Frustr8

You know our main problem in life? We are Too Old for SnapChat**** We are Too Young for LifeAlert*** Have a wonderful Sunday and a Glorious 2019 everyone!

And a thought for today: Wrinkles mean you laughed*** Gray hair means you cared*** And scars mean that you have lived. Live these last days of 2018 in joy and happiness And may 2019 bring You your Hearts-Desire!

Umm Yasmin, somebody accussed me of living in Fantasy Land, I was so shocked I nearly fell of my unicorn! They are stomping on my dreams!

Batty, to put things in perspective, people are 90% water, so we all are cucumbers with anxiety. Smile and let's agree not to sweat the small stuff÷

If you truly want to reach your goals, you must reduce the size of your "but"

Christine, I looked up your profile, you were originally were several years ago for a sleeve, did something really bad happen now and are you Okay?

True, true words. I went from food excesses to food repugnance, right now NOTHING sounds good, few things taste good, tried some still-GOOD-for - you foods recently, 2 teaspoons and I pushed it away. Part might be the fact that my TPN does fulfill my caloric needs, but I also promised I would try to eat by mouth once a day, and it is so hard. Maybe some shake, and I am tired so tired of them, maybe a little soup liquid or broth, don't suggest cottage cheese, or similar, anything with texture, up she comes, even if I try pureeing down vegetarian vegetable soup to an absolute liquid, Precious Pouch refuses, and after she is empty I continue dry heaving. Done it so much I have pinpoint hemmorages on my upper chest. You might think them age spots or freckles, nope, petechiae. So Carafate for my ulcers, Zofran for my nausea, miss one dose or don't get it on time, even what water I have recently drank comes back up, but dang it I am going to get better And then I will be amazing too!

I regret the fact I believed I was too old, even for a second. I too am sorry I didn't have this surgery 20 or 30 years ago when I would have healed at a faster rate, I regret listening to others, my late husband was the worst, that I was a useless screw-up that could not do things correctly, that doctors would laugh at me for wanting surgery, that I was useless and hopeless, I regret putting my life by submitting to those lies, I regret not finishing my education, for settling for a MRS instead of the MD I really wanted, I do not regret my children , for they keep me sane in difficult circumstances. And I regret my malfunctioning body, my surgeons were and are wonderful, skillful people, I do regret my surgery for I believe without it I might have soon died, but my plans for a quick uneventful recovery were flawed, and oddly I do not regret my PICC line, I can give up 14 hours of my day to continue to live, even with the encumberance it beats starvation, malnourisment and death all hollow. I regret that all of my September 5th Surgery Twins have done so well, they have dropped off the Bariatric Pal rolls because they have progressed to regular foods, and no longer feel needful. But even if I am one of the few 20+ week full liquid diet people, I find I'm still stubborn enough to get on with healing because I want a goal acheived and a final victory. And most I regret whining about my 2nd chance to be all I can be , because even with flaws, it is a CHANCE!

Go with the 1 oz cups, every 15 minutes, I hate lukewarm plain water, I admit it, but I tell myself" Frustr8 this is for your health, if not for thirst, think of it as medicine" and I do it. After that go to 2oz, even my strictured swollen Precious Pouch will take 2 oz, that's 8 oz an hour, if you are awake 8 hours your 64 oz is in and done. Weak green or decaf tea, Crystal light, mio, was there a flavor,you used to like? I liked orange, I used to like lemonade, so lemon with a drop or 2 of stevia, strawberry-kiwi does it for me. Everybody has a taste they can tolerate. Your hydration is a worthwhile project. Got to keep on keeping on, I should know, I have had thorns along with the roses in my recovery, I have had to revert back to the 2 oz plan, I also have TPN running 14 hours to help with my nutrition and fluids, but I am not giving up and you shouldn't either. Come on, let's do this together, I'm game, are you?

