Kygie

Thanks iriegirl!! I really appreciate it. I know others have been through alot more than I have...I just needed to get it out and write it down I guess....I know I cant succeed without the support in here I am so happy to be back!!!!

Hi!! I had my first lap band surgery in Feb '08.....I loved my band instantly and I call her lola. 12 months later I had lost over 50kg and I was feeling amazing, until I was assaulted at work and my world fell apart......I had broken wrist, extensive bruising all over my body and I felt horrible...I was throwing up alot due to the trauma on my stomach and I realised lola had slipped.....On the 24th of March I had my surgery for the slippage....all went well but I was in hospital a day longer due to extreme pain that I hadn't felt with the first band. 2009 was a hell year for my family.....my son who was 7 at the time was hospitalised due to several suicide attempts (he has several complex disabilities) I was in and out of hospital with my band, my beloved grandfather passed away in May. I broke my ankle and spent 5 months in a wheel chair as my wrist never healed. I had 2 surgeries for my wrist and I have been left with permanent damage and alot of daily pain. I also happen to be left handed. In November my nanny left us to be with my poppa and I all of a sudden became the head of the family, looking after my parents, my brother, my 2 children and my husband.....There was just no time for me. I have PTSD and Agoraphobia from the assault and I am currently 183kg after reaching 149kg in Feb '09. I finally have gone to have several adjustments, but this time round it is so different. I am home all the time, I am down alot, I am caring for my whole family and I am exhausted BUT I decided that now is the time I should do something for me!! sooooooooooo I am not back at my starting weight of 209kg so I am proud of me for that. MY band is really tight in the morning and as the day progresses I can eat more. I am finding around once a month my band tightens up alot....and I have researched and it seems fluid retention and my cycle could be the reason for that....I am going to persevere with the heart burn n sipping fluid for the next few days. I really don't want to get fill taken out of the band!!! Looking forward to getting to know you all better and FX I am finally on my way to becoming the butterfly I want to be!!

My surgeon said the first weeks is about looking after the band, not so much about losing weight!!! you are waiting for all the swelling to go down, you have so much gas build up and fluid retention as well....be gentle on yourself. Your band needs time to settle in, get the scar tissue around it and then off you will go....i lost 4kg in the first weeks....mainly coz they forget to give me any fill!! but with your fluid intake its about being gentle on the band atm!!! thinking of you and good luck on your journey!!

thank you both so much!!! I have a brillaint counsellor who has been in my world for the last 3 years, but I only started seeing her professionally about 6 months ago. She is my safe place in a world that feels so unsafe..... getting me back in here makes me feel like I am taking accountability for Lola...I know all the tricks to cheat her, I suffer really bad head hunger and I need the support from others who have gone through the Lap band!!! Caribear...I am so sorry you have PTSD....It is something that stays with you forever, which you somehow manage!! one of my fave sayings is when the world whispers give up, hope whispers try one more time.....so here I am trying!!! xoxoxo

thank you so much elcee!! xoxox simsuss!! wishing you so much joy and happiness for the future......Cancer is a true b***h and I am so so so glad you are cancer free!!! good luck on your journey!! xoxox waiting patiently...Thank you so very much....We have been battered the last 3 years as a family....My compensation claim is coming up for its first conference on the 24th of July....so that is finally on its way and soon We should be financially free and I can start my studies again. I really needed to come back in, to admit my issues and to get the support...so thank you all so very very much and I look forward to getting to know you all xoxo

Hi everyone, It's been a long time since I posted but I am desperately needing support. Lola was put in on the 5th of Feb 2008....I had reached 149kg When I was assaulted at work so badly that the band slipped (I had alot of stomach trauma) we tried to empty the band but it was so bad that on the 24th of March 2009 I had another surgery to readjust the band.....It has been a long 3 years, I have PTSD and Agoraphobia from the assault and so it took me til August last year before I started having the band adjusted. I hit my biggest since banding at 187kg...I managed to get down to 176kg, but I am back up to 183kg. I am finding that every few weeks the band is tightening up alot....Starting to think it has to do with water retention and my cycle.....I have heartburn and im struggling with fluids but I am going to wait it out a few days before going and having and adjustment to see if it settles down. Life is difficult. I am unable to work. I have daily pain in my left wrist that was permanently damaged in the assault. I also have 2 children, one with multiple complex disabilities and the other with kidney issues. I have forgotten what it is like to take care of me.....so here I am reintroducing myself to you......asking for support to become the butterfly I desperately want to be xoxoxoxo

Well since April last year I now weigh around 180kg. I didnt have fill put in my band and The post traumatic stress from my assault last feb really took a toll on me. carbs became my best friend and I had a broken wrist and Ankle at the same time and spent 5 months in a wheel chair, my darling poppa passed in May (my only father figure) and then my nan in November. In december I finally snapped out of the fog and I have had some fill put in the band but I still sabotage myself. Weight so isnt about what you put in your mouth BUT why you put it in your mouth. I bought a mini pedal bike last thursday it arrived and i have done 40 mins 3 times now. Easter was bad as I had all the chocolate I was given but its almost gone now so now its up to me to get on my lil bike and pedal to weight loss. I am having surgery on my wrist tomorrow and its sad that 14 months after my assault my body still isnt healed, but my mind is almost ready to get going again. Really no one can force you into this you need to be ready to decide what you are willing to put into your body. Ive done 20 mins on my bike and my last easter egg is sitting here and I know I am going to eat it and then all the chocolate is gone and I can be on my way once more Here is to a new year!!!

