in 4 weeks and 2 days
· SleevieMcTummyTuck · 07/27/2016 19:30
Anyways, Ive been overweight most of my life, and when I finally got fit a few years ago, I immediately found out I was pregnant. 9 years and a gain of 120lbs later, im ready to take my life back. Ive yo-yo'd for years and have a boyfriend who has an enormous appetite and horrible eating habits but doesnt gain a pound-jerk. (lol) fortunately he loves me no matter my size, but I am ready to climb out of this fat suit andEXPERIENCE life again.
I feel like I've sat on the sidelines for years watching friends and families enjoy their lives. I think to myself, "I used to be fun too". Now I let the fear of a little jiggle keep me from running and playing with my daughter, or dancing at a wedding, or going to a theme park or water park...ive missed years of making memories all because I am out of shape and afraid, uncomfortable because of the weight I am carrying, in pain because of the stress on my joints, but most importantly.- putting everyone before myself. Well not anymore.
Yesterday was my last appointment with the doctor at the weight management center. I have been in a 6 month program, and have been poked and prodded, questioned, had psych evals, nutritional evals, group appointment, solo appointments, QUIT SMOKING and now finally I am 1 month away. Reality is setting in. WOO! But I am ready.
One month from today I take my life back, one month from today I start living again, one month from today is the BEGINNING of the rest of my life and i am SOOOO ready! Ready to be seen as an actual person. Ready for people to LOOK at me when theyre talking to me. I dont want to be invisible anymore, or EVER again. I dont want to be the "wow you have a beautiful face" girl anymore, and I am ready to put in the work!
Sorry for the rambling, but needed a place to vent to people who truly understand all the feelings and emotions, and I hope someone reading this can relate and will want to vent to me at some point too!!
Laters!
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