price to me.

Yeah but some look Bad pureed, if you can get past Mildew And Garbage Green appearance they still taste Okay. I like Wal-Mart organic vegetable broth, it stays down when most others don't. Rather a pleasant taste and color, my Nut groaned at it because it wasn't as intense a protein count. But he relented when I reminded him it stays down.

Sideeye thank you for the inspiration, you really do look like a brand new sweet stranger, guess that's why you didn't get recognised. I am still seeking to release my inner Cutie Pie, Red-hot Mama self from the Big Mama shell the outside world seemed to see. See I always knew I was cute, fun to be around, a very sweet kind person, but them, all they ever gave me credit for was a A** wide enough to show drive- in movies on, and I am so much more. Plan on diminishing me to the point no one recognizes ME. And the guys who wouldn't give me the time of day, I yearn for the day they try to hit on me, I plan to say" Why , no Thank You, I believe I can do BETTER than YOU after all!" Years of hurt, behind that feeling, I might be just a modicum revengeful!👊

A thought for all my Bariatric Buddies on a Sunny Sunday We All are no longer Human Beings We are now Human Becomings. And as I watch the mirror, watch my scales, I celebrate ME and the ability to Become All I May Be!

Wow on one side NSV Yippee I got Me one, on the other side, Darn I really liked them 👢 do I use them for storage? In my case I. have a cat with dog-like syndrome, she parks her toys in my shoes to play with later. Taken. to shaking things out before wearing them ! Drat you Squeaky!🐯snicker-snicker-meow!

Sounding well worth it, I surely also need a card because of my PICC line, on TPN for only GOD knows for sure how long! Maybe I'll have more of an idea on the 18th when I see Dr Needleman or on the 28th when I should have my next endoscopy with Dr Noria?

And Alex , the Daily Double answer to" which comes first, increased weight loss or gastic ulcer healing?" the answer is Depends on person, Depends on your perspective, Depends on general bodily conditions. Oh Pfooey, I ain't having Any Fun!

Didn't plan to join the PICC club, thought RnY was exclusive enough. But Man proposes, GOD disposes, and here I am, a new inductee. PICC line placed 11/28/2018. first TPN feeding 11/29/2018. dismissed from OSU afternoon of 12/05/2018. and here I be sitting waiting for Saturday's feeding to conclude. My pump runs for 14 hours pertine so since I didn't get it started until 10:30PM it's still feeding me. Why do I have it? Three month veteran of RnY surgery, developed stomal stricture and 5 new evil ulcers, 2 in the pouch, 3 remaining on back wall of jejunem, Had endoscopy October 9th and 26th, November 9th and 28th. Followed stringent rules Dr Noria, my surgeon's partner set down. Remain on Stage2 liquids, frequent hydrations, take all meds including Carafate. I take that 6am,noon,6pm, midnight. Enrich every thing Precious Pouch will accept with protein powders. I need the protein to heal those ulcers. And like Mrs Rumpole on the BBC series" Rumpole of the Bailey" Precio6s Pouch also came with an disclaimer" She who must be obeyed" , a turkey-egg sized ball of flesh RUNS my life! She upchucks on whim, accepts no cereals or puree unless she is in VERY GOOD MOOD. Last endoscopy was not a happy endoscopy, Precious was red, inflamed with unhappiness and discontent, at least 1 Emesis episode daily, and the evil ulcers were starting to March down my bowel. Done the logical interventions Dr N suggested, I don't smoke, neither does Tomkitten, we don't allow it in my home, but we also curtailed being in prescence of smokers, either active or with residue on their clothing. So Admitted to Bari/surgery floor 10th Doan yet that morning, and was a guest for a full week. Diagnosis: insufficent protein ingested to heal those ulcers, so digestion on holiday, TPN until I heal. How Long? Afraid that knowledge has not been imparted to me, praying just until end of the month, that way I start 2019 unencumbered. Been Googling, Wikipeding, most literature quotes other conditions it can be used for, mine- nada-zilch- NOTHING. Thinking of naming it Catherine for catheter, tended to always name my possessions. Besides if I say Catherine is giving me fits, people think I am just having BFF problems. So if anyone has suggestions, wants to stroke my wrinkled brow and say " Poor poor Frustr8" any sympathy always welcome. 😪😥😭😕

Excellent, may get a button or t-shirt that says this. Metabolically Broken- but Healing Now! And just watch my weight keep dropping, and if mine does yours will also. The Surgical Power will lead to Happier Hours!

