Gailypooh1

WEEK FROM HELL Hubby started new job Monday (YAY), he came home early from work Tuesday cuz he was barfing. I start barfing Tuesday night. HOLY HELL it HURT. My old stomache came up thru my new stomache and damn, did it hurt. The last thing I ate was Tueday around 7pm... yacking around 11pm. I was up all night sitting on the toilet, barfing in to a bucket (sorry for the visual). I didnt go to work Wed (neither did hubby). Back to work (for me) on thursday only to find out late in the afternoon that the hot water heater let go and we need a new one. Hubby HAD to go back to work on Friday, so I stayed home to wait for someone to come replace it. What really brings me here is the fact that I'm NOT losing weight. My last fill was good... til wednesday of that week. I got it on a sat and could eat without restriction on wed??? Thats not right is it? I had an appointment with the doctor on wed but was still way too sick to go and I havent called to reschedule yet (been a bit busy). Hubby saw his sister and came home and told me that something was wrong with me (duh). I dont know how much she has lost but she is in a size 12. I'd KILL for that. I'm not really jealous, just more concerned about whats going on with me. Granted, my fat ass hasnt exactly gotten on a treadmill but I am eating very well and 1/4 of what I used to consume. I went to my pcp for a physical and all my blood work was good. IDK. I just want something to work out for me here. I am soooo tired of constant disappointments in my life. SIGH

WEEK FROM HELL Hubby started new job Monday (YAY), he came home early from work Tuesday cuz he was barfing. I start barfing Tuesday night. HOLY HELL it HURT. My old stomache came up thru my new stomache and damn, did it hurt. The last thing I ate was Tueday around 7pm... yacking around 11pm. I was up all night sitting on the toilet, barfing in to a bucket (sorry for the visual). I didnt go to work Wed (neither did hubby). Back to work (for me) on thursday only to find out late in the afternoon that the hot water heater let go and we need a new one. Hubby HAD to go back to work on Friday, so I stayed home to wait for someone to come replace it. What really brings me here is the fact that I'm NOT losing weight. My last fill was good... til wednesday of that week. I got it on a sat and could eat without restriction on wed??? Thats not right is it? I had an appointment with the doctor on wed but was still way too sick to go and I havent called to reschedule yet (been a bit busy). Hubby saw his sister and came home and told me that something was wrong with me (duh). I dont know how much she has lost but she is in a size 12. I'd KILL for that. I'm not really jealous, just more concerned about whats going on with me. Granted, my fat ass hasnt exactly gotten on a treadmill but I am eating very well and 1/4 of what I used to consume. I went to my pcp for a physical and all my blood work was good. IDK. I just want something to work out for me here. I am soooo tired of constant disappointments in my life. SIGH

Yesterday was a busy day. Typical day in New England.. it snowed but that wasnt going to stop me. I went for my 2nd fill. I had one three weeks ago that didnt do much for me after the first few days of it. I saw the PA. He couldnt find my port. He's in me with the needle just digging and pushing and holy hell it hurt. He gave me 4cc's of saline instead of 2. He said if I can still eat, to call in a week. So far, I'm not hungry but I can still eat. Then I got a hair cut and an eyebrow wax. I dont know what hurt more, the fill or the waxing. I am so blond and so fair that people just say, "what eyebrows?" I had it done almost 2 years ago so I figured I was due. Then hubby and I went to the parents to clean their snow, then to the flea market but there want anything good going on there. We finally come home and the girl who I have been chatting with about taking her Chihuahua for my parents contacts me and says, we can meet in an hour at walmart. Okay. So, we have been talking about the dog, the dog, the dog, then she throws in the words adoption fee. UGH. So she's asking 160. I've already gotten my parents interested in the dog. Hubby is freaking out but I agree to it and we are on our way to the bank and to walmart. The dog is so beautiful and made my dad happy instantly. It was well worth it. I went to bed early last night but was up in the middle of the night. I am up early for a Sunday but I have stuff to do today. So far my cup of tea is keeping me satisfied. Psychologically though, I want something to chew on. Allrighty.. I am off and running like a turtle.

