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One pound away from 40 gone! I think when I hit 50 I should celebrate with something fun. Maybe a trip!
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Five pounds lighter AFTER vacation? I'll take it!
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It was definitely difficult when the rest of the family would order the delicious looking fried seafood platter or heavily sweetened mixed drinks, but I stuck to my guns and only ordered grilled or steamed items. I also used it as an excuse to get more active and try activities I wouldn't have before.
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Psych eval completed. That 340 question test was ridiculous.
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I recently posted a question about a psych eval and of those who responded, there were different experiences. Some had extensive questioning and some were just casual conversations. I would like to know what the difference is all about...is it the professional conducting the evaluation or what the insurance requires?? Does anyone know???
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The initial part was a casual conversation with the psych doctor. She had a sheet she was asking specific questions off that she was filling in but for the most part it was just me and her talking. After that I had to go into a room and do the test. The funny part is I am a psychiatric nurse and the questions that weren't obvious throw aways, I could tell what they were checking for. Paranoia, mania, depression, delusions, etc. The most subtle questions were the ones looking for symptoms of bipolar mania. regardless, I answered honestly and feel like my eval shouldn't have shown any major issues.
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Well, if i answer the questions honestly, i am sure it will come back I am suffering from depression. However, a majority of my depression is related to my medical problems, some weight related and some are not, feel as though the surgery will help me with some of the problems (diabetes, sleep apnea, HPB).I definitely don't have any paranoia, mania, delusions, etc. I hope I don't get disqualified for having depression!
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Day 10 pre-op, still losing! When I want to stuff my face I just remind myself how well I'm doing by trying on clothes that are not too big.
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Coming up on 90 lbs lost. The strange thing is I am kind of having a hard time dealing with it mentally. I still feel like a 300 lbs girl in my head.
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It is a hard thing to wrap your head around. I can accept my size but there are a lot of changes that come with losing weight that are hard to explain to people and have them understand. Replacing your entire wardrobe in a matter of months, and still constantly needs new and different things isn't easy to accept, even if you like shopping.
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Thank you all for the reassurance. I wasn't expecting this to all be so hard emotionally. I anticipated missing the old eating habits, but all in all I don't miss my old habits, but I do miss the relative invisibility that came with being so large. People comment quite often on my weight loss and it is beginning to make me uncomfortable. But at the same time, I am incredibly proud of the progress I have made and the hard work I have put in. I think part of the problem is I don't really see much of a difference when I look in the mirror. I can physically feel that I take up less space, but I look at myself and just see 325 lbs. I can recognize I may need some counseling.
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When I look at myself naked in the full length mirror, I don't see a lot of change. Everything looks the same, maybe a little smaller. When I put clothes on I can really tell the difference. Also sometimes I just randomly see differences. This week I noticed that my neck is much slimmer. I had to look at pictures over the past few months to realize, yes my face is slimmer too. I can't see it in the mirror but comparing pictures I can. I try taking pictures of yourself and see if that helps.
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This pre-op diet is killing me. I am SO hungry.
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Officially dropped from a size 26 to a 16. I hit a lot more stalls lately and they last longer and longer, but I will not let it bring me down. I am proud of the progress I made, and I am only half way to goal!
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Shopping has become so much more fun.
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I can't wait to feel this way. It is such a source of frustration for me now. I see so many people who do a fantastic job of dressing nice at a larger size, but I am just not one of them. I can't bring myself to purchase a really nice or expensive outfit because I am always thinking.... I want to lose some weight. Also, LB and some of the nicer places just charge so much! Anyway, even now knowing my surgery is so close, I sit and dream about shopping. I am so thrilled for you! Enjoy
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I still have about 110 or so pounds to lose, but I am finding that I am liking how I look in things much more than I used to after 40 pounds lost. I bought a dress yesterday because I liked how it looked on me and I convinced myself I was worth it. It is definitely hard to justify paying for nice things along the journey because I either beat myself up for being so big or I tell myself "well, in a month or so it wont fit." I spent a good bit of money yesterday on clothes but one reason was because I found a pair of pants that made my butt look awesome, lol.
