I never knew what Constipation was until my second bm. I was on the toilet for 40 mins knowing it was gonna be a doozy. And boy was it. I have ptsd just thinking about it
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I wanted to update that I am on day 9 now and I seemed to turn a corner yesterday. I woke up more rested and felt more like myself. I was also able to work from home a bit which helped me get out of myself for a bit. Today I went to Target and got a pedicure. I'm down 15 lbs already and I'm thrilled with that.
I had my pre op consult with my surgeon today and scheduled for 5/23 - the day after my 33rd bday. Happy birthday to me!! I went to seminar on 12/29, started my appointments Jan 6th and was approved by Cigna within 3 days two weeks ago. Easy process! I am 5'4", 255.8 as of this AM. Anyone else on 5/23?
I find this offensive on many levels. Your stereotyping and bias is deeply effecting your opinion here and is coloring everyone with the same brush. Offensive. JUst an FYI, I had a lot of fears and regret the first two months and it wasn't because I was throwing a temper tantrum cause I can't funnel food into my face anymore. But thanks for dismissing people's emotions and feelings and stereotyping everyone.
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To the OP:
The first 2 months were very rough for me. I had been basically dying for the 16 months leading up to my surgery. The doctors didn't know what was wrong and I was in and out of the hospital. When they finally discovered it was my gallbladder that was destroying my pancreas, liver and kidneys they asked if I wanted to have the VGS surgery as well. Saying I was completely covered insurance wise and health wise it's what all of my docs strongly recommended. I have 4 weeks to prep with all my tests and milestones I had to meet for the surgery.
After wards I had a very difficult recovery. And in that time I went through a week straight of full on crying regret. It was all so emotionally overwhelming and I just wanted to be a "normal" person. I wanted a normal life back after so long of being sick and then now recovery. And I had no way to sooth myself either. I was physically in pain, emotionally in pain and there was nothing I could do to make myself feel better. I could barely walk even.
But then Trump was elected and that was it, I hit rock bottom. I was crying, miserable, in pain physically, emotionally and now we have THIS to deal with?? lol! I was just moving on to the full food stage and had been avoiding all carbs (My pancreas was severely damaged and I was producing almost no insulin at that point) but said SCREW IT!! I made myself some delicious mashed potatoes. Those mashed potatoes were like Manna to me, it was like my eyes were opening (and I was getting some real calories) and I realized that my life was still OK, that once I healed I could be "normal" again. I wasn't going to sustain on pureed ham and Protein powders for the rest of my life, that I was going to feel better - and soon. I realized that my fears and pain and regret were a form of grieving, of dealing with such a huge change.
I mean, we are REMOVING OUR STOMACHS essentially. lol! If you don't have a few moments or swaths of time where you regret it or have fears, than I say congratulations and I am so happy for you! But if you DO have some moments like that I think that is ALSO totally healthy and normal. It's OK to be human and have fears and regrets. You just want to make sure that you don't allow yourself to dwell in that space. Try to find the thing that will help change your perspective. I hate even admitting that Trump's election did anything positive for me but it is what it is. lol!
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