Yesterday was a busy day. Typical day in New England.. it snowed but that wasnt going to stop me. I went for my 2nd fill. I had one three weeks ago that didnt do much for me after the first few days of it. I saw the PA. He couldnt find my port. He's in me with the needle just digging and pushing and holy hell it hurt. He gave me 4cc's of saline instead of 2. He said if I can still eat, to call in a week. So far, I'm not hungry but I can still eat. Then I got a hair cut and an eyebrow wax. I dont know what hurt more, the fill or the waxing. I am so blond and so fair that people just say, "what eyebrows?" I had it done almost 2 years ago so I figured I was due. Then hubby and I went to the parents to clean their snow, then to the flea market but there want anything good going on there. We finally come home and the girl who I have been chatting with about taking her Chihuahua for my parents contacts me and says, we can meet in an hour at walmart. Okay. So, we have been talking about the dog, the dog, the dog, then she throws in the words adoption fee. UGH. So she's asking 160. I've already gotten my parents interested in the dog. Hubby is freaking out but I agree to it and we are on our way to the bank and to walmart. The dog is so beautiful and made my dad happy instantly. It was well worth it. I went to bed early last night but was up in the middle of the night. I am up early for a Sunday but I have stuff to do today. So far my cup of tea is keeping me satisfied. Psychologically though, I want something to chew on. Allrighty.. I am off and running like a turtle.

This has nothing to do with my band, I just need to get it out... I have a Chihuahua that I love. The hubby and I decide to start looking for a brother or sister for her. He knows someone giving away a Chihuahua at the end of march. In conversation with Mom, I mention the free dog and how we are excited to get her. Last night, she says "dad wants the dog." HUH? So today, I call Mom and she says Dad is excited about the dog. Again... HUH? I never once offered her the dog and now they want MY dog????:frown: I offered them Wiley and the neighbor got them a dog that they said no to and she is stuck with. So I am now conflicted. Do I give my parents the new dog? Do I tell them that we want the dog? I want to give them the dog but hubby wants to keep the dog (I also want to keep the dog). I have spent all night on petfinder, craigslist, shelter sites, you name it, I have been there seeking a dog for them. I am concerned that if I find them a dog I will be stuck with it like their neighbor. I have 3 cats and a dog and one dog on the way. I dont want 3 dogs. (Okay, I do but I gotta draw the line somewhere). On a band note, I go for my 2nd fill on saturday. If it hurts like the 1st fill, I am so gonna punch Dr. F. in the chops.:biggrin: I have been eating fine but not exercising and that is my downfall. I refuse to step on the scale but I feel like I am gaining not losing. I am a bit frustrated but I have no reason to be frustrated if I cant get my tub-o-lard self motivated enough to look at the treadmill much less use the damn thing. I had a salad incedent last saturday... I ate too much too fast and felt like I was gonna die. When I over-eat, I get sleepy. I started to fall asleep but my chest felt like it was gonna rip open. I dont ever want to feel like that again. It was wild (in a bad way). I ate salad all week and have not had any adverse reactions to it. I love salad and I hope I can continue to eat it. Okay, bitch session over.:tt2: I am stressed out but going to bed now. I hope I can relax enough to sleep. 4:30 comes way too early for my liking. Thanks for letting me vent... SIGH:leaving:

This has nothing to do with my band, I just need to get it out... I have a Chihuahua that I love. The hubby and I decide to start looking for a brother or sister for her. He knows someone giving away a Chihuahua at the end of march. In conversation with Mom, I mention the free dog and how we are excited to get her. Last night, she says "dad wants the dog." HUH? So today, I call Mom and she says Dad is excited about the dog. Again... HUH? I never once offered her the dog and now they want MY dog????:frown: I offered them Wiley and the neighbor got them a dog that they said no to and she is stuck with. So I am now conflicted. Do I give my parents the new dog? Do I tell them that we want the dog? I want to give them the dog but hubby wants to keep the dog (I also want to keep the dog). I have spent all night on petfinder, craigslist, shelter sites, you name it, I have been there seeking a dog for them. I am concerned that if I find them a dog I will be stuck with it like their neighbor. I have 3 cats and a dog and one dog on the way. I dont want 3 dogs. (Okay, I do but I gotta draw the line somewhere). On a band note, I go for my 2nd fill on saturday. If it hurts like the 1st fill, I am so gonna punch Dr. F. in the chops.:party: I have been eating fine but not exercising and that is my downfall. I refuse to step on the scale but I feel like I am gaining not losing. I am a bit frustrated but I have no reason to be frustrated if I cant get my tub-o-lard self motivated enough to look at the treadmill much less use the damn thing. I had a salad incedent last saturday... I ate too much too fast and felt like I was gonna die. When I over-eat, I get sleepy. I started to fall asleep but my chest felt like it was gonna rip open. I dont ever want to feel like that again. It was wild (in a bad way). I ate salad all week and have not had any adverse reactions to it. I love salad and I hope I can continue to eat it. Okay, bitch session over.:tt2: I am stressed out but going to bed now. I hope I can relax enough to sleep. 4:30 comes way too early for my liking. Thanks for letting me vent... SIGH:leaving:

I have decided that I do not enjoy being a domestic goddess on my day off. Hubby has to work so I have the whole house to myself. I did the dishes, I hard-boiled some eggs and I am washing all of the bedding. My house was built in 1923.... The washer is on the first floor, the dryer is in the basement. It is the oddest set up yet. I would love for the laundry to be all on one floor. I'd prefer the 2nd floor but just together would be great. I slept in but was up before the crack of noon. I have been slightly productive but here's the kicker... I havent eaten yet, unless you count my protein shake, and I am not hungry... at all. I sweated all night. I was soooo hot and soaked and gross but when I finally peeled myself from the bed, I wasnt swollen or puffy or anything. My ankles were visable. I'm wondering if I had something super salty and just decided to become a camel and hoard the water in my body. (thats why all the bedding is being washed). Now, I am looking forward to clean sheet night.. there is nothing better than a hot bath and clean sheet night. I may be in bed by 7 just to enjoy it..lol.:thumbup: I am thinking a salad for lunch but I havent got a clue as to what to make for dinner. In the "old" days, I would just make some pasta and call it a day. Now I need to put thought and effort in to it or we end up eating out. I dont want to do that anymore. I am breaking the calorie bank (as well as the real bank) by doing that. I dunno. I have some jewelry to make so I think I am going to go do that

I have decided that I do not enjoy being a domestic goddess on my day off. Hubby has to work so I have the whole house to myself. I did the dishes, I hard-boiled some eggs and I am washing all of the bedding. My house was built in 1923.... The washer is on the first floor, the dryer is in the basement. It is the oddest set up yet. I would love for the laundry to be all on one floor. I'd prefer the 2nd floor but just together would be great. I slept in but was up before the crack of noon. I have been slightly productive but here's the kicker... I havent eaten yet, unless you count my protein shake, and I am not hungry... at all. I sweated all night. I was soooo hot and soaked and gross but when I finally peeled myself from the bed, I wasnt swollen or puffy or anything. My ankles were visable. I'm wondering if I had something super salty and just decided to become a camel and hoard the water in my body. (thats why all the bedding is being washed). Now, I am looking forward to clean sheet night.. there is nothing better than a hot bath and clean sheet night. I may be in bed by 7 just to enjoy it..lol. I am thinking a salad for lunch but I havent got a clue as to what to make for dinner. In the "old" days, I would just make some pasta and call it a day. Now I need to put thought and effort in to it or we end up eating out. I dont want to do that anymore. I am breaking the calorie bank (as well as the real bank) by doing that. I dunno. I have some jewelry to make so I think I am going to go do that

Ah, the weekend. I have had a partially quiet day. Hubby is watching the race at his buddies house. I have played with my beads all day arranging and cleaning. I have spent hours in my beads and didnt even make one earring. I have a lot of design ideas now so maybe later or tomorrow I will make something. I went shopping yesterday and almost bought clothes but decided against it. I have been on a strange sweater kick. I sweat to death in my office because the others are cold :huh2: but I have been buying sweaters on clearance. I hope I dont fit in to them next year. I am trying to eat better. I mentally added up my average calorie content during the week. I am consuming roughly 600 cals during the day and I think dinner has been the issue. I do sooo well til I come home. I need to cook at home. Yesterday, the hubby and I were running errands and my hands started to swell to the point where I couldnt get my rings off. You wanna talk about freaking me out. I came home and ran them under cold water and the swelling went down but this morning, the swelling was back. Mild. But back. I guess I am just rambling out of boredom. Better than eating cuz I'm bored.:thumbup: I'm going to find my psycho Chihuahua and make sure she hasnt pee'd on anything... it never ends. lol

Ah, the weekend. I have had a partially quiet day. Hubby is watching the race at his buddies house. I have played with my beads all day arranging and cleaning. I have spent hours in my beads and didnt even make one earring. I have a lot of design ideas now so maybe later or tomorrow I will make something. I went shopping yesterday and almost bought clothes but decided against it. I have been on a strange sweater kick. I sweat to death in my office because the others are cold but I have been buying sweaters on clearance. I hope I dont fit in to them next year. I am trying to eat better. I mentally added up my average calorie content during the week. I am consuming roughly 600 cals during the day and I think dinner has been the issue. I do sooo well til I come home. I need to cook at home. Yesterday, the hubby and I were running errands and my hands started to swell to the point where I couldnt get my rings off. You wanna talk about freaking me out. I came home and ran them under cold water and the swelling went down but this morning, the swelling was back. Mild. But back. I guess I am just rambling out of boredom. Better than eating cuz I'm bored. I'm going to find my psycho Chihuahua and make sure she hasnt pee'd on anything... it never ends. lol