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What a thrill to look in the mirror and like what you see. Eeeeek! You deserve those pants and you just go rock that awesome new butt of yours! You deserve the new clothes to make up for all the time you didn't go shopping. What a joy it will be to give those away in a month! I am so pumped for you.
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After quite some time browsing this site, extensive research, and , meeting with a bariatric surgeon, the decision has been made. All that needs to be done now is to set a date for surgery. I am very excited.
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So close to my first 50 pound goal I can TASTE it. ONE POUND!
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Gained 4 pounds of fluid over night. Got to stop forgetting to take my meds. :/
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Vacation started yesterday. Have been sticking to my diet in the face of temptation. Pre-making most of my meals has been a life saver!
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Two weeks until surgery day! The clock is ticking down!
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It goes so fast @Paige Dukes. Best of Luck and see you on this side very soon. Keep us posted!!
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Had a really emotional night. Haven't slept in a while. This makes me realize there are a lot more issues going on than basic overeating.
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Just a lot of frustration and anger and fear culminated into one big cry fest. Really helped to get it all out, but still can't sleep. just can't shut my brain off.
I think part of my problem may be I am used to working 12 night shifts and when I go to sleep I crash and sleep like a brick. I have been off for 12 days for the surgery and I think my sleep cycle isn't used to the time off.
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yikes paige....its ok to have a cry fest, you've been through a lot and yes there is so much more to all of our lives other than just the weight. I use 1mg of Ativan, it helps but not for every one. Sleep deprivation on top of everything is so hard on us ( im not a good sleeper), your body ad mind is out of wack. It will be better soon. xoxox
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I hate having such a problem with fluid retention. I know those 2-3 pounds of weight gain overnight is excess fluid but it is still disheartening to see on the scale.
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Weight loss came to a stand still. I think it may be due to too few calories. Gonna change it up a little.
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Got my first fill today. Definitely feeling a difference.
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2 days post op now. Having a hard time making myself eat/drink and also get up and walk. I just want to sleep, which I have been doing a lot of. I have noticed today it is much easier to get up and down and that my appetite has slightly returned. Looking forward to the banded life!
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Bought neon pink and blue hot pants today. Fierce!
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The plan worked! Stall has broken. 1.5 lost this week.
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First visit with the nutritionist today! Ready to learn!
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Over worked my stomach a little yesterday. Even without a fill I am definitely feeling satiated a lot earlier. Gotta learn I don't always have to finish the portion!
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Last night I went from super excited that my surgery is only two weeks away, to absolutely terrified. It hit me while I was trying to go to sleep. It was almost a complete panic attack. I started thinking about surgery and being under anesthesia. I don't fear the lifestyle change that comes after, my fears are 100% based on this nagging idea that I could be THAT person who has the negative reaction to anesthesia, or throws a clot, or bleeds out, and on and on and on. After finally falling asleep I had nightmares all night related to death. I trust my surgeon 100%, I just all of a sudden got hit with the anxiety surrounding the potential complications. I really hope that when the day finally gets here that I am not a complete wreck.
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Same thing happened to me! When I made the surgery appt, it was exactly 4 weeks away, then over that weekend, I woke up in a panic thinking "it's only 3 1/2 weeks away!" I don't know why 3 1/2 sounded so much closer than 4! LOL! It will go by fast! And anesthesia is always a little scary. It is always the part I dread for any surgery I have had (which is numerous I am afraid). I have had some not great experiences in the past, but the person I had for my bypass was AMAZING! Easiest going to sleep and waking up and without nausea I have ever had. I was very grateful for him! Try to keep your mind off that part if you can.
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Have had a hell of a week. Had to cut short the New Orleans trip due to mouth pain. Ended up gaining 5 pounds due to poor food choices, and then lost it again after having to have this bastard of a tooth pulled. I have never experienced pain like that. I now have a busted smile but at least the pain has diminished greatly. NOW TO GET BACK ON TRACK!
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Have had a rough week. Had to put our dog down Wednesday. Not handling it well. On top of that I have been working a lot og overtime and haven't had time to cook. It makes food choices harder but I'm still staying in my calorie allowance, and still dropping weight, at least.