Frustr8

How about gum viewers that pop bubbles? That was one of late husband's less endearing traits.

And I have always sweetened things because I felt Life was bitter enough already. I may have to rethink things!

Well say Hi to another, I had my RnY September 5th, 2 weeks in I started saying "Something is Wrong", they discounted me at first, I was impatient, I should know I was still swollen inside, my surgeon had said I could progress to Stage 3 foods, every time I tried. it came right back up, only could handle broths in and other fluids, even choked a few times on applesauce with my meds ground up. Finally, I suspect to shut me up, they scheduled an Endoscopy on October 12th, well Surprise Surprise I had a stoma stricture, that's why nothing was getting through, plus I had multiple ulcerations in my jejunem, and I grabbed a hold of that Tornado's Tail and I'm still riding it. Multiple endoscopies, still strictured, they have tried twice to dialate it but it kept tightening back up, end of November, November 28th in fact, I was not digesting my p.o. protein, malnourished, dehydrated, and my happy hoo-hah and me got to be a return guest of the Bariatric and Gastrointestinal floor 10 Doan for 6 days, fed by IV the whole time, on November 28th a PICC line was installed, TPN was started and I am still on it 2+ months later, 12 hour feedings, 12 hours off every day. I have graduated to 1 token pureed meal a day, odd days a Protein shake, even days homemade pureed soup with extra protein added, this month instead of strainining out veggies I can pureed them into it, but bulk of nutrition is TPN stills Lost 3 pounds mid- December to mid- January, must have been close to a stall because if Doctors scales are correct I dropped 8,3 pounds January 16th to 25th, so although my weight is dropping a lot slower than the beginning, it still decreases, down over a 100 pounds from my life highest weight in October 2017, maybe 50+ s8nce surgery, so that's a lot better than I expected. Starting to resemble 2 of my dead relatives, don't recognize ME anymore but am going to keep hanging around and losing until I find out WHO I AM inside. Might take a year to 18 months to reach my goal, but now I know I will live long enough to do it! March 2020 I am going to be dy-no- mite, just wait and see!👙😛👚👖

You look magical in the Magic Kingdom, congratulations on all your successes.

Nobody knew, but I had visited my lawyer to start proceedings to divorce him, he died on 4th of July, we had agreed to file in a month when I could be on vacation and move away. It was affecting me mentally, my work performance had suffered, close to losing my job, my life had turned to crap, but I was still too proud to tell anyone of it. So I was starting to formulate my escape plans when he up and died. And it has not been easy going from dependency to self- Reliance. Made a few mistakes along the way, but I was stronger every day. So when Valerie asked if I were bi-polar it scared me, what if I was and Nobody had told me? Still going back in my mind about being undeserving, maybe they would reject me! So finally last surgical appointment I happened to see her and asked, she laughed kind of ruefully. and said Its just on my Standard "Does this patient seem committed to Surgery" form. Well it scared me to distraction because I didn't know if I could handle it!