Well if I CAN DO THIS I should reach my goal at a year instead of 18 months. Oh that would be loverly, as they said in Mary Poppins, A bright ray of sunlight on this Sunday of gloom and Financial Disrepair. This is not a FunTime for me, Tomkitten wants to watch Hoarders, he says I need the intervention, don't know how, ex-landlord kept the Good stuff, threw the rest in a dumpster, wouldn't let me reclaim anything I still wanted, escaped with 1 small u-haul of furniture, changed locks when I went to return for load #2, local police would not intercede, guess I should have called county sheriff, how should I have,known that? Nobody in my whole life treated me so shabbily. When he finally dies I hope his wife buries him in a muscle shirt and cutoff Levis because I AM CERTAIN where he will be spending eternity!

motif not motive, speaking of healing, this phone needs its SpellCorrect deleted, phone thinks it's smarter than ME

Considering one for me, 1 post-rny, some surgeons say yes because we have a non- continous stomach and digestive track, others say 1st responders seldom start stomach/n.g. tubing so really a "moot point"? 2. Should I name my PICC line or are we "dating" for a short short time? They sent me home, did the medical equivalent of gently swating my rump and telling me to " Go and Sin No More", well masked people I hadn't been THAT SINFUL until now! Okay my pouch is Precious Pouch, I'm open. to suggestions for the PICC , leaning toward Catherine for "catheter", I think Orchids and Dragons reminded me Catherine of Siena had a torture wheel motive? I've been speaking to St Luke, the Great Physician , do hope he is not emulating his earthly counterparts, either gone to voice mail or hired a messaging service and I never get "patched through". Don't mean to sound flippant but I'm sitting here in mild misery. Should get dressed , go to my nearby house of worship, hmmm what outfit I can still wear that goes with a black backpack 18-20 inches long,7.5 inches wide and makes gentle whirring sounds along with beeping when it feels threatened. And NoBODY has given me a time. table that we are a couple? End of 2018? January, February? Spring-time 2019? Anyway I think 1st responders might want to about THIS? Spend money on a bracelet and then it's removed? Maybe I'll have Catherine PICC catheter the rest,of my misbegotten life? And I forecast a Hard Candy Christmas, pretty bleak, pretty sad. While I was a guest of OSU's Bari- Surgical floor, also known as Doan 10, Wal-Mart sold out every one of the Christmas trees Tomkitten and I had our eye on, would Wal-Mart.com still have them or are they gone Forever and Forever? Been trying to sell my kerosun Heater, worth $150 new, gently used, this house has more reliable heat, offered $50, no takers, $40 no takers, $ 30 one guy came out, I needed new C batteries for the ignition, but it was nice looking, not dirty although it had been moved to my backyard shed. Brought into my kitchen. so he could see it. He's "Thinking" about it, been studying on it close to 2 weeks, maybe he's a Slow Thinker? That $30 might have bought Tomkitten and I each a FurTrimming for Christmas, now we go around semi-shaggy, his hair curls at the nape of his neck, I threaten to kiss them like I used to when he was a baby Tomkitten.Ooh he doesn't care much for the prospect. And the people of my community are Cheap, Cheap Cheap, sure I could set it out by the curb, it would disappear but give me money? Can't be bothered!