Everyone keeps commenting on my weight loss. I'm beginning to think that people are seeing what they want to see. I do not SEE a loss. Sure, my clothes are a bit bigger, my undie size has dropped and I went shopping last night and bought a sweater 1 size smaller than I would normally figuring that I'd fit in to it later--I wore it today. I dunno. Maybe I am in denial about the loss... after all, I was in denial about the gain for a long time. So, it snowed again. I hate the snow but what I hate worse is the people (at work) who need to discuss the weather as if they have never seen it before. It's winter in New England. I snows, rains, hails, sleets, freezes and then gets sunny. Deal with it. come summer the same people will be bitching about the heat, humidity, and thunderstorms. And I will be right here bitching about them...lol. I tried to eat sirloin last night. It tasted soooo good but I got kinda sick. I ate around 6-ish. I went to bed late for me-around 1030.. I had a tummy ache/burpies/and kinda felt like a cat with a hairball. I dont anticipate having that again for a while. I am, however, craving buffalo chicken. I am PMSing and tend to crave spicy during THAT time but the buffalo craving is driving me nuts. I'm glad it's Wednesday but I am really looking forwarf to my long weekend ahead:smile:

Everyone keeps commenting on my weight loss. I'm beginning to think that people are seeing what they want to see. I do not SEE a loss. Sure, my clothes are a bit bigger, my undie size has dropped and I went shopping last night and bought a sweater 1 size smaller than I would normally figuring that I'd fit in to it later--I wore it today. I dunno. Maybe I am in denial about the loss... after all, I was in denial about the gain for a long time. So, it snowed again. I hate the snow but what I hate worse is the people (at work) who need to discuss the weather as if they have never seen it before. It's winter in New England. I snows, rains, hails, sleets, freezes and then gets sunny. Deal with it. come summer the same people will be bitching about the heat, humidity, and thunderstorms. And I will be right here bitching about them...lol. I tried to eat sirloin last night. It tasted soooo good but I got kinda sick. I ate around 6-ish. I went to bed late for me-around 1030.. I had a tummy ache/burpies/and kinda felt like a cat with a hairball. I dont anticipate having that again for a while. I am, however, craving buffalo chicken. I am PMSing and tend to crave spicy during THAT time but the buffalo craving is driving me nuts. I'm glad it's Wednesday but I am really looking forwarf to my long weekend ahead:smile:

I started my day as usual.. running like a loon cuz I cant scrape myself from the warm, cozy bed but thats besides the point... I made my 2 scambled eggs w/my hunk of mozzarella cheese on the side. Thank god for the dog.. I could NOT finish my eggs :eek:. I had my beloved protein shake at my 930 break. It hit me like a ton of bricks.. I was FULL. Lunch was half of a turkey on wheat wrap... I made it with more lettuce than anything. I also had a yogurt. can we say FULL. At my 230 break I had my other protein shake and felt... whats the word I am looking for... FULL. I came home from work and finished my salad (leftover from yesterday) and I am FULL.:biggrin2: Full is not something I have felt before. Not without a lot of food being involved. I am so flippin excited about this whole fill thing. It almost motivated me to get off my ass and use my treadmill. I said ALMOST. Instead I am being a mouse-potato and comtemplating a long hot bath since I now have clearance to take one. I do have one side effect of the fill though. :wink2: I'm burping like a mo-fo. In the fat-club meetings, they said gas and burping repeatedly but in my first 5 weeks, I had nearly none of that stuff. Today..BURP. Every few minutes... BURP. While it doesnt bother me so much, I have very stuffy coworkers that are not so amused (BURP). Hell, atleast I wasnt farting. I am FINALLY starting to feel as if this has all been worth it and my mood is obviously improving a bit. I still hate my coworkers (most of them) but now I am starting to like myself just a smidge anyway.:thumbup: I am going to take the long awaited HOT bath and I am going to stay in there til I run out of hot water and wrinkle like a prune. OOOOOO. I almost forgot to mention that I went down a size in undies. I can almost buy hanes-her-way in a color other than white. Whoo-freakin-whooo. I have been so looking forward to the day I get to buy some pink panties!!!! Hell, in a few more months, I might be back to wearing thongs. I gave up thongs years ago after my enormous weight gain. While they were still comfy.. I couldnt bear to see the fat girl in thongs. Not attractive. Walmart has/had tummy control thongs. SERIOUSLY. why bother controlling the tummy when the booty is jiggling uncontrollably???