Alyssa Toner

I'm really glad I found this website so maybe I can find others who feel the same way.
I am about to be one week post op, and honestly, this week has been ROUGH.
When I was researching surgeries and getting myself excited, I went to people telling their stories via YouTube. So, when I started having a hard time, I went back to YouTube to check those same people's week one experience.
AND EVERYONE SAID IT WAS EASY?!
Maybe this was just my experience. I dont know. Maybe if anyone else wants to share their first week, I can see some more realistic points of view.
My pain level seemed to never go below a 7/10 at any given time until yesterday, when it didnt get bad until night time. This seemed to really bother me during my first two days where I was in the hospital, and the nurses didn't show up until a good 45 minutes after you called them. Maybe that adds to my sourness. My nurses were awful. I signed a waiver saying I wouldnt try to get out of bed without a nurse.....my nurses never came. I would call so I could go to the restroom, they wouldnt show. I would call to walk, they wouldnt show. My nurse even came in and taught me how to turn off the IV alarm after the second time it went off so i didnt have to keep calling her (which bothered me because, what if something was seriously wrong???? I feel like after I hit the call button my boyfriend shouldnt have to go out 30 minutes later when I'm in tears to physically go find my nurse)
When I got home, I was never hungry.That was nice. My surgeon gave me two specific types of Protein shake: nectar and Bariatric Advantage. They told me to start with Nectar because its thinner. I haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaated it. They all tasted like toothpaste and I was choking them down. I had no nausea switching to BA, but they were right, it was INCREDIBLY thick. I was doing them with 8oz coconut milk and 4-6 oz of Water just to the point where i didnt feel like I had to chew through them.
Today on day 6 is the first day I felt hungry. I think its because my family was making themselves my weakness today: grilled Peanut Butter sandwich. I almost want to drool typing it, I love peanut butter so much (LOL.)
I dont know why, but my emotions have been a train wreck this week. I broke down because I couldnt have peanut butter. I decided to try seeing if I've lost any weight to maybe boost my spirits, and yes, I've neared 15 pounds lost this week, but my "fat pants" I wore to the hospital are tight. I learned this is because of the swelling, but in my incredibly emotional state, the fact that I'm losing weight but my clothes arent filtting made me even more upset.
Pretty much, I've been emotionally upset, and I desperately want at least soft food. I've been counting down the days until I can have anything EXCEPT a Protein shake. (is that healthy to want food that bad?). And I've been hurting. Oh! I also have zero energy. I probably slept 20 hours a day those first two days after I was released from the hospital. That's made it rough to get all my fluids in.
I've hated this week. I've truly hated it. Did anyone else have a rough first week post op?

I am only a week out, but I have a few that will be my "best feeling ever"
Being able to fit on all rides at an amusement park
Wearing clothes that dont have a 2 in front (unless its a size 2....LOL.)
Being in "onederland"!! I might cry when I finally see that 199, lol

Honestly the ONLY problem i had drinking this week has been that I've always been too tired to finish my fluids. Lol. Ive noticed 0 nausea from it.

I am only a week out, but I have a few that will be my "best feeling ever"
Being able to fit on all rides at an amusement park
Wearing clothes that dont have a 2 in front (unless its a size 2....LOL.)
Being in "onederland"!! I might cry when I finally see that 199, lol