Pix

Nahh its not that bad, I worked the salmon boats for a summer made some good money too. I wont do it again though, if I go back to the fishing boats I would go brown/red crabbing. Not Opilio though, I am not that silly enough to dare mother nature THAT much. Dealing with rough seas, moving ice flow, AND freezing cold .... *ponders* yeah .. no ....

Ten days left and my nerves are shot all to hell. Between trying to get my house in tip top shape for my mom coming in, and making it so after she leaves my house cleaning is minimal work until I am back to 100%. My kids having sleep over’s (one of there closest friends is moving soon) over here, dr. appointments, stressing about my husband being gone I am ready for the men in the white suits to bring me the soft warm wrap around jacket. Top it all off with trying to maintain my self prescribed 2/3 liquid diet, my will power is about to snap with my sanity. I have friends getting on my last nerve to compound it!! One of them, sweet kid but really needy and selfish all in the same boat, and about as dumb as a box of rocks. Needless to say I finally blew up one day and it was all aimed at her. What is sad about it all, I don’t feel bad, its stuff I have been wanting to say to her for ages now but have been just to nice to say. While she is trying to pretend I am not angry with her and everything is hunky dory (told you she is a dim one) she is acting all hurt and stuff cause I wont talk to her. I told her a few times that I need space and time, I am one to hold a grudge and if it’s not allowed to go its course it tends to grow. Found out though, that the reason she has been calling me and trying to get me to forgive her or at least pretend nothing is wrong, the week of my surgery she wants me to watch her kids. Yeah that was a nice treat, glad to know I am good for something. *rolls eyes* Back to the real problem, my sanity vs. willpower. I think they are both on the same wavelength because when my will power starts to wane my sanity feels like it is holding on by a very thin fragile string. So for the time being I have scaled back to a ½ liquid diet, I don’t want to put any of the weight back on, but right now with the added extra stressors I just can’t deal with something like that. I think on the first I will go forward with the 2/3 diet again and then on the 5th move up to a full liquid diet as I don’t want to take a chance of them not doing my surgery. LOL Top if all off, the patch isn’t helping me any …. I still want to smoke but it’s a huge big no-no with the patch. It has been 2 weeks and this morning I didn’t put one back on. You can make yourself ill if you smoke and have the patch. I asked my surgeon about the prescription chantrix and he said when I come in for me 2week post of visit if I am healing fine and moved on to mushy solids with out issue he will prescribe it for me. He told me I have too much on my plate pre-op to worry about quitting and to wait until I have healed and am not as stressed out before I try it again. He said Chantrix + the Nicotine Patch I will have the best shot at quitting. But I will have to follow up with my PCP in one months time cause he will only prescribe 30 days supply. Which is all I will need, it takes 13 days to make something a habit, and 21 to break the habit (nifty psycho babble facts that are useless LOL). He said if I am in need I can double it with the final stage of the patch (the weak one) if I really feel the “need” to smoke I hope I am not that bad of a smoker. I really do, because that would be bad. Ok my rant is done, I just had to get it off my chest, I do feel better … (most of my problems are from trying to quit smoking I know. So I am following my doc’s orders and not going to worry about it until AFTER my surgery so I don’t have high blood pressure every fricken day.)

Susan that kills me when people (companies) call it alaskan snow crab. Its Opilio Crab, its a pet peeve of mine. Call me kookie but being from Alaska its just one of those things that makes me grind my teeth. LOL One of my closest friends has been on the crab boats since he turned 18, and he loves the Opilio season (he is a bit of a daredevil) while he says the red/brown crab seasons are worth the money, the best money is opilio crab (yes now and then you can see him on one of the boats on Deadliest Catch though I wont say which, he doesn't like the 'fame' it has brought him back home ROFL we tease him endlessly)

Ok, so I am doin my own version of the pre-op diet ... my bane is the chocolate slim fast Protein drinks. They taste disgusting and vile but I know I need the protein, so I have been choking them down fighting my gag reflex each time. Well, finally hit on an idea to make them more palatable. I blend it with a banana and 1tsp of cocoa powder. Still tastes rotten, but it didn't hit the gag reflex ... so I guess I found the "cure" for now ... Oh yeah .. the cocoa powder is sugar free ....