If you were a small child, we could take you on our lap, hug you, pat your back , cry with you but tell you everything will be better. As adults, those options are no longer open. There is nothing wrong with seeking help, we all will need it at sometimes in our life. When we are young we can talk to an older person, if you were my family member, I would advise you to seek out a Bariatric- friendly professional. Shoot, I would accompany you to the first one for moral support. The bulimia worries me, you're punishing yourself and hurting your body in the process, skewing your electrolytes, your body will only stand so much and then bad things are going to multiply. Bulemia can lead to death, and I so don't want you lost to it. I can understand the fear of gaining back but don't sacrifice your life energy to prove your point. You need friends, we can do that but online we cannot cure you. Please. start 2019 getting emotional help, okay?

Remember back when everybody threw rice at weddings, and then we FYI that it was bad for the birdies digestion, maybe crisps are Not,good for birdies and squirrels, that's why you ate them, you were trying to save their little lives. That's you , ummyasmin, the Great Humanitarian! Now do you feel better about YOU?

Look up Dercum's Disease on Wikipedia, symptoms sound familiar.

I use the B12 sublingual from Bariatric Pal , good tasting, reasonable and sold by somewhere they care about us Bariatric people, not just chasing the Almighty Dollar!

But the DS brings about more metabolism/malnourisment issues than the RnY does. One doctor I mentioned it to, no not my Dr Needleman, said unless you can afford over $150 a month in vitamins and minerals to keep yourself alive, forget it! Pretty radical a weight loss surgery, often a last resort and few surgeons choose to do it.

Thanks Wanda, on this day if assessment, where you sit and thi,k " Did I do all I could have done this year? What could I done better?" As a Protestant I have to think about it now, if I were Jewish I would have had Yom Kippur and my Day of Atonement would be over. A positive note was I got my surgery, the RnY I had been seeking since August 2015, and if everything wasn't and isn't perfect, I am still glad I had it. More positives than negative to my journey, and I would never turn back. Henry David Thoreau said "Pursue some path, however narrow and crooked, in which you can walk with love and reverence." And I find myself agreeing with his thought.

Crying 💦for you, praying🙏 for you both and ❤-felt wishes all goes well. Paula, keep us updated on all that transpires!

@ Ed_NW, I don't believe anything "breaks your stride" Congratulations on doing so well with everything! Wish now I was you, but the Universe could only have room for one of you. Well Done.!

At least you all can still eat, I can't and temporarily on TPN. What will the New Years bring? Open surgery, a J-Tube, ulcer resolution, stricture stretching so solids will start to pass through? I'm sure my Bariatric Surgeon and his partner have a plan of Care, perhaps on the 15th they shall share it with me? I have been on a form of this full liquid diet since the 1st of August, a difference was before my RnY I could have a Lean Cuisine for dinner, now not even that so 20- some weeks. It does make one doubt the wisdom of it all. But 60+ pounds down, that I still can celebrate! A problem- I was over 300 pounds at surgery, well high weight was 365. So although I am now mid 200s I'm still a pretty big variety of girl. Ever though I was teetering on malnourishment it was not visible to the outside world. Feeling more like me with the TPN, but I didn't sign an elective surgery consent to live on plumbing the rest of my days. One doctor, not my surgeon, but in my medical stable mentioned a J Tube, not keen on a tube coming out of my abdomen, rather have a PICC with its inherent sepsis risk, but I will do what I must to heal and be strong.

You do bring up a good point to think about, because mine hurt too, especially the one on my left arm. And it doesn't help matters much my PICC line insertion is right above it going into my Basilic vein. And yes I have fibromyalgia also.

Always good to have new friends joining the Bypass Ranks! Welcome!😝

Don't you think it would be better to think " I can do without this item, because I am commited to recovering my health, feeling better and being thinner"?

I just don't know-as precarious as you are I would think twice, three times even four times before anything, but it is tempting Just remember, in life, there is no Free Lunch!

KT the 2 items you were able to take would have made me vomit, I guess we are all engineered different. But that's how it is for ME!

There's room for many a more there, be happy to have YOU!

You pays your money, you takes your choice. Even Pope Francis said once " Who am I to judge?"