Newme17
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I was given Tylenol with codeine. In 1 week I have used about 2 oz. total. I have taken it mostly due to my lower back and left shoulder blade hurting. Also, I started my period 10/8, 2 days post surgery and on my birthday. I hadn't had one since May 2017. Lovely gift for my birthday and at a very rough time.
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It's been a while on a status for me, but I would like to know if anyone has experienced this about 5 months post op sleeve...it started yesterday. I eat a bite of something and instantly I feel it hit my stomach. I've only had a few bites of food today for the sake of my stomach, so I'm very tired (but I've been taking my vitamins) and my motor skills are lacking. I've dropped many things today. I feel like I'll just drop myself as well, but I still managed to clean, do laundry, and wash/clean my car. Usually I'm pretty upbeat and have tons of energy, but this is new. I'm about to go lay down for a nap just to see if I can revive myself somehow.
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So the ex-bf is completely out of the picture. I could not handle the uncertainty of his behaviors. One day he likes the way I dressed, the next day I was begging for attention. Once he started with the insecurities, I had to let it go. Truthfully, it did not hurt me as much as I thought it would. And that is because I had falling in love with someone else.
I fell in love with a woman. She is the most funny, beautiful and caring person I have ever met. She is strong, confident and dorky at the same time. She is everything I ever wanted in a person and she is ME!! I FELL IN LOVE with MYSELF again. I forgot the person I used to be and went searching for her and I found her. I never want to lose her again. If that meant giving up someone else for the sack of myself, then I would do what is necessary to keep me as a I am.
I guess sometimes you have to be selfish. I cannot sacrifice my success to make someone else fell secure in themselves. I cannot sacrifice my peace of mind to give some one a peace of mind. I just could not keep living my life through other peoples wants, hopes and desires. I want to live my life for me. I have wants, hopes and desires and I plan on making them happen.
"Like a Phoenix, out of the Ashes comes NEW LIFE!"
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It's been a while on a status for me, but I would like to know if anyone has experienced this about 5 months post op sleeve...it started yesterday. I eat a bite of something and instantly I feel it hit my stomach. I've only had a few bites of food today for the sake of my stomach, so I'm very tired (but I've been taking my vitamins) and my motor skills are lacking. I've dropped many things today. I feel like I'll just drop myself as well, but I still managed to clean, do laundry, and wash/clean my car. Usually I'm pretty upbeat and have tons of energy, but this is new. I'm about to go lay down for a nap just to see if I can revive myself somehow.
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It's been a while on a status for me, but I would like to know if anyone has experienced this about 5 months post op sleeve...it started yesterday. I eat a bite of something and instantly I feel it hit my stomach. I've only had a few bites of food today for the sake of my stomach, so I'm very tired (but I've been taking my vitamins) and my motor skills are lacking. I've dropped many things today. I feel like I'll just drop myself as well, but I still managed to clean, do laundry, and wash/clean my car. Usually I'm pretty upbeat and have tons of energy, but this is new. I'm about to go lay down for a nap just to see if I can revive myself somehow.
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Today I finally hit 100 pounds lost since my highest weight! I'm pretty stoked, and hoping I can get to goal weight by the time of my one-year surgiversary.
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It's been a while on a status for me, but I would like to know if anyone has experienced this about 5 months post op sleeve...it started yesterday. I eat a bite of something and instantly I feel it hit my stomach. I've only had a few bites of food today for the sake of my stomach, so I'm very tired (but I've been taking my vitamins) and my motor skills are lacking. I've dropped many things today. I feel like I'll just drop myself as well, but I still managed to clean, do laundry, and wash/clean my car. Usually I'm pretty upbeat and have tons of energy, but this is new. I'm about to go lay down for a nap just to see if I can revive myself somehow.
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How do I change my profile to post surgery?
