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Oh I am hanging and hanging. My big worry on this almost dawn Sunday, what to do with my extra tubing when I start marching off to the loo. Finally safety pinned it to my chest and and pulled it up so It hangs there. So Afraid I'll step on it when half-awake, that might be the kind of injury that would kill me. Hey, I have another problem that scares Mr because it could be even more long-term. Can one have a trace of an anorexia bent? I believe if things had gone well, I had been able to progress my diet at a normal rate, things might be fine. I used to love yams, sweet potatoes, things of that I'll. Tried my 3 mini- spoons, thinned , I could not have,been more indifferent. Would like to show my doctors I can ingest, maintain myself orally, it's like food has become a nasty medicine. Still have binge eating listed on my records, not so, I never really was a true binger, that's eating and not stopping, I had many sins but that,isn't it.It can't be appetite cessation because of the TPN, it's more like "appetite indifference" Is this something I need to speak of to a bariatric psych?

yeah it usually is screened for at age 10, at that age Your bones can be splinted, casted and realigned. Yeah I have scoliosis, lordosis and kyphosis, my spine is pretty much a train wreck. Doctor asked me once "arent you in pain?" I never knew there was any way you were not in constant Pain. I try to cook and keep Tomkitten fed but usually I have to sit down before the end. Hoping the weight loss will lessen the torsion, twisting and pain and the hurt may lessen. of course I still believe in the Easter Bunny, Santa Claus and the innate goodness of the human race, 1 out of 3 ain't good!.😝🏡😝

Don't have a bottle handybut just wondering, what is the carb count on regular prune juice? I Always have thought it was pretty sweet tasting!☕

So how are you doing @ Ohio Sparkle? I am a great one for hearing the next chapter of everyone's story.

Isn't it odd the signals our bodies give up when it's enough!

And now it is Mid- December, stiil nauseous at times, PICC line in upper left arm, TPN running, won't be finished until sometime Sunday morning. And isn't life just exceedingly lovely at this time!!! Happy December to Everybody!!👈👼👉

Ah but you are not truly wet, it's just a soft green day. Remember that as you gradually mold and mildew!😝LOL

Life of 🍑 just another TPN wishing you well, we are both going to win this battle. May take a while but I will be here in Ohio USA cheering for you! Please keep me updated, okay?

Oh it will, I am stubborn, I am going to win, just convince my Body of that!

That's because with a stomach the size of a turkey egg, what it doesn't accept you wear. Three months plus and PreciousPouch enforces that rule often!

So glad you had a smart surgeon who knew what was what and operated. Now you'll be moving on to more victories, and i, along with many others will want to hear of them all. Good Future Up Ahead!!!

And an update from me. Went for my endoscopy( lifetime #7) on November 28th, did not have happy news, ulcers had worsened , got sent upstairs to an in-patient bed, and spent a Week as the guest of Ohio State University-Wexner Medical Center, trala tra la! Late Thursday November 29th. at about5:15 pm EST, I became the quasi-proud possessor of a PICC line in my upper left arm, for those so inclined to know, it is in my basilic vein, snakes through even increasing vein diameters into the Superior Vena Cava,, when the catheter end is only skoosh away from my Atrium of my ❤. Yeah rather Scary Larry when you consider it! You see,on my limited liquidy diet, because Precious Pouch accepts none other, and "She must be obeyed", peeved and irritated as she is, my ulcers were refusing to heal. To insure that I would need between 90-120 grams orally, wasn't going to happen so I was being fed by TPN, started out 24 hours,then cycled back until 12 on, 12 off at dismissal December 5th. Now that I am homeand using a battery-pack pump it is 14 on, 10 off. And I gradually am,coming to accept it as a way of life. Oh it can be a nuisance having a tail to constantly consider, you pee a lot because it is a 3 liter bag, sure can't. have uninterrupted slumber unless you enjoy lying in a puddle. Most of the time I wear it in a black backpack, take it off And lay it on bedside table while I TRY to sleep. Weighs between 8-10 pounds, try to not lose your balance swinging it back on,lostmine and ended up sitting,on the cold tiled bathroom floor. That took some fancy maneuvering to keep from using my left arm to get up. Tomkitten says if he had only recorded it on his cell phone, YouTube would have put it on! Might have started a Blog",My Mom, the PICC line and Me". Guess his fame and fortune will be coming later. Soonest it might come out? After Christmas when I have another Endoscopy on December 28. Was hopeful until last night and today when I am having some puking. Gosh I hoped THAT was over! But I'll keep keeping on and we shall see!

At the very least You will get dehydrated, a definate ER type emergency , visit your nearest one tout suite, present yourself, let THEM straighten the rest out. When I have got down , it takes 1and maybe 2 before I am better.

Glad 🐭🐺you reminded me, I might have gone marching to the pharmacy and what BAD RESULTS. I might have had! TY my friend.