Go above your GM's head. Complain to corporate about it definetly.

I had someone tell me that just yesterday that I was taking the easy way out, and that if I just blah blah blah (we all know the rest of it). I popped off saying wow .. major surgery, having to watch what I eat and portion sizes for the rest of my life is easy. huh ... glad to know you have your medical degree you just saved my life. He shut up and apologized.

There is a boy in my sons class. I know his parents, they discuss behavior problems with there son, and ask him how he can behave better. They never mention a punishment for hitting another child, or pushing another child, or biting, kicking, cussing. He has NO punishment for these behaviors. They just talk to him about it. Now my son, he gets the occasional swat, he gets time out, he gets a talkin too. He is a good kid, hyper but good none the less. He rarely gets in trouble for behaving badly in school (mostly mr. ants in the pants likes to squirm around and get out of his seat). It just goes to show, from one "extreme to another" that spanking when done properly with the right back up (IE talking to your kid, explaining why they are getting a spanking, then have them tell you why they are getting a spanking) does work. Plain talking doesn't (for some kids).

No Wasa you did mock me, but that is ok, I ran into nurses like you all the time at the hospital. Most of them I loved to pieces the rest who thought they were above us lowly emt folks .. well lets just say when they did there trauma rotation they got a new vibe about how hard we work when they had to do their job on our rigs. Some never changed, but most did once they realized what we went through.

I decry what she did cause she is fekking nuts! Hoax or not, a person who can do that to their own body (or even pretend they did(ingesting the herbs and chemicals)) has serious issues that needs to be addressed, not just physically. But this is just my opinion. While a woman choosing an abortion is going through a difficult and personally traumatic experiance and they don't need people assuming that she is like one college co-ed who is off her rocker. You know some of the more 'fanatic' pro-lifers' will use that woman against all people wanting/needing an abortion.

Technically Gadget, she didn't give herself an abortion. She admited she had no idea if she was pregnant. Chances are she was just inducing her monthly over and over. Until pregnancy is confirmed it is just your monthly. With out confirmation (and missing one or two (IMHO) is confirmation unless you normally skip a few (make sense??)) its just her monthly. I mean seriously if you want to argue semantics I am all for it, and she said she would "inseminate" herself then take the herbs/chemicals. I would assume from the way the article was written she never tracked her monthlies, nor did she have inclination she was even pregnant. No time line was ever given, no nothing. The person chose to use the term "induce and abortion" but from reading it through again (talk about disgusting reading it a second time) to me it read that she was just assuming and would ingest the herbs at the time of 'insemination'.

A Medical clinic not regulated?? I really don't want to know what back alley doctor is running that place to be honest. Medical clinics have standards in which they must maintain. If it is not being maintained report them.

Did you read the article about her? She was ingesting herbs and other chemicals to induce this. What she was doing is not only harmful to her but if she ingested the wrong herbs together she could suffer long term affects from those herbs. You have to be careful with herbs and the like. If you do not know what you are doing, or what can and can not be mixed together then you are asking for trouble. I am sure even though she is a seemingly despicable person she values her life. Typically an abortion is done with in the confines of a medical setting. Should anything go wrong you are in a medical facility that can care for you or expedite you to a larger care facility that can better care for you. Abortions have risks, and those are explained to you long before the procedure happens, in fact they are explained over and over again. One abortion has the possibility of rendering a woman incapable of ever giving birth. Did you know a natural occurring miscarriage has that same chance? Back to your original question, I said what I said because of the ramifications of those herbs to her body, and if she did induce multiple possible miscarriages she needs to be seen to make sure she is ok. Lets not go into the amount of psychiatric care I think the woman needs... Straight jacket and a padded wall are a start.

FlipFlops, whether or not she can face ramifications is a moot point in our society. The public outcry from BOTH sides of the abortion debate will be enough to shame her for her behavior. Hoax or not it is despicable, and she needs serious psychiatric help to even think that something like that is art, and the things she has (supposedly) done to her body. She needs to be seen straight away by her GYN to make sure she hasn't harmed herself irrevocably. How I feel is irrelevant in todays society, she is free to do that to herself as many times as she wants. Do I think it is abhorant and she needs help? Yes and 100 times yes. She needs help.