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I was given Tylenol with codeine. In 1 week I have used about 2 oz. total. I have taken it mostly due to my lower back and left shoulder blade hurting. Also, I started my period 10/8, 2 days post surgery and on my birthday. I hadn't had one since May 2017. Lovely gift for my birthday and at a very rough time.
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Surgery date is October 16th. Very nervous and excited all at the same time.
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I fit into a size 12 ya'll. A SIZE 12!!!! OMG!!! Yes. I only lost 2.2 lbs but I dropped 2 dress sizes. I have to get a 14 in pants because my butt is big and the 12 wont go past my booty.
This week is buffalo chicken for lunch and breakfast is turkey bacon and eggs. That is small bag of ranch (1 tbsp).
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I am getting ready to go for a run this morning. It will be my first time at this distance 4.5 mi. My training plan has me gradually increasing my long runs and next Sunday I will be doing 6.0. I know I can do this. I am ready, it is exciting, but if I am honest it is also little intimidating seeing all of these dates on my calendar with 3.0-8.5 mi runs for the next 3 months. Gone are the quick 2 mile runs. I will need to get up a little earlier if I am going to be able to do a 4+ run during the week before work. I am proud of myself
I never dreamed I would be a runner. My dh is joining me now on Sunday runs and it is great that we can do this together.
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Today I have been throwing up all my food. This has been the only day this has happened. It feels like it doesn't go down feels like food gets lodged in my chest. Has anyone experienced this? How worried should I be?
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So I have come to the conclusion that I have a racer back gym shirt problem. I keep buying more shirts and they are soo cute and they make me feel cute. I am still kicking butt on my workouts and I have decided to end Keto for now. I have been stressing a lot about food and unfortunately, I hold on to weight that way. It is time to go back to just being mindful of what I eat and how much.
Although I look great in clothing, I wanted to show what my body looks like outside of it. My stomach is sagging lower than before I lost weight. My arms are sagging and my breast have deflated.
With that being said, I would not go back and change anything. I would not give up being able to jump, bike, go shopping easily and feel comfortable in clothes for anything. I would not trade this confidence or happiness. I am soo a peace with myself and my body. The aches that I feel are from soreness of pushing my body, than from being too heavy that my body cannot handle the weight.
This journey has saved my life in more ways than I could ever imagine. I do not hide from the world anymore. I do not hide from people. I go out and want to explore. I meet new people. I have been freed from the burdens my weight had placed on me mentally and physically.
With being said, "I LOVE MY IMPERFECTLY PERFECT BODY!!"
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So I have come to the conclusion that I have a racer back gym shirt problem. I keep buying more shirts and they are soo cute and they make me feel cute. I am still kicking butt on my workouts and I have decided to end Keto for now. I have been stressing a lot about food and unfortunately, I hold on to weight that way. It is time to go back to just being mindful of what I eat and how much.
Although I look great in clothing, I wanted to show what my body looks like outside of it. My stomach is sagging lower than before I lost weight. My arms are sagging and my breast have deflated.
With that being said, I would not go back and change anything. I would not give up being able to jump, bike, go shopping easily and feel comfortable in clothes for anything. I would not trade this confidence or happiness. I am soo a peace with myself and my body. The aches that I feel are from soreness of pushing my body, than from being too heavy that my body cannot handle the weight.
This journey has saved my life in more ways than I could ever imagine. I do not hide from the world anymore. I do not hide from people. I go out and want to explore. I meet new people. I have been freed from the burdens my weight had placed on me mentally and physically.
With being said, "I LOVE MY IMPERFECTLY PERFECT BODY!!"
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Life Has A Way of Getting You In The Weigh...