No but I want to wish you the Best of Luck on your Holiday happiness, may it bring you only Great Results. I am very excited for you, this is a Beautiful time to be having this surgery , in future years you remember that Christmas 2018 --your Own Santa Claus wore a 😷Mask. Update us please when you are finished and back home safely!😝👍😝

Yep scopalamine is notorious for just that When it's time to take it off post-surgery, wear Gloves!

Boy I wish my late Hubby had cared about my feelings that much, he didn't. And please don't think me terrible but I so wish he had sought WLS. He was phyisically bigger than me, and I was not a tiny little speculum myself. He constantly pointed out how ugly, unappealing I was, but I now think innately he repulsed himself, so he took out the loathing on me. I am glad I now had mine, even if it had been almost too late in my life for it. I have to believe the young man I married in 1967, would have been secretly proud, where the man he was emotionally prior to his death would not. People ask if I miss him, I do but not as he was at the end. He was a nasty shrewish individual who accused me of attempting to poison him, found in his papers post-death he had been in the process of dying from hereditary kidney disease for several years, knew it but never told me. Curse you Hipaa, I wish his Doctor had brought me" into the loop", would my love have saved him? Perhaps not, but I could have fed him a diet more kidney friendly, made sure he made nephrology/urology appointments, and I even had a "friend? "tell me If you'd been a better wife he would have told you, it was the only way he found to get away from YOU! Obviously not MY FRIEND, cut him out of my life,but his words were like Acid in My Soul. Please do give her those herbs, it's a beautiful gesture, they will last longer than cut flowers, and give her the kisses I didn't get and miss now

Ladylike, beautiful but still carries the message. Pricey but I do LIKE IT. Going to talk to Dr Needleman Tuesday about expected duration of PICC in my arm, if it is longer than years end, I'm ordering that on there also. See it might be interesting that they can use the 2nd lumen for IVs, no more having to look for an accessible vein to start in.. But at very least,i should qualify on basis of RnY by itself, yeah?

OMG your before picture Looks like me at my fat( and I thought happiest) you are giving me some renewed hope, I could look like an Older Aunt version of you by my Surgianniversary date of next September 5th? Brace yourself 🌏Frustra8's gonna reduce herself to glory, 110 pounds down from High Weight,maybe 80-85 to go, Carlab did it, don't say i can't, I'm red-headed too, never did gray, if I don't go bald first I can be marching and kicking with the best of them. Carlab, Auntie Frustr8 is coming down the road!🎰🚘

crying tears we all will be living more years. Some days I wish I was using a nice laptop instead this rotten misspelling Smartphone!

Oh Kids you are all going to do so good, I feel it in my bones. And my bones do feel a lot, been diagnosed arthritic since 25. Sorry I was such a Gloomy Gussie, guess I wanted to tell you the worst, that way when it turns out better you can say "Oh that old Frustr8, she was just blowing smoke! " because chances are, even though everyone's trip differs the vast majority get through with victories and few years. Am I dream of making the gains KimTriesRNY has made, struggling to emulate at least parts of it. And since I live in this body, I don't always see the losses others can. Maybe I take myself for granted or I think I'm just dreaming the reductions, like I don't deserve this much joy. But I too will have my final victories, so I will stay the course no matter what! And if I can inspire while I perspire, Goody Bloody for us all!

Beta98, a happy thought/fact for you. For every week you are on liver shrink, your liver diminishes 2.4%, my surgeon said my liver looked smooth and unblemished like a newborn calf, once I came to terms he wasn't selling me for veal, I was pretty danged proud of ME. The less jolting, prying and maneuvering in there, the less post- surgery tummyache. Worth it child, So Worth It!

Shame you can't wear a dress uniform, there is nothing more handsome than a Marine in full dress unless it would be a spotted Calf, believe I would still prefer a Marine, you are housebroken, whereas the Spotted calf- A loud noise at one end, no sense of responsibility at the other! So happy the days are growing shorter toward your Surgical Day of Days. I expect only good results from you and your surgery!

You're just a Snow Belt Snowflake, aren't you? Nothing wrong with that, very pretty area of Ohio. A story for you, found it necessary to consult a Cleveland lawyer, one of those on the 28th floor on Superior. Took my daughter along, an adult although she seldom acts it. Kept looking north behind the receptionists head " Is that Lake Erie? Is that REALLY Lake Erie?" Thought the receptionist was going to fall off her chair laughing, finally turned to my doofus first- born, all I could. say was " Girl we Have Got to get you away from home more often!" She was nearly 40 years old and still embarrasing Me! I'm sure she had been to Cedar Point, didn't She Think there was water in Lake Erie past Sandusky?

You know with all I myself have and are still going through it stands to reason I am going to have a glorious Spring. And the first 🐎 I see when the grass greens up again without a grimace on its face when it sets 👀 eyes on me, I swear, I'm going to climb up and get my picture taken. Oh well, if all else fails, there are Merry Go Rounds, not real horseflesh but better than nothing. And I won't have to look for a retired plowhorse, or a Morgan, is it wrong to dream of a paint or Appaloosa? A bay, a roan? Yeah a roan , that way we would Match! Sorry Mamas And Papas but I'm "Equine Dreaming on such a Winter's Day!"