LOL my wedding cost a grand total of 100 bucks (not including the wedding certificate fees and stuff). That 100 included the cost of my dress and the supplies for the cake (my mom baked and decorated it, it looked amazing!!). We were married outside by a military chaplain in the middle of winter. LOL No idea what the "reception" cost. My parents insisted on paying, so that was on them.

Ok, if you are going to stand by that, and claim I have no morals, no nothing then have you blown up any abortion clinics lately? What about threatening a pro life doctors life or family?? Ooooh feels wrong doesn't it? To be grouped with the disgusting heretics of the group doesn't it.....

Who am I gonna be when I lose the weight? I am gonna be the person I am now, then and tomorrow. My weight does not define me, nor does it define you. I have always been a very happy go lucky person, and just because my packaging has changed doesn't mean who I am will change. I have always been this way, thin, fat, almost fat, almost thin I have always been me. On of my favorite quotes, I don't know who said it and after all of this time I don't remember even where I read it from but it is thus ..... I have lived by that quote for more years than I can count anymore.

Everyone here has great advice, but you can only say so much with words. You wont actually be able to reassure him with words, your actions will do so much more for him then you will ever imagine. On the surface your words will pacify him, but that dark park of a mans brain will always want that reassurance in actions not words. In time he will see that you mean it and slowly that dark spot will brighten and he will realize you spoke the truth. Give him time sweet heart, he will come around fully. Let him have his moments of doubt, hold his hand through them and show him (along with telling him) he is the one for you. You will see his confidence rise along with yours, it will be a wonderful thing.

On weekends .. its iffy ... Mon-Fri ... still iffy ... but if you get your call escalated chances are its patched back through to Cisco main CS .... (parent company of Linksys)

*bangs head on desk* Drama alert!! OMG those people are retarded. I have been dealing with them for the last week and all I want is a RMA number to send the router in and get a new one. Not hard, I got the luck of the draw and managed to get the defective router. No big deal you would think ..... Oh no, last week they have been having me do the same things and nada, it does NOT work. But oh no, they wont listen to me, so today they finally escalate the problem to the next level and I am back on hold .... :tt1: :sad: :eek: :cursing: I am ready to chuck the phone at the wall and say screw it and just call the 130 spent wasted and go buy a new one.

Wouldn't say a bunch, but a fair amount yes. Of course he will be in the dark of how much and all of that .. I am mean like that.

I didn't have a 'moment' I had lots of them .... Medical problems kept growing, problems that should have been gone were getting worse. I loathed LOATHED shopping in the womens section. And I was so sick of dieting just to gain it back... lots of things brought me to this surgery.

well first off, Pix is female .. hence the ticker that is counting down my husbands return from deployment. Just don't like netgear, its a personal choice. Saw to many issues with there product when I was actively working in IT (now just contract work on the side). One of the other guys on contract with the company swears by it, and wont touch linksys with a ten foot pole. Just personal thats all (mainly all the stuff I got that was netgear went back PDQ cause it was inadequate and/or a piece of junk).

Honey right now your hormones are in a uproar. The hormones stored in the fat cells that are shrinking are being released back into your system so basically you are going through puberty again, just not officially. It will pass as you lose more weight. Just remember to take a deep breath and mentally remind yourself daily that "all is well, this to shall pass".

Get out and get moving!! Volunteer at your kids school, start going to readings at your local library, find a craft store that has class's for things you enjoy (scrap booking? yarn/needle work? Framing?) You would be amazed at how fast you will make friends when you share a common interest.

I feel everyones pain. Oh man do I ever, when I first got my date I started my 2/3 liquid diet (not required) but (always a but huh?) My 1/3 regular food choices most days are really good. Other days I blow it hard core. Its like my brain is trying to get that last bit of ever so bad for me goodness before I take the plunge so to speak. I have finally gotten myself out of that mess and am back on a good plan. I went and got some of those lean cuisine meals for my dinners. I still make my kids dinner as usual, but instead of eating with them I eat my prepackaged meal and stay on track. I still have a handful of weeks left (two and some days) and then I am on my way. I am hoping to be closer to 230 then 250 when that day rolls around. Not cause the doc wants it but because I want it. I need to prove something to m'self and I hope I can. If not, no worries I will lose it eventually.