People eat. For one reason or another people eat. There's only one reason that you should; to fuel your body... but despite that, there is mass consumerism of food.I was raised in a house where you cleaned your plate. I'm not blaming anyone, but I can count countless things that I have digested simply to prevent waste.I remember years ago looking at obese women and thinking to myself how could they let themselves get that way. Maybe my life now is God's lesson in humility for those thoughts. It was a gradual thing, for me for the longest time. Five pounds more this year than last and so on. I don't think it really got out of hand until after I had my hysterectomy, and completely altered my body chemistry altogether. The surgery its self led to a lot of depression for me and I'm pretty sure I gained twenty pounds that year. I was just under two hundred pounds at the time and I thought I was fat then.I'm not sure it was ever a clear thought to remove the scales and the mirrors from my home. I realized about a year ago, like an epiphany, that I haven't seen myself in a full length mirror or been weighed on a scale for years. It was the day after I had caught a glimpse of myself in a shop window and all I could do was cry. Hell I cried for nearly a week, just laying there feeling sorry for myself. My mind raced over my life searching for the last time that I could recall seeing myself and it had been a long time.The biggest crime you can commit is beating yourself up or letting others define you. That being said you need to be realistic too. We have grown into this society where we lie to ourselves and others as not to offend. When I made the decision to enter a bariatric program (physician monitored diet and exercise & potential surgery), I heard a lot of comments that were negative... but I think the one that hurt the most is being told "you are beautiful the way you are". First, I never said I was ugly. Second, how can you think me eating my way to death's doorstep is beautiful? Just respect my decision and be supportive!You really learn a lot about yourself when you join the bariatric program. It was so hard for me to go to that first appointment. I cried most of the way during the drive there. My heart was heavy when I walked through the door. Coming here was admitting to myself what I had become and it was hitting me like a ton of bricks. I'm sure it was written all over my face, I checked in and waited in the reception room. My eyes surveyed the people in the room and I was trying to find someone that I identified with. Shockingly, most of the people in the room seemed to be a fair bit older than me, I argued with myself that I wasn't as bad off as them and then I was called into the back.Nothing could prepare me to walk in that room and see that huge cattle scale. I'm sure that's not what it is, but I also argue that you could easily fit a full size dairy cow upon it. She asked me to remove my shoes and then took my height and it yielded a result that I expected. I stepped upon the scale and it was digital, it settled on a number fast, it was instantly apparent to me that I had more than doubled the weight on my drivers license, (why do they let us get away with that? haha), I almost fainted. I instantly begin to cry and the nurse reassures me - yet it is no comfort at all. Next, they take a full length photo of me from the front and from the side. She began to ask if I would like to see the photo, but I think somehow she just knew that there was no way that I would look at it.I was given a folder filled with information that we went over that day. A restrictive diet and exercise program, and a host of obligations for me to meet with specialists to rule out any other medical issues. It seemed overwhelming.... man it was overwhelming.
Over the next several months I met with the weight management doctor and did a host of other clearances. Cardiac, Pulmonary, Psychological, blood work, xrays, ultrasound of my gall bladder, sleep study. I remember thinking to myself that there was no way that all of this was necessary. THIS IS MAJOR SURGERY - hello.... they are cutting up your insides! I continued to meet with the weight management doctor up and to about a month ago... I have about 19 days until my actual surgery.
I have to do three weeks of liquid diet. 7 Optifast shakes, 64 oz of caffeine free, sugar free, calorie free drinks... every day for 21 days. I won't eat food again until probably December... and it will be so little that it probably won't matter much. No one tells you how hard it is going to weigh on you emotionally. I am truly humbled.
The first day of Optifast broke me mentally. I cried most of the day and was a royal crotch. I yelled at my family for filling the house with food smells and not being supportive. I made it through the first day and then two hours after I drake the last shake for the day, I did something that I have never done in my life.
I binge ate.
I cried the whole time and almost vomited... WTF is wrong with me?!
I ended up crying and talking to one of my best friends and they reminded me how hard I worked up an to now and encouraged me to not beat myself up and just get up and try better tomorrow.
Day two I stuck to the shakes completely.
