Frustr8

I want,one, it will be a Birthday Gift,to me from someone who's always there, ME!

I never could consider it a "stall" maybe I think in a less complicated manner, maybe a little naive, but I prefer "pause" . Your body is recouping itself before it starts a renewed amount of loss. It is going to come, stop and be proud,of all you have accomplished thus far. Be proud of your body for what it can do, not constantly berate it for its imagined sins. Not only you emotionally,but your body physically just underwent major surgery. Give yourself a hug and be grateful for what has improved for,you.😝🏡🌸🌺☀

Some days when you jump to conclusions you are going to have a fast fall down & hit the ground HARD.

And bad sad news to relate but I am going to warn you. After surgery and you start to lose weight you're going to stay pretty emotional. A nasty fact is a lot of hormones and chemicals are fat- soluable. As your fat melts off ( ketosis is correct term) you will have them releasing in a flood.. Gonna see if I remember what a wise old Bari- friend told me Puberty- but you usually don't get zits Pregnancy- but you don't get a cute baby to cuddle Menopause- but you know THAT eventually ends, this mppft You only wish it was over. Me , 14 weeks post RnY, down over 110 pounds below my highest weight, but 80+ yet to go, less frequent but as another noxious chemical melts free I turn into Stormin' Norma, one good nerve left and fraying fast. Doesn't help that I haven't had as smooth recovery as most of my surgery date mates, they are on normal yet small portions and I am slogging on with ulcers, a stomal stenosis and a liquid diet. And I have a PICC line in my,upper left arm, am fed TPN solution 14 hours a day to up my protein levels so insure ulcer healing. But still endevoring to be Ms Happy Camper in the midst, and some days it's Danged Hard. But I am a stubborn Red-headed broad who won't give up this or any other fight! Maybe I'm a Rocky Balboa Rockette!

And they will ,love, you are too obsessed with each tree, how it is growing, to lean back and notice how lovely the whole Forrest is! Old granny-saying is: A watched pot never boils! I might add --don't sweat the small stuff. I know you have said you honor and respect my courage against all odds. Well I just had to do something I never thought I would have to face. I just got off the phone with Ameican Electric Power, I had to bring up my c-/pap and TPN and its attendant bag refridgeratio needs as a valid basis for a medical extension on my electric bill. Don't really like " putting out everything on Front Street" as Miss Cleo the Psychic said in her TV ads. Sure you and my followers on Bariatric Pal know of my trials, snares and pitfalls, but I hated to do it. I kept telling myself that's for sick people on Life Support, well Duhhh, I guess I am at least on Life Sustainment. But it was pride- swallowing time and truthfully between the moving expenses in November, the Hospitalization in December, I just didn't even have the minimum payment to avoid cut-off. Tomkitten and I were planning a trip this week to our local meat market, could use my Ohio Direction card(plastic type of food stamps) there but it would be $1 round trip transportation. Sad to count pennies like that, but at best a Hard Candy Christmas, like Dolly Parton sang about. Usually I bake a Birthday Cake for Jesus, now that 🎂 is off my diet, maybe make it Chocolate , store it in the Fridge and Tomkitten will get joy of it! If you knew how little cash I have, you'd cry too. Not doing my ulcers any great good worryi,g and stewing, tried selling items on our local radio program called TRADIO, supposed to be buy, sell, barter or give away, this week everyone is interested in the last. I was offering a item with a retail value of $159 for $30 or best offer. Not a call this week, and Tomkitten found me in the kitchen 😢 crying. Only thing close to a gift for him, a 💇 hair cut. Big whooping Deal there! And he's such good guy, I'm so blessed to have him and such an ungrateful way to show him. And as I lose weight I am starting to resemble relatives I never thought I did, right now today I look like Mama's older sister Aunt Grace, don't get me wrong, I did love her lots but she did have a thin face and a long willowy neck. I think mine looks more like an old turtle's emerging from a battered shell. Maybe after my body comes to terms things will look better body-wise. I think sunlight and a light dusting,of freckles would help, but at my age they might merely resemble rust spots! And January 2019 so far looks sunnier☀ Today I don't even care if they d/c my PICC line, I fear it is only a band-aid over my many other problems. Said Frust8 at least you're standing up, breathing and if you put your dentures in you won't frighten to children and horses in the street. You're gonna make it after ALL! Then I ruined everything by sticking my tongue out at my reflection! And mine is not pretty like Gene Simmons👅, got a big scar on it from when was 10 and tried to bite it in half during my grandma's funeral. Story available upon demand.