Well since April last year I now weigh around 180kg. I didnt have fill put in my band and The post traumatic stress from my assault last feb really took a toll on me. carbs became my best friend and I had a broken wrist and Ankle at the same time and spent 5 months in a wheel chair, my darling poppa passed in May (my only father figure) and then my nan in November. In december I finally snapped out of the fog and I have had some fill put in the band but I still sabotage myself. Weight so isnt about what you put in your mouth BUT why you put it in your mouth. I bought a mini pedal bike last thursday it arrived and i have done 40 mins 3 times now. Easter was bad as I had all the chocolate I was given but its almost gone now so now its up to me to get on my lil bike and pedal to weight loss. I am having surgery on my wrist tomorrow and its sad that 14 months after my assault my body still isnt healed, but my mind is almost ready to get going again. Really no one can force you into this you need to be ready to decide what you are willing to put into your body. Ive done 20 mins on my bike and my last easter egg is sitting here and I know I am going to eat it and then all the chocolate is gone and I can be on my way once more Here is to a new year!!!

I was first banded in feb '08 weighing 202kg (444 pounds) by feb '09 I had lost 50kg (110 pounds). On the 16th of feb I was assaulted at work so badly she dislodged my band. On the 24th of March '09 I had surgery to adjust the slippage. Since then I have had Post traumatic stress and chronic depression. My wrist was broken in the Assault and I still cannot use my dominant hand properly, My beloved grandfather died, I broke my ankle and spent 4 months in a wheelchair and it is still very sore now. On the 16th of november my nan passed away (mum loses both parents within 6 months) and here I am packing on the kgs. I am feeling better in myself now and taking a huge breath I know I am ready to finally look after myself instead of putting everyone else first and me losing out big time. I had a fill this morning. Im about .1ml off my original sweet spot. I hopped on the scales and yes i now weigh 185kg (404 pounds) and I am devastated but at ease that I didn't put all the weight back on. I need alot of support as my head still isnt right with the psych stuff and it would be easy to fall off this lapband wagon again. I am determined to succeed though and feel as wonderful as i did pre the assault. cheers Ky :rolleyes2:

oh I wish I was over it!! I am on the climb up however and I have a brilliant psychiatrist and psychologist that have been working with me since march last year. I think coming up to the first anniversary of the assault will be my final hurdle to real healing. I also think once my physical affects are gone I will feel much better. That includes the 30kg I have put on!! I am glad to be back on here the support is so greatly needed xox

Geees Dr Martin has been bloody awesome to me. One of the nicest men I have ever met. He also has another Doctor that does fills when he is busy. I got in with one days notice. I have had to have an adjustment as I was assaulted at work and my band slipped. Dr Martin and Pauline have been wonderful have gone way beyond the call, even rang me at home to check on me afterwards. For my surgery I paid $10000 in total and i got about 1000 back in total that was all inclusive and fills are covered under medicare permanently. Dr Martin does you as a private patient in a public hospital helps with the cost So sorry Sarah you havent had a good experience with Dr Martin He is my life saver and extremely supportive for me Good luck whichever way you go

Im starting all over again as of yesterday. I was assaulted at work in feb last year. I had had my band 12 months and had lost 110 pound. I needed to have it readjusted I was kicked so many times either the kicks or the swelling and pbing caused a slippage. I had that done in march '09. I had the first fill 3 weeks later and then the PTSD sunk in and depression and anxiety rising from the assault took over. I was 149kg and I am now back at 185kg. I was 202kg before banding. I feel mentally better and refreshed and I have seen my doctor and had the fill and now I'm off after a few speed bumps the road looks nice and clear. Good luck to all of us who are starting over xoxox

The first 6 weeks or so is all about your band settling, scar tissue forming and all the swelling going away. Unfortunately it is not about weight loss and basically you could eat as much as you want too. I got through the stages with soups and soft cheese the protein seemed to help the headaches a bit. Just remember you have no restriction whatsoever. I was given my first fill at 3 weeks and that helped heaps. It took about 4 fills to find my ssweet spot and once you find it you will be comfortable with a cup of food 3 times a day. If you are not you havent found that sweet spot yet!! good luck

