Reason to Believe

Hello,
 
My name is Reason to Believe and I am currently in the fact finding stage of weight loss surgery.  I am aiming at having surgery next summer when I can take some time off work.  I just attended a bariatric surgery seminar last week.
 
I have been overweight most of my life.  I lost weight going into college and then started gaining back and more.  I am considered super morbidly obese and that scares me.  I also have a lot of joint pain, sleep apnea, recently diagnosed diabetes and depression.  All of which are good reasons to do have surgery.
 
I am a recovering binge eater and have recently given up diet soda. (six weeks ago!).  I am working on small changes to prove to myself that I can make big lifestyle changes because my biggest fear is that I will have surgery and still fail.
 
I love reading and music.  I am an obsessed Bruce Springsteen fan and I look forward to the day that I can like no one is watching at a Bruce concert.
 
I have started reading all your stories and am so grateful to you for sharing them.