And you have hit on the" Fly in the ointment "of Buckeye and indeed Midwestern living. Dismal at times skies, cold tempratures that seem forever, treacherous,walking on ice, snow that doesn't stop with Lake Effect ( our friends around Buffalo NY have this in Spades also) but many of us when Spring and Summer. come get temporary amnesia and forgive the weather fairies their manifest sins! And we do have glorious. autumns and so do our cousins in New England. I liked it so much more before a spoil- sport told me those were the leaves dying gasps before they fall to the ground and turn into compost. Always at least one☁on a sunny☀ day!

Starry*Night please be easy on yourself, don't dwell on regrets. You're starting purees, that is SO GOOD, you could be in my moccasins, 19 weeks solid of liquids, few very runny purees, protein shakes. Tuesday I made a mini- branch out to mashed potatoes gravy and 3 well-chewed shreds of Turkey meat. Doesn't sound too thrilling ? Honey it was the first MEAT I was able to keep down since before my RnY September 5th, I literally wanted to cry. You see I have a stomal stricture and jejunem ulcers that aren't healing well, I spent a Week in Ohio State University November28- December 5th, had a PICC line put in November 29th, I am on TPN feedings 14 hours a night, I couldn't get enough protein in orally to help my ulcers heal, this way I do have a fighting chance at healing. Do I regret my surgery? Nope my life was pretty abysmal before it. Obese, in constant arhrotis pain from dragging my heaviness around, my peers dying and I wasn't sure I wouldn't be next! Mad at my facility? Nope they took a chance on me and my surgery, many 72 year old women get turned down, many facilities have a cut-off at 60 or 70. Oh I am more than a little peeved that my body is malfunctioning, not healing as fast as some, the knowledge that I will end up with baggy saggy skin, it was stretched too many years to BOUNCE back. But I am Still alive, kicking a little complaining but I am not as short,of breath as I once was. I came into this world, red-faced,red hair and shaking my fists, probably go out the same way. But nobody better ever consider counting Me Out, I still have a lot to offer this sad old world, maybe I will stick around and straighten things out. Oh this challenge is not easy, and there is discomfort, my PICC LINE feels at times like someone stapled me with an industrial stapeler, but it will be a tool to help me get better, 14 hours wearing a bag of feeding solution , which is 8 pounds of dead weight, that's why it is in a black backpack, oh I do feel wearied but not 😟 worried. And I'm here if you ever want to vent more, and I am here for the long haul because I believe in tomorrows,i believe in the future and I believe in my surgeons, if I am broken now, they have the tools to repair and restore me! And I shall be victorious yet!

And YOU WILL make it because I believe in YOU! Just realized the other day I have lost more than a 100 pounds from my high weight so another 80 pounds or so and I MIGHT make my goal by our SURGIVERSITY next September, I am going to keep on, if it doesn't happen until Spring 2020, I'll still cheer for ME because I KNOW where I came from!😝🌺😝🌸

Wonderful 🐭🐺maybe you will keep on being better, want THAT so much for YOU!😝🙏😝

On the verge of a healthy Irish Setter but trying to,become an American walker instead of settling for "setting" anymore! And I'm gonna Do It!😝❄⛄👣

And NurseNatty had a RnY at the Cleveland Clinic on September 10th, There was Crazee Connie from Ashtabula who had her surgery at Cleveland Clinic. A fair contingent from NW Ohio as well as all of us from Downstate. And miss Moe we all are gonna live you being around!

Hey @ miss Moe here's someone from your neck of the woods also. And rachietach I'm sure is only one of many!

So will we all defrost come Spring or we in Permafrost the rest of our lives? Does your thermostat reset after a year or two?

Did Caresoursce approve and did you finally get your surgery @ Sunshine &Rainbows? I so hate loose endings, want to know how the story ends!

My Advice- set out to do 9, if it is only 6, what a blessing, and I have seen recently many are no longer requiring it at all!

So @ MercMerc have you ever found Mr Right or at,least Mr Answer,to Your🙏Prayer? Update me Please!

And anybody NEW from. my corner of Buckeye-land? Just keep checking for other footsteps!👣

Firehorse🐎, now that I have started on my Weight loss I'm not as big as a House🏡ANYMORE!

