Lillyrose130

Yes! I am wondering how could I have done this to myself, but then I remember how being 266 lbs. and only 5'2 had an impact on every single thing I did. Getting into my car comfortably; walking from my car into my job; not being able to even do one set of stairs without gasping for breath and my legs hurting, but being embarrassed to stop; the avoidance of mirrors and my reflection; the dread of having to go anywhere because I had nothing to wear and was too tired.
I had the sleeve on 10/23 and it was the hardest experience of my life. I couldn't sleep in the hospital, the Water tasted horrible and well, it was just a bad experience. I went home the next day and took some Benedryl, with the okay of my doctor's office and that helped me sleep. I was still getting over my cold so had a steamer and couldn't talk very well. The worst was taking my regular meds all crushed with water and they gagged me and then took the pills for nausea. The first few days I had the worst headache of my life, probably due to all the meds I was on. Once I got some Tylenol, I got rid of my headache.
I'm starting my 4th week tomorrow. I got my Vitamins and do not like them. I don't like the berry chewables at all so will have to try something different. The Multivitamin makes me throw up and yesterday, I made a Protein Shake with skim milk and about a half hour, I was having stomach pains and diarrhea so bad that I lost two more pounds. So, maybe I am now sensitive to milk, so will always make my shakes with water.
Now, it's the mental. I want to eat. I'm mad that all I can take is two bites of something or I'll have stomach pains, throw up or have you know what. I have to go back to work day after tomorrow and I've enjoyed being home for three weeks.
My fat brain is mad that I can't eat like I used to anymore. I pray, I will be so happy in another few months, but right now, I'm not This is really, really, hard.

I read somewhere that when you are fighting these cravings, every time you don't give in you strengthen your will, like putting a quarter in a piggy bank. Each time makes you stronger. When you give in, you feel guilt and then usually go really crazy cuz why not at this point? At some point, those cravings will fade because you will be so strong and your memory of them fades.
Remember why we did this. Just because you slipped one day, the sooner you get back to your plan, the easier it is to move on from there and that slip was two days ago and now you are rolling along again. Hope that made sense.

Yes! I am wondering how could I have done this to myself, but then I remember how being 266 lbs. and only 5'2 had an impact on every single thing I did. Getting into my car comfortably; walking from my car into my job; not being able to even do one set of stairs without gasping for breath and my legs hurting, but being embarrassed to stop; the avoidance of mirrors and my reflection; the dread of having to go anywhere because I had nothing to wear and was too tired.
I had the sleeve on 10/23 and it was the hardest experience of my life. I couldn't sleep in the hospital, the Water tasted horrible and well, it was just a bad experience. I went home the next day and took some Benedryl, with the okay of my doctor's office and that helped me sleep. I was still getting over my cold so had a steamer and couldn't talk very well. The worst was taking my regular meds all crushed with water and they gagged me and then took the pills for nausea. The first few days I had the worst headache of my life, probably due to all the meds I was on. Once I got some Tylenol, I got rid of my headache.
I'm starting my 4th week tomorrow. I got my Vitamins and do not like them. I don't like the berry chewables at all so will have to try something different. The Multivitamin makes me throw up and yesterday, I made a Protein Shake with skim milk and about a half hour, I was having stomach pains and diarrhea so bad that I lost two more pounds. So, maybe I am now sensitive to milk, so will always make my shakes with water.
Now, it's the mental. I want to eat. I'm mad that all I can take is two bites of something or I'll have stomach pains, throw up or have you know what. I have to go back to work day after tomorrow and I've enjoyed being home for three weeks.
My fat brain is mad that I can't eat like I used to anymore. I pray, I will be so happy in another few months, but right now, I'm not This is really, really, hard.

I read somewhere that when you are fighting these cravings, every time you don't give in you strengthen your will, like putting a quarter in a piggy bank. Each time makes you stronger. When you give in, you feel guilt and then usually go really crazy cuz why not at this point? At some point, those cravings will fade because you will be so strong and your memory of them fades.
Remember why we did this. Just because you slipped one day, the sooner you get back to your plan, the easier it is to move on from there and that slip was two days ago and now you are rolling along again. Hope that made sense.

I read somewhere that when you are fighting these cravings, every time you don't give in you strengthen your will, like putting a quarter in a piggy bank. Each time makes you stronger. When you give in, you feel guilt and then usually go really crazy cuz why not at this point? At some point, those cravings will fade because you will be so strong and your memory of them fades.
Remember why we did this. Just because you slipped one day, the sooner you get back to your plan, the easier it is to move on from there and that slip was two days ago and now you are rolling along again. Hope that made sense.

