Kygie

You need to get your head around that this is a life change...it is the start of something so positive and so rewarding....The surgery is daunting and so is the recovery and life with the band is different but It is so overwhelmingly worth every second....I am different to alot of people I still eat little bits of what I enjoy (that the band is ok with) but my portions are so so so much smaller than they ever were, I try to get low fat versions of my fave foods.....I lived on potato and leek Soup the first three weeks.....It was so filling. Remember that the first few months is more about caring for the band rather than losing weight!!! good luck I wish you both so much happiness for the future!!

that happened with me too hun....Sometimes it is hard to find esp with your first fill...We must of tried a dozen times to find it...then I had fill put in by xray.....I got my doctor to draw a diagram where mine is, as it is under my scar and I have to tell them everytime I need a fill!!!
You are so far from a failure its not funny!!!! I didn't have my first fill until I was 12 weeks post op and I was a freaking mess. I had lost weight but it was so hard....These early times it is all about looking after your band, letting your tummy settle from the swelling and trauma, and allowing scar tissue to grow over the band to keep her in place.....I am as I am sure most people who have the band suffer from head hunger......The really great thing is the band slows what you can eat and that full feeling really does stop you from eating things that you shouldnt BUT unlike alot of people I eat what I want too...its just cut down into smaller portions and I find low fat/sugar versions of the yummy things I love!!! It took about 6 months to find me sweet spot and then we were off like a rocket....this time I have struggled emotionally, which has made it more difficult!! good luck hun, keep us updated on your fill!!

thank you both so much!!!
I have a brillaint counsellor who has been in my world for the last 3 years, but I only started seeing her professionally about 6 months ago. She is my safe place in a world that feels so unsafe.....
getting me back in here makes me feel like I am taking accountability for Lola...I know all the tricks to cheat her, I suffer really bad head hunger and I need the support from others who have gone through the Lap band!!! Caribear...I am so sorry you have PTSD....It is something that stays with you forever, which you somehow manage!!
one of my fave sayings is when the world whispers give up, hope whispers try one more time.....so here I am trying!!!
xoxoxo