What I'm thinking and almost would want to say? " No it's the one where I get short- tempered and choke people who ask stupid questions!" She must have gone to an on-line school, one of the cheap ones, if she had ever been in a psych classroom, she would have been shouted down by classmates or had the instructor fail her! Holey Moley.Jones, what an idiot you encountered! Tell you something that bothered me. Almost every time I go to my PCP' s office maybe because Medicare demands it or because before my surgery I was an unhappy person, for multi0le reasons, main one I got completely through one Bariatric Program to have a surgeon capriciously deny me Surgery. So each time I have to go through the Depression Checklist, starting to feel it's stupid. " Have you considered suicide? If so, once this week, twice this week , every day?" nope I'm more passive, if I die, I die, but I'm doing nothing to speed it up!" That one I am used to, well when I met one of my surgeons N.P., in fact his senior one Valerie, she asked if I was Bi-polar? I had worried about That since May 2018, was I really? Had my PCP seen something, sent it in my records? Did one of the specialists I had consulted seen something? The staff psychologist Dr Kramer had said nothing, neither had my psychiatrist! I had seen him because the last year before my late husband died he had emotionally turned on me, and I had to go to retain my sanity. I call him the Late Lamented on here, he was no longer the man I married, I thought he had gone into dementia, as I turned out he was dying of hereditary kidney disease, ran strongly in his mother's side of family, his doctor had warned him 18-24 months before something needed done to slow the progress or he needed to go onto a transplant list. Because of Hippaa rules, he was legally restrained from telling me , his wife, because Hubby Dear had requested he never tell me. Well I never knew until going through his paperwork post mortem, that and the fact the ER doctor came out to announce he was dead, screamed at me like a Fishwife, didn't know a male doctor could do that? That he had died of high potassium level because of kidney disease, why hadn't I brought him in for dialysis so that his life was extended long enough to get a kidney transplant! How could I? 1.I knew nothing of this, nobody including L.L. had told me 2. The man was taller and heavier than me, kept me intimidated. I was scared of the man he had become. Started sleeping elsewhere in the house because he treatened several times to choke me in my sleep, said I didn't deserve to live, as fat and ugly I was so 3. the only way I could take him to the hospital, since I was not permitted to drive, car was in his name, would be to have the police handcuff him and transport him, was built like a football pkaye

Wish we had a Target here, bet Wally world wouldn't like it, they been our only source after the downtown department stores closed down, we had a Kresge , Woolworth, a very nice office supply store, Western Auto , gosh I miss them all. Folks one of the bad things about being older, you get nostalgic, One of my Grandgirls asked "Memaw were they really the Good Old Days?" Well they were and they weren't, you kids got immunized , Memaw had a Childhood disease every year of Elementary School, People were basically nicer but kids weren't always believed when we were molested, many of us hid the shame, because we thought it was our fault. So there you are much better off, I only mention it because something one of their friends encountered, Tiffany shared this to the proper people, that man is off the street. Didn't happen in my day, no laws for a minors protection, you didn't say anything , it was a dirty secret you had to submerge. But I'm digressing Folks, sorry about that.

Glad to see you back posting, missed you bunches. please hang around so we can share your NSV joys with you!

I hope you will like us myriam569 and stay around for a long time. I have met some very nice people on here!

Well Zebby I hope everything turns out well on Friday, I had another on January 25, would you believe 5hat was my 9th Lifetime one? The surgical resident who was doing the procedure stated he did dialate me a little more, maybe 2 more and he believes I'll be fully open like I should been all along. Me, I'm not so sure. Dr Noria dialated me in November and it constricted back down. Next time it was like she had done nothing! So the PICC line and I are still an item, 12 hours TPN, and 12 hours daily to lead a less-encumbered l8fe. But I am healthier, still losing weight albeit at a slower rate. 3 pounds between mid December and mid- January, but if the doctors scales are correct over 8 pounds suddenly came off between January 16th and 25th, so I can't predict my tomorrows yet. Just trying to handle the challenge of being atypical in my recovery, keeping peace in my ❤, trying to be patient, and that's hard, I really want my healing to speed up. Noah the senior resident told me he dialated me slightly but failed to state if my ulcerations were healing at all. Gosh I wish I had Dr Noria, because she would tell me without fail. She must have been over-booked and i got Noah , he's an okay guy I guess, I just don't take well to be shunted. off. But I guess it is what it is, or something like that!👈👸👉

Nah I still expect someone to be on February 28th, they just haven't showed up yet. I thought I was the only September 5th when I started the September 2018 Surgeries and Success thread yet 5 or 6 showed up. Don't give up hope, I'm sure there will be a February 27-28,yet , in the meantime you can watch,the earlier people, see if there is anything from their experiences you can use for your Good. You do pick up the tools on here.

seem better. It is a growing and learning experience, you come to terms with what your new tummy can and can't do. It Will Get Better day by day, I promise!

And a better day is coming, I know that sounds trite but it is true, each day a little more falls into place, your swelling internally starts to subside and things st

Brecher, drat spell correct! if it were a person I'd choke the life out of it!