I had the gastric sleeve surgery on October 23. Here are some of the things I've been going through. At the end of three weeks post-op, I had severe diarrhea for two days. Imodium stopped that, but it was miserable. I do still get some nausea once in a while. I get full so fast, but I still look at pizza and other problem trigger foods and still want them. I thought that desire was supposed to go away. I do believe I will eat pizza again, however, it will be thin crust with veggies and about 1/2 slice. Soup is still good for me and some whole wheat crackers with some Peanut Butter. I know I'm supposed to eat Protein first, then vegetables, but right now, those things aren't going down real well. Then, this weekend, I couldn't go to the bathroom and had such bad stomach cramps, I was down and out for two days. I took some ex-lax, and finally got some relief this afternoon. Cereal and skim milk went down okay. I just have to find the right combination of foods, but at least I'm not snacking and overeating anymore. One strange thing is I used to never drink plain Water. Always mixed it with Crystal light and now I crave just plain water so am drinking a lot of that. Bought some Gortons grilled fish to eat this week.
I have no problem taking most of my Vitamins but don't like the chewables I got. However, I'll take them and then try something else. Now, the Multivitamin is a different story. First one I tried, I threw up shortly after each time. I bought another one and sometimes it is okay and sometimes I get sick. Will try a patch with the okay of my doctor. I have two more months to go to hit my 3-month mark and have lost 35 pounds. That seems good right? I feel the difference in my clothes, but nothing real noticeable yet.
I just need to get my nutrition set and my multivitamin set and then look forward to starting to work out and keep losing!
Anyone else having any of these issues?

I had the gastric sleeve surgery on October 23. Here are some of the things I've been going through. At the end of three weeks post-op, I had severe diarrhea for two days. Imodium stopped that, but it was miserable. I do still get some nausea once in a while. I get full so fast, but I still look at pizza and other problem trigger foods and still want them. I thought that desire was supposed to go away. I do believe I will eat pizza again, however, it will be thin crust with veggies and about 1/2 slice. Soup is still good for me and some whole wheat crackers with some Peanut Butter. I know I'm supposed to eat Protein first, then vegetables, but right now, those things aren't going down real well. Then, this weekend, I couldn't go to the bathroom and had such bad stomach cramps, I was down and out for two days. I took some ex-lax, and finally got some relief this afternoon. Cereal and skim milk went down okay. I just have to find the right combination of foods, but at least I'm not snacking and overeating anymore. One strange thing is I used to never drink plain Water. Always mixed it with Crystal light and now I crave just plain water so am drinking a lot of that. Bought some Gortons grilled fish to eat this week.
I have no problem taking most of my Vitamins but don't like the chewables I got. However, I'll take them and then try something else. Now, the Multivitamin is a different story. First one I tried, I threw up shortly after each time. I bought another one and sometimes it is okay and sometimes I get sick. Will try a patch with the okay of my doctor. I have two more months to go to hit my 3-month mark and have lost 35 pounds. That seems good right? I feel the difference in my clothes, but nothing real noticeable yet.
I just need to get my nutrition set and my multivitamin set and then look forward to starting to work out and keep losing!
Anyone else having any of these issues?

I know my one year update is a little late, but still wanted to chime in and say how great everyone is doing!
The last few pounds are so hard to lose, I still have 10 lbs to go to meet my goal weight, but I will get there. I really wanted to reach that goal by my wedding date, but I didn’t get there. It’s hard not to get discouraged or become unmotivated, but when I think about where I was a year ago, I’ve come a long way and I have to push through. I know I can do it. Positive mindset is key!
Here are progress pictures. Hopefully soon I can add when I meet my goal weight (fingers crossed)!

I remember being pre-op and my favorite thing to do was look at progress photos and dream
I am 6 months, 10 days post op and I am down 128 pounds total. This isnt a very great pic since I have been sick, but i still took it because anything is better than my before!!

I have a very busy desk job and took 3 weeks off. The extra week for myself as I needed a break from there. My company paid for my first two weeks as they put dollars way for employees that may need personal time or surgery.
However, I feel so weak I need this last week.

Thanks so much to all of you! Sometimes you just have to say it loud as it doesn't seem real to me.
Annaisbananas (love this name :)) we are the same height give or take and I'm currently 260. I live in Tacoma, but Washington is a big state! I so appreciate all of you!

I finally got a surgery date, after extreme stress for the past few years. My mom passed away on Mother's Day and I flew in from out of state just in time to be with her. We had a very rough past few years losing both of my brothers, one to cancer and one quite suddenly. This threw my mom into a deep depression and dementia that got progressively worse. Trying to deal with it from another state was very hard and she didn't want any help. I got through losing my younger brother but my older brother really crushed me. I have no other siblings. Now, my husband has prostate cancer that spread to his pelvic bone. Our lives have changed forever. As long as the meds they put him on work, he can live for another 10 or more years. He has started hormone pills as that is the best treatment to keep the Testosterone down. I pray it works as my entire immediate family is gone and I'm terrified of being alone and living without him. His moods are up and down and everyone tells me I have to be strong for him, but I'm not sure I have much strength left! He wants me to go through with the surgery and of course I am, but I have so many other things on my mind. Sorry for venting so much. I am really lonely and scared, but need to do this for myself. I'm hoping it will turn my life around. My husband is trying to prepare me for a life without him and after 33 years of marriage and working so hard toward our retirement plans, I wonder what our future is.
My pre-op is Oct. 10 and my surgery is Oct. 23rd. We should know by then if the hormone pills are helping. I hope all the stress I'm under doesn't effect my recovery.

