Frustr8

Even with my ulcerations, stomach pouch cramping, and weight plummeting I am so much better off than I was a year ago. And I still have the hope of being repaired, of ultimately feellng healthy again. in 2016, 2917 I did not. I am enduring this Ohio Midwestern winter but Spring 2019, Summer 2019 and on and on, the new revined, reconditioned, remodeled Frustr8 will break the last of her Fat Shell and even the 🌏 outside will see the True Frustr8 that has been hidden away so very long!

I'm enjoying everyone's friendship and company here, so I took only a small amount of things. I'm sure everything is tasty. Enjoy it for yourself but thank you for your concern.😝🍝

And it merely saddens me, so I usually skip past it, to me it's more "Look What I Got Away with!" than a statement of how well I eat. Ta Ta but YMYC.

And celebrate your birthday with thoughts of the wonderful chances at future birthdays with your surgery. For this gift of renewed life, volunteer for others, a soup kitchen, watch kids for a frazzled mom, read to or visit the elderly. Give someone a blessing in their life and you won't miss cake, ice cream and the other no- good- for- you type presents.

Hope it continues to be minor league, it is NOT happy to be in the Major Ulcer league, yours truly can state that, and THEY do not allow me to ignore THEM!

And my post-OP sorrow came worst when I saw a picture of Bari-pal JakesMom with her surgeon on Surgery Day. You see, I dearly wanted such a picture, asked my son to do them to memorialize everything, I would never ever be that large again. Guess he thought I was delusional, over-sedated, like anyone who is chemically impaired, don't pick a fight, ignore them. But I have none, and I never will. I think I can remember in my mind but no documentation of a wonderful occurance in my life. I finally got a picture of my,Dr Needleman after trying for this many months, he kept resisting , told me he was UGLY , he's not, he was my physical life's rescuer, and I owe him such a debt of gratitude that I can never repay. Now I have a weight loss foundation tool, and I will work with it until and past my goal or until my dying day. If you are still pre-surgery, take down your measurements like James M says, even your ankles and wrists, that way when you lose you'll not miss NSV when they come. When people are kind to you, take their pictures, on your Day of Days take a photo record, my anesthesia doctor was extremely kind, he also left me feeling calm and safe that day, all I know was his name was Dave, he had kind eyes and made me feel special. But no picture of him or the surgical nurses that helped me be ready, and I would have felt so honored to have them, sort. of like a visual aotograph. So I did get a few from my recent unexpected hospitalization, gosh I thought I looked horrid, no wonder I got plunked in a room. But I did get several of Dr NEedleman's staff and a side view of my Big Kahuna in what I call his natural plumage, stopped to see me Still in Scrubs. And I shall treasure it like he was a Rock 🌟 because to me, He Always Will Be. Just got to make sure he's "backed up "somewhere so his image doesn't get erased.

Anybody else remember when you were going steady, you wrapped angora yarn about his class ring so you could wear it? OMG I feel so old remembering that!

Elcee, my phone just must hate your name because it does this so often. I do not share the phone's opinion, I like you very much!

Happy Pre-Birthday @ elder. May your future birthdays be thinner, healthier, and most of all, may they all be Happy!😝☀😝

Oh you've been to my family reunions. There is always one who says " The only exercise YOU NEED to push yourself away from the table!" Gosh if it was that easy there would be stack of tables lying on their sides!

Has anyone tried the Hair-Skin- Nails formula Wal-Mart has in their vitamins and supplement aisle? Thought since I just passed 3 months maybe I'd get a bottle. Are they water- soluable? Will I be P****** my money away?

I'm clear down in Mount Vernon, over a hundred miles SW but I'm sure you'll find takers. My town is 20, 000 but I swear I am the only RnY here. If somebody from Columbus wants to I'll share gas money! Any takers want a Cleveland trip?

They are pretty cheap at Wally World and the Big Box stores too, and you don't have to sit at home waiting for Amazon to fill all your desires.

