Paige Dukes

I can't wait to feel this way. It is such a source of frustration for me now. I see so many people who do a fantastic job of dressing nice at a larger size, but I am just not one of them. I can't bring myself to purchase a really nice or expensive outfit because I am always thinking.... I want to lose some weight. Also, LB and some of the nicer places just charge so much! Anyway, even now knowing my surgery is so close, I sit and dream about shopping. I am so thrilled for you! Enjoy

I still have about 110 or so pounds to lose, but I am finding that I am liking how I look in things much more than I used to after 40 pounds lost. I bought a dress yesterday because I liked how it looked on me and I convinced myself I was worth it. It is definitely hard to justify paying for nice things along the journey because I either beat myself up for being so big or I tell myself "well, in a month or so it wont fit." I spent a good bit of money yesterday on clothes but one reason was because I found a pair of pants that made my butt look awesome, lol.

What a thrill to look in the mirror and like what you see. Eeeeek! You deserve those pants and you just go rock that awesome new butt of yours! You deserve the new clothes to make up for all the time you didn't go shopping. What a joy it will be to give those away in a month! I am so pumped for you.