While everyone deserves some compassion, a lot of people on this site (and not only on this site) need a stiff dose of reality to save their life. I am so grateful to my parents and my brother for getting all up in my face during Thanksgiving 2015. I weighed 400 pounds and I HAD TO MAKE A CHANGE. And you know what, today I weigh under 200 pounds. My labs are perfect. I am almost at my goal at 8 months out. So, yes, I am a huge advocate of telling it like it is.
To each his or her own...

Why Psychologists Deny Certain People for Weight Loss Surgery and How to Not be One of Them


I have worked as a psychologist, providing psychological evaluations prior to bariatric weight loss surgery for the past eight years. For the most part, people need a power tool to help them lose and keep off the weight they have lost over and over again in their lives. The gastric sleeve, bypass, and now balloon are those tools. However, every once in a while, I will encounter someone who believes these procedures are the magic bullet.
I can pick this up in five seconds when I learn that:
this person has no exercise plan to maintain their weight loss a barrage of excuses as to why they can't exercise anymore zero insight into why they are overweight ("I don't know why I am overweight, I just eat steamed vegetables and grilled chicken mostly.") a lack of motivation or understanding for why they also have to engage in behavioral modification in addition to the surgery "Why would you reveal all of this?" you ask. Aren't I giving away the keys to the kingdom to anyone who reads this and wants to pass a psychological evaluation? Perhaps- but who are you really cheating if you don't go within and face the real demons that got you here in the first place?
When I ask people about their eating styles, I tend to group them into four categories:
1) emotional eater- someone who uses food when they are bored, stressed, tired, lonely, sad, or even happy in addition to eating when they are hungry
2) skip and binger- someone who fails to think about food until it is too late, and when they are ravenous end up going for whatever is available which is usually some type of carb and calorie laden fast food
3) miscellaneous- someone who just recognizes that they eat too large of portion sizes and/or the wrong types of food
4) food addict- usually someone with a history of other addictions, trauma, and a significant amount of weight to lose. They usually have comorbid psychological diagnoses that have been unaddressed or ill-addressed.
Out of the four categories, the 4th is the most troubling for a psychologist. This particular person is most correlated with the patient who fails to address their core issues, eats "around the sleeve," or bypass, experiences dumping syndrome, comes back a year later and asks for the bypass, or a different procedure.
This is the person who, ironically, is usually the most resistant to my recommendation that they seek therapeutic support prior to the surgery. They want it done YESTERDAY. They want it NOW. It is this type of thinking that got them into trouble in the first place. The impulsivity and lack of emotional regulation.
I've witnessed people fail to address their maladaptive eating patterns and never quite get to their goal weight. I had a male that would buy a bag of pepperonis at the grocery store and snack on them all day and couldn't understand why he wasn't losing weight. This daily "snack," which was a mental security blanket, served as a veritable IV drip of fat and calories throughout the day.
I've had a woman who figured out how to ground up her favorite foods into a liquid form because she never quite let go of her attachment to "comfort foods." One of her most notable liquid concoctions consisted of chicken and Cheetos. I'll just leave that for you to chew...er swallow.
They say with drug and alcohol recovery- you "slay the dragon," but with food addiction recovery, you have to take it for a walk three times a day. If you don't fundamentally shift your relationship with this dragon, you're going to get burnt when you are walking it.
My number one tip for transforming your relationship with food is to start looking at eating the same way you do as brushing and flossing: You don't necessarily salivate at the idea of what type of toothpaste you will use, where you will do it, who you will do it with, right? You just do it twice a day because you don't want to lose your teeth and you want to maintain healthy gums.
Food has to be thought of in the same way. You fuel up. You don't use food as a place to define your quality of life. You don't use food to Celebrate. You don't use food to demarcate the end of a long day. You don't use food to help you feel less alone. You figure out healthier coping alternatives to meet these needs.
Loneliness-call a friend for support
Celebrate- get a massage
Demarcate the end of a long day- start a tea ritual and use essential oils
Another reason you must say goodbye to comfort food is that it triggers the pleasure center of the brain, which ignites our dopamine, which perpetuates the addiction. Many people think we are just telling them to get rid of the comfort food because of the carbs or calories, but there are unique and harmful chemical consequences to ingesting these types of food we know are bad for us.
If you are ready to take a modern approach to weight loss and stop dieting for good- check out my wls/vsg psychological support course here for free.
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I'm so excited!!! My surgery is just around the corner. I'm so grateful to God and pray all will go well. Off to bed now.