That sounds like your head is playing tricks on you. Our body really doesn't care what food tastes like as long as it's the right fuel to keep it going and not weigh it down. But i also believe if you do not enjoy your weight loss you have regrets. Is there any way you make make your craving a lil more band and weight loss friendly and enjoy it without the guilty feeling. My doctor would never ever let me have an unfill to enjoy any kind of special ocassion. I think that sets you up for a downfall mentally and weigh wise. GOOD ON YOU for having the willpower to say no coz hell that would of been tempting. What is you main craving. Maybe you could have it just as you are finishing your meal so you are almost full and wont over do it. My craving is mash potato and gravy I tend to have the mash last and only need a lil bit coz im so full. Ohhh and I find a few calories in the day to have a couple of pieces of chocolate every now and then. don't beat yourself up we are human and we are allowed these lovely delights every now and then thats what makes it a balanced diet good luck

The only way the band wont work is if you try to rely soley on it and not use it as a tool. The lapband is a great companion for weight loss but you still do all the work Yes you can easliy cheat the band and I have been guilty of that, drinking and eating at the same time so I can eat everything on my plate, not listening to my body when im full and pushing the food away and not going to the doctor to get the right amount of fill in the band. I think i am about .1ml off now and I actually sucked it up and started properly again yesterday and I feel unreal. Im an emotional eater and I had a shit year last year and instead of seeing my doctor regularly for support I dug my head in the sand. I lost 100 pounds in the first 12 months. I had my band readjusted after being assaulted in March last year. I put on 60 pounds (my own doing not the band) and I am excited to say im off and running again. I was scared of many things but seriously, take a breath and think about all the benefits you will be rewarded from having the band GOOD LUCK

No one can tell you what you should do but I can tell you as someone who is morbidly obese I have tried every dietyou could think of since i was about 11. I have yo yo ed all my life. Don't think that having the band doesnt mean you don't need willpower but if you do as your doctor says you will be constantly full and the "crap" food can't fit. I have had lots of problems but it's not the bands fault. I was assaulted and needed the band to be readjusted (this in not common occurance) and I put on weight because emotionally I let my band down. I didn;t go back and get filled to my sweet spot coz i was emotionally fullfilling myslef with food. I lost 50kg in the first 12 months with my original band. With the new band I had put on 30kg. Yesterday I went and had a fill and I feel bloody awesome my dear friend is at the sweet spot and I am on my way and wanna scream to the world. Its funny how quickly your emotions change when you know you are really looking after yourself. Good luck with your decision

I saw my surgeon in November '07 and had my band on the 5th of Feb '08. I guess it depends on the surgeons list, where they work from and weather they do private and publice patients. My doctor is Dr Ian Martin in Brissie he freaking rocks!!!! he has the best bed side manner and made me feel so at ease

I lost 110 pounds in the first 12 months. I was assualted at work and had to have my band readjusted and I have had a really hard year and I have put on 30kg. BUt that is from my own doing, self sabotage. The band is literally a tool to support you. You still have to put the work in BUT it is sooo worth it. I have a long way to go over 200 pounds and it helps to know I have my friend with me. Now I am in the right head space my band and I can work better together. I wouldnt give this up for anything in the world. I have a hard time with different foods but the foods you miss is stupid in comparison to the health benefits, the not just existing but living feeling that losing all the weight gives you!! good luck with your decision

Hang in there hun. IT wasnt until I showed people pics that they could see how much I had lost. People tend to just see you as a person not as weight so those that really matter won't always see the difference, which in a way in a compliment. I put on weight when I had too much fill in and was drinking more than eating....It has taken me 12 months to find the right balance but its all worth it when u do Hang in there your weight loss is an amazing effort so far xoxo

lol I could told by a stranger in the street...you have such a pretty face its a shame about the rest of you!!! I couldnt even reply lol People like that I would never have in my life whether im skinny or fat!!!!! im worth lots more than that

hey 4luci Please don't be worried. I was assaulted by a 35 year old woman who was totally psychotic. She had a massive meltdown. I was kicked in the stomach 8 times and had bruises larger than my fist, but i was so swallon it was a combination between the assault the swelling, the stress and throwing up constantly that did it. This really was a freak thing!!!!! I love my band it is completely worth everything!! I have lost over 50kg and feel amazing. I have a young son who has ASD ADHD and language nad uditory processing disorders. He can become very abuse but I have never been worried about the band. It is for most purposes quite secure up in there. I have had my repositioning and I couldnt of gone back to work until now but I havent recovered that great. Some people recover amazingly well and are back to work in a few days Good luck hun and keep us posted

On the 23rd of March just before repositioning this is what I wrote new goal. Posted 03-23-2009 at 11:44 AM by Kygie Tags Going through this rebanding has made me rethink just where I want this journey to be taken too. I was thinking at one stage I would be happy at 100kg BUT I won't be these are my new goals.... I am being rebanded on the 25th of March soooo I am going to give myself some rough time frames to hit each goal and realistic time!!!!! I am 153kg/336pds 1. 149kg/327pds - 25th April Anzac day I offically am today 147kg/323lbs and I am over the moon. I have reached my first goal 17 days before I expected too. OMG.