Today is day three and I am feeling a little more confident about things. It's been a life saver to be a part of the bariatric facebook community that is local to my area - I am feeling a little less crazy and realizing that I am not alone in the journey. -
Hello everyone. I just wanted to keep you updated. My lung collapsed during my gastric sleeve operation. Dr. Corvala had to go back in and fix my lung because of a mistake he made. I am now 3 days post op. I still feel terrible. It hurts when I breathe deep, laugh, and cough. I can barely keep anything down. I throw up meds and liquids. I just wish for a fast recovery from this terrible experience. I would not recommend anyone to go to Hospital Angeles.
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HAPPY 39th BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!
Yep, today's my birthday and I'll scream it out loud for all the world to hear. Why? Not for birthday wishes, but because of the birthdays I had growing up weren't really celebrated too much. When I became an adult, I would always be depressed on this day. I had enough of it two years ago and had a revelation (thanks to my brother) and decided that from now on, I will celebrate my birthday and be happy on this day. I believe that this is the day that God has made and He and all His angels are rejoicing because I was made!!! I won't be sad anymore. Sure, things come up, like today my four year old had the biggest epic fit over a pair of pants (and at school--the first ever) and also today, I'm missing work because I'm not feeling well, and have to go see the doctor as well. I even weighed myself to see if I made it to onderland, but that didn't happen either. But despite the negative stuff, I am well, TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY AND I WILL BE HAPPY.
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@biginjapan routine is good for the most part. It's nice to have a change here and there but when we're focused on our health, it's hard. I totally get ya. I lost about 5 or 6 lbs this past month. I don't mind, it's a loss, but circumstances in my life went haywire for a few weeks. Like you, I'm back to routine and so I expect things to be a bit better than the last month. Glad you're back!
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Today is a special day! I'm 6 months and 3 days postop, and the scale now reads the same weight I was when I graduated from High School (215)! Ok, so .. yes, I was fat when I was 17! Lol. After graduating, I started dieting, and so from the ages of 18 to 23, I usually weighed somewhere between 145 and 200. But after turning 23 and having had 3 pregnancies, I never got back down to onederland... (I'm almost 39 now).
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HAPPY 39th BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!
Yep, today's my birthday and I'll scream it out loud for all the world to hear. Why? Not for birthday wishes, but because of the birthdays I had growing up weren't really celebrated too much. When I became an adult, I would always be depressed on this day. I had enough of it two years ago and had a revelation (thanks to my brother) and decided that from now on, I will celebrate my birthday and be happy on this day. I believe that this is the day that God has made and He and all His angels are rejoicing because I was made!!! I won't be sad anymore. Sure, things come up, like today my four year old had the biggest epic fit over a pair of pants (and at school--the first ever) and also today, I'm missing work because I'm not feeling well, and have to go see the doctor as well. I even weighed myself to see if I made it to onderland, but that didn't happen either. But despite the negative stuff, I am well, TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY AND I WILL BE HAPPY.
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@biginjapan thank you hon! How have you've been? Haven't heard from you in a while. I remember you took a trip though...
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Today is a special day! I'm 6 months and 3 days postop, and the scale now reads the same weight I was when I graduated from High School (215)! Ok, so .. yes, I was fat when I was 17! Lol. After graduating, I started dieting, and so from the ages of 18 to 23, I usually weighed somewhere between 145 and 200. But after turning 23 and having had 3 pregnancies, I never got back down to onederland... (I'm almost 39 now).
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Hello everyone. I just wanted to keep you updated. My lung collapsed during my gastric sleeve operation. Dr. Corvala had to go back in and fix my lung because of a mistake he made. I am now 3 days post op. I still feel terrible. It hurts when I breathe deep, laugh, and cough. I can barely keep anything down. I throw up meds and liquids. I just wish for a fast recovery from this terrible experience. I would not recommend anyone to go to Hospital Angeles.
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Since my hair will not stop falling out and I still have a lot on my head. I decided to stick with the up-do.
I also added a picture of my ID at my highest weight versus today. I was sooo shocked by the difference.
My gym day. I wanted to show my setup at the gym so you can see what I do.
I have stopped losing weight but I am losing inches.
