been a hard year

Well since April last year I now weigh around 180kg. I didnt have fill put in my band and The post traumatic stress from my assault last feb really took a toll on me. carbs became my best friend and I had a broken wrist and Ankle at the same time and spent 5 months in a wheel chair, my darling poppa passed in May (my only father figure) and then my nan in November. In december I finally snapped out of the fog and I have had some fill put in the band but I still sabotage myself. Weight so isnt about what you put in your mouth BUT why you put it in your mouth.

I bought a mini pedal bike last thursday it arrived and i have done 40 mins 3 times now. Easter was bad as I had all the chocolate I was given but its almost gone now so now its up to me to get on my lil bike and pedal to weight loss.

I am having surgery on my wrist tomorrow and its sad that 14 months after my assault my body still isnt healed, but my mind is almost ready to get going again. Really no one can force you into this you need to be ready to decide what you are willing to put into your body. Ive done 20 mins on my bike and my last easter egg is sitting here and I know I am going to eat it and then all the chocolate is gone and I can be on my way once more

Here is to a new year!!!