Don't worry, a lot of people get chilly feet, but very very few cancel. I think I asked on another thread which procedure were you fearful of? I fought long, I fought hard to get my procedure, I never was chilly footed but many are. It is a profoundly life changing situation you are heading towards. But would I return to how I was before my surgery, No No a million and half times No. I was 365 pounds at my highest, had worn out 2 knees, had to have them replaced, I was so sick and tired of being sick and 😫 tired. Every day was a struggle to move, I spent time lying down, because it hurt too much to be up, even sitting. I was ru,bing out of energy, any exertion and I was out of breath, people around me dropping like flies and I wasn't sure I might not be next. Tried every diet known to man, even tried starving myself. My quality of life was abysmal but a spark inside me Dr used not to give up. And I was older than many programs cut-off age, so I had an uphill battle to find one to give me a fighting chance, had to prove my worthiness, but on September 5th 2018 at 7AM , my Wonder Wednesday, my SURGIBIRTHDAY occured. And I have not had the smoothest of healing journeys, indeed I am still healing, but I am also 110 or so pounds below that Horrible for Me High Weight, and each day is a new day , I have a future and I will stick with it until my goal is reached, may be 18 months instead of a year, you do lose at a slower rate, but still you do lose. And the world that once counted me out will realize the folly of such thinking, for Frustr8 has a lot to offer. Want to join me on this trek to health? Always looking for more friends!😝🍀I think I'm pretty lucky to have done what I have.

What procedure are you referring to? I am a 73 (December 26,1945) RuN bypasser, we have many sleevers who are 59-68, I have an ESG friend in Dayton Ohio, I'm sure you can find lapbands who are happy still. Probably Sips , MGB, maybe Obera balloon or 2. Name your procedure you're querying about. And 99% of us would not go back to our old lives!

they are NON Scale Victories,the little things that make your weight loss pathway worthwhile even if you don't see pounds dropping right now!

And you,always will have ME, and I think my recovery is scarcely textbook, so nothing you could vent will shock ME and I still remain a believer! I have had a wonderful weight loss, if notHong else it had done what no fast or diet could and I look forward to finding out who was under the Fat Shell and displaying it for the world🌏to see! Even when I was given credit for scarcely nothing, I KNEW I was GREAT!

And today I am reaping the whirlwind, it's mostly my fault. Tomkitten has a lovely bunch of bananas sitting out in the kitchen, He Came ambling by eating,one, so Dumb Dora wanted some. Asked him to cut me off a small chunk. Why oh why could I not remember I comitted the last time I had any banana even in a shake or smoothie? Guess I thought because it was a while back I had healed? Duhh, now I am puking and # 2 ever time a new retch comes. Luckily I have an Adult,pull-up on. One of my more warped friends gave me a large package as a gag gift when I had my RnY, maybe thought it was the same as hemorrhoid surgery? Well shoe on other foot, or more exactly on my rump. And I have gone down to singleX or XX, the triple XXX dropped off! So note to self- Leave those all verdompt bananas🍌Alone. It just ain't worth it!

And I'm sure if you selected them they are great. Reminds me of an,old commercial " take this item. to your reputable dry- cleaner" now who honestly choses a disreputable one? If you're taking that much care about clothes wouldn't you take even more care with you? I'm hesistant when I see these dudes on YouTube that only do one kind,WARNING ! THIS DOCTOR IS BARELY COMPENTANT ! Run quickly in another direction!

OMG aren't you glad that was a one-time-only experience! And it must have been something to have to do a tutorial for the people who were supposed to be taking care of you!

13 offspring, whew I do salute you! I hope you don't have a ding-A-ling doctor who tells you to exercise more or develop a hobby. Told one of my Aunt's to, she was a farm girl, did the chores when her husband worked his 2nd job, had 5 kids, managed to keep them all dressed at once and not playing in the roadway, and he thought she should divert herself with needlework? Had enough trouble keeping things patched, hems let down and faces washed. Get real, Dr Bozo, Get real!

