Meechbethy

krtork, Thank you so much for your kind words for both my friend and me! I have packed a bag with "workout" clothes for tomorrow and will finally join my friends in the small gym we have at work. I hate to get sweaty in the middle of the day, at least that has been my excuse for my co-workers all 5 years I have worked with them! LOL! However, there is no time like the present, so I might as well jump! I also agree that finding someone to "talk" to is in order as we have no support groups within 100 miles of where I live and I am not doing the greatest job dealing with everything going on at the moment. It is just that with my friend, what was supposed to be that turning point in her life, that "thing" that was going to make her life better ended up taking her life! I feel like I am betraying her by not fully appreciating and utilizing the gift the band has been for me. Ugh, it just makes me so angry that she fought for two years for the "right" to have her surgery and it was a downward spiral from the beginning for her. Sorry I got off-track there; I just wanted to thank you again for your kind words of encouragement! Beth

I am so there with you! I lost 80 pounds fairly "easily" but for almost a year I have lost nothing. I, too, am lazy and don't want to exercise! I am so tired from work, have major insomnia that nothing seems to help, and just feel like I can’t find the energy to even start. I am terrified that I am going to gain the weight I lost back and I really couldn’t handle that. Only 4 days ago a close friend who was only 2 years older than me died from complications of gastric bypass surgery. She was 47 and now she is gone. My emotions about what is going on with me are now clouded even further by feelings of guilt that I should feel happy and grateful about where I am and that I am healthy and have no complications. But I still cannot shake being unhappy that I am stuck and can’t seem to be able work my way out of this.

:hippie:Hi all! I am getting banded at 8:30am this coming Monday, November 19th. This site is so great, I just found it and am so excited to have a group of people who know what I will be going through! It is strange, but I am getting less scared and confused the closer it gets... I guess all of the support from family and friends has finally helped me be confident in my decision. I have had some real mind games up until now! I have lost 14 pounds on a clear liquid diet in 5 days and it is freaking me out because I have NEVER lost like that before! I am afraid it will stop! Hope everyone is well!