Well I have also on my side the fact that people in my age group, okay Johnnie Cochran invoked the Race card, I'll invoke the Age card, but this true- we cat nap instead of solid wads of sleep at a time. Best I can do, 3-4 hour increments, oh I USALLY drop back off, if not there I am! and it's NO BIG Thing if I don't. I am rather entertained by watching the green light blink on my TPN pump machine, yeah maybe come Spring I 'll buy me a LIFE! One lead pipe cinch, the Rites of Spring will not include junky skunky. Fast Food , that button thankfully is no longer able to be pushed! And for me that's a Dream Fulfilled!👼🙏😇

I think I meant HUNS although I guess there are some Hubswho break more than they repair. I had one of those, great at starting projects, abysmal about completion. A wonder of the Western World we still,managed to produced 3 new individuals. Oh. I just figured how that could work, it's because I helped too!

And a Big Amen from Me, I would love some pictures of me showing. a beautiful new covering where my old cracked turtleshell once was, faint- shades instead of vibrant and shining. I always suspected I would be pretty, charming and could rock the "senior set" on their heels. Cutie Pie is emerging out of a vanilla Big Mama. Is it too much to ask that I no longer look like someone's dowdy old Granny?

And I left at 260 pounds, not feeling like I could fight my way out of a paper bag, but Rome wasn't built in a day, on the other hand , Hubs, Goths , Visagoths and bad neighbors and things were never the same!😡😋😈😯😬😮😑

I would suspect more like frozen yoghurt but haven't tried it myself. I am also a blueberry gal, somebody gave me a 5 pound bag frozen in a big lump, in one corner of my freezer. Thought I might make myself something Bari-friendly for,my upcoming Birthday. Since it is the Day after Christmas I learned young to "make my own kind of music" nobody gives you a party, nobody gives you gifts, and money or gift cards leave me cold= it means I didn't care for you enough to buy you a present, that would mean I actually cared about you, here let me buy you off with money or a card I bought you at a filling station/ cheap garage/ supermarket as an afterthought. One of my Aunt's husband was famous in the family for such tricks, never called him Uncle, that would mean I felt affection for someone who treated my Aunt shabbily every chance he got! Why didn't she divorce him/ kick him to the edge of a busy road? She believed only bad girls. got divorced, a man is the burden you bear to stay married! A MRS is the only degree a girl could aspire to! Oh I am sorry to get on a soapbox, but my aunt had to work 2 years past normal retirement. Among his other marvelous larceny talents, forgery, forged her signature on loan papers , of course kept 5he money sizable for his own self, told the bank he was dropping off the paperwork because she was busy working, she knew nothing about it u,til the bank loan fell due, he had conveniently died of cirrhosis and hepatic cancer, the nasty glob of man-flesh , oh and he was also a pedophile, no girl of 6 was safe from him, somebody older among the females warned you. I thank God, Allah whoever you hold as Supreme being, that the baby girl I was carrying at his demise was safe from him. Tell you what I did to him! I was practicing my piano, yes my parents paid for lessons, did it long enough to participate in recitals. Nasty pervert snuck up behind me abd grope me, Kept playing the melody line with my right hand, picked up a heavy brass bottle-opener with my left and bashed him across his knuckles, broke 3 fingers, told my aunt he fell fishing, he had always ridiculed me for being fat and clumsy, I wasn't clumsy, I was ambidextrous and I was free of unwanted attention at 13 years old. NEVER TRIED anything again!, So did I mourn him? What for? And I grew up in the Era where adults were believed over children, and had I told police or other responsible adults, he would I'm sure killed my pets. So don't tell me of the Good Old Days, things were different then and not ALWAYS GOOD!

Amen Sistah CindiRI , meant of us are or were Big Girls, if the outside 🌏can't accept or praise us for what we have done, then THEY are not people I want or need in my life. Weight Loss doesn't come on a Silver Platter,You WORK and WORK SOME MORE until you achieve your goals and desires. Do I hear Another Amen?👸😝👩👱👨

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