Oh my @ Miss Poodle, quite a backstory here. You probably saw from the thread I started September 2018 Surgeries and Success my post-RnY- road has been twisted and rocky not the smooth highway I had planned. After I was diagnosed in October with A stomal stricture and multiple ulcerstions. I started complaining less than a fortnight in, but I was just a stupid fat patient, They Knew it ALL and I knew nothing! Maybe I don't have fancy diplomas and degrees, but I have lived in this body Many Many. Years, I can TELL. some things aren't right. And I can into this surgery with a DX of gastritis and one ulcer per my gastroenterologist. In hindsight, an alarm bell🔔should have gone off in someone's head, but NO--- THEIR MAGIC SURGERY WOULD CURE EVERYTHING in my previous life. And a BIG HA HA THERE! Okay they started me on Carafate, to sooth my ulcers into submission. By this time I had 5 evil little critters, 2 in the pouch, 3 on the back wall of the jejunem. And these were the type that could bleed or perforate. I have followed Dr Noria's instuctions, deleated and diminished foods so I was back to a basic bland liquid duet, started taking Carafate, keep on Zofran and all the vitamins and minerals, every 2 weeks or so I am back getting scoped. 12th October, 26th October, 9th November and finally 28th November. Although the way one of the instructions was to not smoke, no problem, never did, neither did my son, we don't even allow it my home as I am also asthmatic. But I am not allowed to be in the presence of an active smoker or someone with the residue on their clothing. So I went in late November, would have been sooner but Dr Noria took herself a Thanksgiving holiday and that delayed things. Well I have had 7 endoscopies lifetime do I could write a textbook on the sequence of things, the Endoscopy staff recognizes and calls me by name, that sort of thing. Dr Noria must have suspected something because this time I was positioned in a different matter. I asked for enough sedation that I would be asleep, they did mess up once and leave me totally awake, see ginger-tops like me require a different level of sedation, but that's not pertinent now. When I woke back up in recovery,usually I am just in a holding area temporarily, something is up. Nurse says " Doctor wants to talk with You" ought oh this MIGHT NOT be good! Dr Noria came in along with Dr Steven Stinson, who I had net in the main office and developed a rapport with, he had not even been there when they did the endoscopy. Either he had been wandering around aimlessly on the surgical floor or she asked him to accompany her. I suspect the latter, I have never seen anyone there who had the luxury of wandering aimlessly. Well not only did Precious Pouch still remain red, angry and swollen but my intestinal well was continuing to ulcerate and it showed signs of continuing to move down toward the third segment. Not good at all! Then I was told I would be admitted. as soon as a room on the 10th floor, the same floor where I recovered from my RnY. The Endoscopy suite was on Floor 2. And I had a beautiful big one, 1006, I think it might once have been a double, at the opposite end was a futon couch and a couple tilt back chairs so my son could stay with me. Still had my IV in, only thing I was taking orally was a part of my meds and a protein enhanced water drink,in peach mango. On Thursday the 29th Dr Noria told me I was unable to take orally enough protein to heal, I would require 90-120 grams daily and on the diet I had it just wasn't going to happen, so that afternoon I would be having a PICC LINE installed late in the afternoon. Scary Larry proposition but I had come too far to quit now. Was scared first I would have a port in my subclavian on my upper chest wall, but no , it is kind of interesting, it was introduced into my left basilic vein, went up into ever increasing sizes of veins until it rests in my superior Vena Cava a scant distance of several cm from my ❤, just above my Atrium. And the Cath is 48 cm,in length. They let the site rest for about 18 hours but then started my TPN feedings on Saturday, at first 24 hours and cycled 12 on, 12 0ff. and when I went home on 5th December, I have a battery powered pump which fits in a medium sized black backpack, fed 14 hours, free of it for only 10 hours usually during the daylight hours. And I am worried I am developing food indifference, anorexia, something in that neighborhood. If I manage to get it down it means no more to me than a 💊, just something to keep me living. Someone told try eating something that appeals , nothing does, and these before and after diets sillykitty, Green Tealael, Fluffy Chix keep posting pictures of, I just scroll by, they disgust me! My son brought me some cereal with milk, 2 spoons and I'm not sure it will stay down. He is trying so hard to please me, I'm ashamed I'm so broken.😪😭💦

And it is Hot Sour soup, never had Spurs present, that would be in a Cowboy Bar!

My favorite Chinese resturant has bench seating and booths, went to sit and slide, and the doggone bench started rocking back and forth. Thought a PA went off, Fat Girl Alert, B-I-G Woman on board. Dreaming of being less obtrusive, just being Less Special when I just came for my HotSpur Soup.

40 calories a serving 🚚 The Dump Truck cometh, and OMG It IS Pulling Into My Personal Driveway!