Okay, just like an old firehouse who heard the bell and tries to put her own bridle on, here I am. I have had 7 endoscopies in my life , 1 transnasally, the other 6 standard route through the 👄 mouth. I believe that might qualify me as a lay witness if not a near pro. So ask Auntie Frustr8 anything you want! I was asleep for all but one. Even that time it was not one tad scary. Normally they spray the back of your throat with a numbing novacaine type spray. You gargle it for a designated amount of time and then swallow it down. And you feel it numbing as it goes down. I equate it like an icicle going down but not choaky. Okay I am a Buckeye born and bred, a sports geek, an only child so not only was I Mama's little Angel Princess, I was Daddy's Tomboy Fishing and Hunting sidekick. So I mentally hum the first 6-8 bars of Buckeye Battle Cry in my head, that way I'm concentrating. on 🎶 music instead of the taste which isn't world class wonderful. The you lay down on your left side, and they put a mouth gag in, well that is its name but not all that big, the ones I had done at KCH, my local community hospital, were kind of black and big, whereas at OSU they were smaller and clear white, maybe an inch to 1.5 across, basically to just keep you from biting the fiberoptic tube, they give you sedation through the IV and you're smoothly asleep, when you wake back up, it's over, doesn't take very long, if you have someone skillful like my Dr Noria you won't even get a sore throat or anything. Now for the one when I didn't go to sleep. I should state I have red hair, the color is called Strawberry Golden Blonde, on bottles but,mine is natural. Okay redheads need a higher dose than brunettes and the rest of sedation, somebody miscalculated. We went through the usual drill, the steps I cited above, one of the helpers, Anesthesia or a junior surgeon? Anyway after stretching out on my left side, the voice said" You'll be dropping off to sleep but I DIDN'T. Now I could not actually feel the tube go down, wasn't panicked , figured I would doze off any minute so I watched it in the monitor just like Dr Noria did, she was standing in front,of my table about hip height or lower and at a 30% angle to the table. Now I am kind of a medical geek, requested to be awake for my colonoscopy before, so this was like YouTube only better, because it was ME. Now I did feel the tube as she extracted it, rather a swoosh sensation, about like the sensation you would feel at a gentle dentist office visit. She removed my mouth gag and said. "You can wake her up now!" I rolled onto my back and announced " I've been awake the whole time" other doctors looked at me like I dreamed it. Dr Noria looked abashed for a second and then said "I guess I don't have to tell you what I found" Nope I saw the ulcerations also. Not one drop Scary Larry for me, I was honored got to see it all! But I requested the next time I be given enough to doze off, it had been a Bear of a Week, had a traumatic few days of relocating and moving, and I honestly needed the relaxation, I had not been sleeping well, and I didn't even want to irritate my Precious Pouch with even mild acetaminophen. But if you're the 1 in a million occurance I was, it is Not A Bad thing. Sugar free POPSICLES helped me boost up my fluid intakes, use your baby clear medicine cup, use a teaspoon to drip more down. Yes a bag of IV fluid, even 2 if necessary, you feel like you have a new lease on life. Just remember what goes in once you get it in, will need to come out, so stay close to nearby plumbing. And you will be having your upper GI on my birthday and I will want know how things go, I have a repeat one on December 28 myself. Relax kid, you will do fine!

And finally after staying home all day because I didn't want to miss the delivery man , UPS showed up at 6 pm, after I stayed home all day. Today was 10% off for senior citizens at my favorite meat market, now I missed it. Drat them, they only sent a partial shipment, so after I return from blood draw, I'll be waiting again. Be nice if they would show up during daylight hours, my back step doesn't have a light, another thing to mention to my landlord or son, maybe mention it with my. January rent?

Can you imagine breaking wind and having it echo? I have heard it jokingly called the🚽 Porcelain Palace, sounds as though yours could just be THAT!💩🚽

Usually the Campbell soup that causes the Dump deDump-Dump is 🍅 in fact quite notorious. I don't know if someone in the original got the pea-sized brain that tomatoes were bitter and so nasty that you had to add sugar and starch to the formula, nut they did it and some of us end up "reaping the whirlwind". And alas and alack, there we are!💦

So @ Pamdi51, did things finally start going,your way and working well? Is there anymore to the story?

Might check these out myself!

@Aidanog, are you still monitoring? I had an PICC line installed on November 29th 2018. I have had stomal stricture and jejunem ulcers, am now on TRN to see if the increased protein levels will help my body heal them. I have a endoscopy scheduled December 28th, maybe we will get good reports, the endocopies on October 12,26th,November 9th,and 28th were not good, so we shall see. Hey thanks for being a PICC nurse, my team at Ohio State University were wonderful, the installation was very smooth, very painless and my basilic vein seemed to be happy to cooperate.Hey have a Dynomite December and I hope you're still around÷