fitflab25
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Well I was sleeping when the call came in yesterday! I work midnights so I sleep in split shifts (yawwnnnn) Any ways I GOT APPROVED! NO PROUBLEMS NO DELAYS I WEIGHEND IN thursday on the 18 this month they sent it in and tuesday on the 23rd I got a call saying Im approved! All I have to do now is schedule a suregery date for what I gathered. I told the nurse Ill call them back to do that cause i was half a sleep! Im to excited but reality hit that im actually doing this so the little fears kicked in again..... I was watching the biggest loser thinking every one can lose the weight like that if we have those resources! I even applied for that show a year ago! Well now im excited to call and get a date to make a time line of when I can start living like a real 20's aged women! Not to mention move to that last point of my career of being actual dept of army police!!! Ill keep ya posted
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Well as of today Im currently weighing in at 218! Yeah Ive lost some weight on my own but it shouldnt take two years do lose about 45 lbs on your own!! Ive been to 3 surgeons seminars, one gastric bypass and two lap bands. A week from tomarrow Mon 22 of sept 08 I was at a Woodbridge, Va Lap Band surgeons office to qualify. I missed it by 5 pounds so went in the following thursday after eatting what I call a normal breakfest and hit the numbers on the spot! Now currently waiting on the insurence to say yay or nay... The past gatric bypass thing, believe it or not I was litterally lying in the hospital bed and about to get the white stuff. But I panicked cause I was left in a room all alone and never had surgery before in my life! Not even a freaking tooth pulled!! That was in Louisiana May of 2005. I then gained a extra bit of weight taking me up to 264!!!! January of 2007 I decided to try and figure out a way to shrink my own stomach, so I forced my self to eat only out of a coffee mug only one and when my stomach grawled like mad crazy! It was horrible and all but after 2 weeks it worked and weight started falling off. Ive lost a total of about 45 pounds since thing just by portions and working out in the gym for at least 2 hours at a time!!!!! But here at 218 Im at that point where my weight dosent want to go no where! Im so tired of this struggle not being able to dress like I want to for my age, go clubbing and dressing hot! I have no kids and not married so I shouldnt be dressing like hillary clinton! But Im just a jeans and t shirt gal, I find that t shirts hide that roll real good and show just enough of the booty. I work security for the federal Gov, but my goal is to be Federal Gov police for the Dept of the army, I just need to be in shape and look the part and in the civian military theres no stero type police officers! So yea this weight is a burden on my career also. Im deciding to face my fears becasue of my girlfriend in FL she had the surgery done in May and OMG what a a transformation from then to now!!! Im so jelous of her!! She so hot and sexy now, her and her hubbys relationship is like the fourt of the july she goes to clubs and wears all the hottest outfits. I want that confidence so bad!!! I hate it when Im having bedroom time with my man, anything with my stomach grosses me out!!! He maybe not catch it but it totally ruins the mood for me mentally and that ruins it all for most females in that department. My weight god it holds me back in so much!!! I need to let it go so I can let go and free my self!!!
Now to list my fears of this if it happens:
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Just it being surgery in general never had it b4.
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Pain, Im tough and can handle alot of it but how much dose this bring.
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Scars! How noticle are they? Do they shrink as we lose weight, dose mederma scar softner help it?
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lose skin, ive yo yoed for so long!
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will my portions be majorly noticable for those that dont know i have this!
scheduling the surgery date
in My path to being comfy with my self in and out.
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Well today I finally got ahold of the lady to make a schedule for the surgery. She said we schedule the surgery then work back from there and on backwards. So she listed me some dates and neither of them go with my work schedule, and it look like it will be around Nov when I can make it happen. She also said I will be staying in over night also thats just there proceedure. Honestly right now Im asking my self have I really done all that I think I can do to lose this freaking weight, is there a real possability that I can do it on my own?? Im so uncertain about so many things Iim considering just not getting it done and try some more on my own. After all I made it this far on my own?
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