Probably you can divide into three parts 1/3 what their professors taught them, 1/3 what has worked before before in his or her practice, and the last 1/3 how much weight does this person need pared off before I cut slits in their belly? Yeah I'd like to see some survey results, my bari-pal Missouri- Lees Summit is an excellent researcher, either she or Alex Need her will know where to look!

Well insta___adventurer I'm pleased for you, that is a very nice loss since July, looks like you may be in Onederland before long. And when you are please post, I'll be cheering for you! Currently my next baby goal is 250, I'm 260- something, maybe 268, maybe a little less, I lost 8 pounds in one week if the doctors scales are correct, only lost 3 mid December to mid-January, but I'll take it anyway. Kinda sad, before surgery I was heading toward death by obesity, the end of November either I wasn't using the protein I was eating or I malnourished myself, ended up hospitalized for almost 6 days, and gained a PICC line for TPN nourishment through an site in my upper left arm. Dang it, I couldn't even lose weight correctly, guess I could not do THAT right! So now I'm losing slower and healthier, but still on a losing path.12 hours fed through my portable pump, 12 hours to run errands, make a stab at housecleaning, cooking for Tomkitten, microwaving my small p.o. intake, I alternate days, odd days it's a protein shake, even a homemade soup slightly pureed with protein powder. But the majority of my nutrition is TPN to allow my ulcerations in my jejunem and stoma- strictured pouch to heal. Before long I expect they will be weaning me off the supplement and back to varied foods as soon as they say I'm healed, maybe 2 more dilatations? But I am trying to be peaceful, accepting, approaching it in a calm manner, my surgeons have a plan, they know they can handle this challenge, so I know I can too. Finally found another prtein shake I can stand, strawberry Ensure HIGH PROTEIN. Actually tastes pretty close to Strawberry Quik & Little Frustr8 used to 💘 that stuff! One of the few Without that fakey evaporated milk taste I grew to HATE. I used to enjoy Premier Protein until my verdompt Wal-Mart deleted all flavors except vanilla and chocolate. And NEVER buy their house brand Equate, that stuff is nasty and foul-tasting. One of my September friends spilled Equate on her floor, neither the Car or Dog would lap it up, and she told me '"Poochie even eats garbage and he wouldn't touch it "so animals even think it's BAD.

Non Scale Victory, something more than just simple weight loss. Sometimes it's a benefit you didn't envison when you started on this Long Weight Reduc tion trek!

Congratulations on returni,g to your own Little Nest. Now cones the work of Healing, losing weight and reorganizing your life.

Bariatric Pal Jazzy125 says there are vertigo exrrcises on Goggle, maybe you could try those also.

I am sure proud of how she's doing, aren't you? This is one together lady!

mine didn't but I took my stuffed bunny Roux en Y Rabbit so I used her!

And isn't it a small but wonderful thing there! The little victories really pile up, don't they?😛

Me too RoRo Kitty, afraid I'll eventually look l7ke a fat bellied spider, thin legs , thinner arms, and a garbage gut! Do hope I prove me wrong. I would love to do a Plank but with a plate and 12 screws in right upper arm, a PICC line in my upper left arm, I don't see it happening. My beleagured upper limbs just have to be excused from that task. But there are plenty of February options I can participate in and feel proud I met them!

Can't be sure I'm even losing any, I'm a natural strawberry nlonde, red-gold hair, we have the fewest hairs per square inch in the first place. I keep my hair in a pixie- modified shag, I am not a fussy-hair person, rather gently slap on some makeup and face the world bravely. I do want glam shots when I get closer to 200 but that's still over half a hundred away. So I keep on keeping on, trust in God's Love and deal with everything I'm given or granted. I am honest to the best of my abilities, Frustr8 is just what you suspect, a an still obese lady trying her best to lose her fluffy fat and so the inner me can shine out for all. I am your best friend but rile me once too many and I can make a fearsome enemy if necessary. Evil looks and a sharp tongue, I grew and deserve even one of my thin red hairs. So world, better treat me better than you have, I roll over for no one, no time, not anymore! Frustr8 Power forever or until I stop breathing!

Keep the fate, mind your Ps and As between now and the surgery and I predict good results.